“Because I’m not a man who shares easily.” His deep gaze told her he was serious.
And now her insides were quaking. He didn’t care whether or not she altered her appearance with makeup. He was attracted to her anyway, and considering he’d always stared hard and seemed interested, she knew he wasn’t lying. But he was screwing up her results for her column and wreaking havoc with her body and her brain.
“Come with me to Emma’s Christmas bash Saturday night,” he said, changing the subject.
His words surprised her. “As colleagues or something more?” She wanted the rules spelled out, no misunderstandings allowed.
“Call it what you want,” he said in a determined voice. “I’ll pick you up at eight.”
She wanted to go with him, but something about the way he’d ordered her around didn’t sit well with her. “If I show up with you, I can’t mingle with other men, and the opportunity to research is lost.” She treated him to a pout for effect.
“That’s the point.” Biting back a grin, he folded his arms over his chest. “I want you to myself. Besides, you said yourself you’re alone for the holidays.”
Actually, she’d only said her brother lived in New York. He was coming to visit next weekend for Christmas Eve, but that didn’t seem relevant right now.
“With Joe in the hospital I’m solo, too. Are you going to make me spend the holidays alone?” Colin’s eyes twinkled as he obviously played his trump card.
He knew it, so did she. How could she turn down a man she’d seen in real pain over his father’s stroke and the changes Corinne had brought to the office?
“Come on, Rina,” he said, resorting to shameless pleading. “Emma’s grandson was my college roommate. I know from personal experience the Montgomery-family bash is enough to brighten anyone’s holiday. It’s an event you have to see for yourself. But not alone,” he quickly added, before she could jump in with that very suggestion.
She eyed him warily.
“If I promise to leave you alone long enough to work your wiles on the unsuspecting men there, will you let me pick you up at eight?” he asked, giving her a choice.
She expelled a breath of air. Until that moment, she hadn’t realized she’d really been about to say no. Because his pushing, no matter how flirtatious, made her feel cornered when she wanted to make her own decisions. His insistence, she acknowledged now, had reminded her of Robert, of the times he’d wanted to go to a legal benefit of some sort and she’d preferred to stay home. Back then, there had never been a compromise. Her husband’s way had always prevailed.
The realization surprised her and she rubbed her hands over her arms, shocked that Colin had provided a parallel to her marriage. An unflattering one at that. But Colin had offered her a real choice now. He honestly cared about her feelings.
Which allowed her to say yes. Pleased and suddenly excited, she met his patient stare, letting her smile grow before she spoke. “Okay. Eight’s fine.”
His eyes widened. Apparently she’d surprised him. “I’m glad,” he said.
“You’d better be prompt.” The night would give her even more opportunity to implement changes and ply her charms on the upper crust of Ashford society. As well as on Colin, she thought with yearning and anticipation.
He grinned. “I wouldn’t miss one second of our time together.”
Neither would she, and she wondered what other surprises the holidays had in store. “I need to get back to work.”
He inclined his head toward her desk. “I’m not stopping you.”
Yes, he was. Just by being in the room. She started for her work area, ignoring the curious stares, and the feel of Colin’s gaze branding her back. For the first time, she realized they’d created a world apart in the crowded office. Talking as if no one else in the room existed. She trembled at the discovery. If he had the power to entrance her so thoroughly in public, she wondered what he’d do if he got her alone. She had this weekend to tease herself with all the exciting possibilities.
And she had Emma’s party at which to find out. Because if she had her way, she and Colin I-don’t-stick-around Lyons were about to embark on a brief but oh so very satisfying affair.
SO RINA CLAIMED the makeup was part of her experiment for her column? Like hell, Colin thought. He’d prefer to think it had something to do with him.
It was no secret he’d been attracted to her from day one, but he hadn’t known anything about her. In one brief talk he’d learned plenty. She’d shocked him by being so down-to-earth and understanding, so interested in his life and his past. He’d turned, intending to thank her. Instead, he’d been surprised by her new look. Rina didn’t need makeup to turn him on. But he couldn’t deny that her newly made-up face, glowing skin and full, pink, made-to-be-kissed lips had entranced him anyway. And he wanted to taste that glossy pout again now.
Ever since he’d let down his guard for that kiss, he’d been in a constant state of arousal. And from the minute he’d seen her today, long strands of hair hanging down her back, he’d wanted her even more. Unbelievable but true. He swallowed a groan, feeling as though he’d been sucker punched, because it didn’t end there. When she’d let down her guard enough to listen to his problems, lust had turned to something a little more. She’d crept under his skin.
She was the first woman who’d affected him on a gut level. Even now, back at their desks, his horizontally next to hers, they sat in aware silence. Every so often, she’d glance his way, her eyes opened wider than usual. And even through the eyeglass lenses, their golden sparkle twinkled at him, extending an invitation, one he wondered whether she was even aware of issuing.
Though he should have invited her to Emma’s party as a means to feel her out on the subject of Corinne, his initial reasoning had been far different. He’d be damned if he’d let her spend the holidays alone in a new town, no family, few friends. Not after she’d been there for him at the awful moment he’d been forced to acknowledge Corinne’s expensively decorated tree.
When was the last time he’d trusted a woman with his feelings? Certainly his ex-wife, Julie, had taught him the pain inherent in sharing and the benefit of accounting to no one. After his parents died, travel had always beckoned to him. It didn’t take a shrink to figure out that he was running from the pain, but there wasn’t a damn thing he could do about his overwhelming desire to go.
As he matured, he’d realized that he could do some good by combining travel with his journalistic talent and bring world news back home. When Julie had cheated on him, leaving him emotionally, as well as physically, just as his parents had, it was time to move on. Colin had quit his day job and left the country.
He’d never gotten close to another woman since, yet here he was, sharing his pain with Rina, a woman he barely knew. Ironically, he felt as if she understood him better than Julie ever had. But he had a paper to save and he couldn’t forget his mission again. Couldn’t let his goal drop in favor of enjoying Rina’s warm, giving personality or sexy new look. If the time seemed right to question her about Corinne, he’d damn well better do it, since he had a phone message on his answering machine from the CEO of Fortune’s Inc., asking about progress. In reality, the clock was ticking down.
And psychologically, the situation settled on Colin’s shoulders in a different way. Both Ron Gold, the lender, and Bert Hartmann, head of Fortune’s, were old friends of Joe’s and had helped him fund the paper back in its early days. Hartmann currently brought in a huge chunk of change for the paper every year, and the Times couldn’t afford to lose the company’s support. Nor did Colin want to disappoint Joe and have him come back to a sunken ship and lost respect in the eyes of his colleagues. Colin was determined. If nothing else, the Times would be on the road to recovery by the time Joe left the hospital.
“’Tis the season to be jolly, fa-la-la-la-la, la-la, la-la.” A distinctive, high-pitched voice traveled into the room, and Colin cringed as Corinne, decked out in a sable coat that he knew hadn’t come cheap, sauntered through the place.
She swirled through, dispensing tinsel in her wake, and he picked a gold strand off his black sweater. “I’ve come to invite you all to a Christmas party,” she said.
Her voice grated on his nerves. So did her words. “Emma’s family is having a party Saturday night.” His objective was to bail out the paper. He didn’t need her spending any more cash they didn’t have. “We’re all invited, so why don’t you save money and celebrate there?”
“Oh, don’t be a spoilsport, Colin,” Rina said. “It’s nice of Corinne to want to show her employees holiday spirit and a good time.”
Which cemented for him whose side Rina was on. Of course, he doubted Corinne had informed her of the paper’s precarious financial position. He couldn’t fault Rina for having holiday spirit and let her comment slide. But after their talk today, Colin understood Rina a little better, too. She hadn’t grown up wealthy. That put him in a better position to appeal to her regarding Corinne’s excessive spending—once he felt more sure she’d trust where his interests lay.
“Rina’s right.” Corinne smiled and readjusted the collar of her coat. “I’m glad to see someone here appreciates me.”
“Don’t kid yourself, Corinne. I appreciate you and everything you stand for,” Colin muttered.
Rina coughed and he glanced over. Her eyebrows were raised but she said nothing.
Intelligent and circumspect, she’d obviously picked up the undercurrents and decided to let things play out without interrupting.
“Everyone, listen.” Corinne clapped her hands and all heads lifted from computer screens, keyboards and layouts in order to glance up. “We’re having a party Friday night at the Seaside Restaurant. Guests welcome.” With another toss of tinsel, she started for the door.
“Corinne, wait,” Colin called.
She turned.
“Where are you going?” he asked mildly.
“To plan the menu.” She hiked her bag back onto her shoulder. “I also want to buy token appreciation gifts for the staff. Joe would want that.” She sniffed and lifted a hand, as if to blot a tear from her eye.
Colin couldn’t tell if the sentiment was real or phony. With Corinne, he didn’t know her well enough to be sure. “You’d do Joe more good by staying at the hospital instead. Be with your husband.” Corinne was supposed to take the morning shift while Colin covered afternoons. “And while you’re at it, ask Joe if he’d want you spending what’s left of the paper’s budget on a party,” he said so only she could hear.
She waved a hand, dismissing his concerns. “I refuse to bother Joe when he needs his strength to recover. Besides, you worry too much.”
“And you don’t worry enough. Bert Hartmann called reminding us of Fortune’s Inc.’s deadline. You need to get Joe to transfer power of attorney back to me or sign a good-faith promise to change the paper’s direction.” He ran a frustrated hand through his hair. “Hell, Corinne, just start running front-page news. That’ll get us through the new year without losing our biggest advertiser.” He heard the pleading in his voice and didn’t care.
She shook her head. “It’d be based on false pretenses, Colin, because I believe in my vision.” Corinne turned away, effectively ending the conversation.
Which was just as well. If she continued, he might throttle her. He didn’t need to wonder why he rarely came home, when the frustrating reason stood in front of him.
“Emma,” Corinne called as she started for the door. “Colin seems a little stressed. Maybe you could work on fixing him up next.”
He rolled his eyes.
Emma laughed, rubbing her hands together in a sure sign of trouble.
And Rina pursed those luscious lips in blatant disapproval at Corinne’s suggestion. Just the sight of her eased the tension in his neck and shoulders, making him think of more pleasurable things. Like her warm body in his bed, writhing against his cool sheets.
“I’m sure Colin can choose his own women,” Rina said, more possessively than he’d expected.
He grinned. “What’s the matter? Worried Emma will find someone who’ll distract me from you?”
She tossed her head. “Not a chance. I’m secure enough in what I have to offer.”
He met her gaze, holding on and not letting go. “That’s good to know. But even if you weren’t, you have nothing to worry about. Once I set my sights on a goal, I’m totally focused.”
And his goal was now twofold. On the one hand, he had to live up to the standards Joe had set for his paper, to make sure Joe even had a paper left when he recovered. And in doing so, he’d prove to himself that he hadn’t let the old man down.
But where Rina was concerned, he couldn’t discount the attraction. He wanted more from her than to be colleagues who’d kissed once.
How much more remained to be seen.
ONCE I SET MY SIGHTS on a goal, I’m totally focused. Days later, Rina couldn’t shake Colin’s words from her mind, because his steely gaze told her he was focused and she was his goal. She shivered, unsure if it was chemistry and excitement fluttering inside her or pure nerves because tonight was Emma’s infamous party and Colin was her date.
She’d had the whole week to anticipate this one night. Friday evening she’d gone to Corinne’s party expecting to see Colin. Instead, he’d been a no-show. Considering his negative attitude toward Joe’s wife, she didn’t have to wonder why he’d skipped the event. Apparently, if something made Colin uncomfortable, he opted out. Out of the event, and sometimes out of the country. She couldn’t afford to miss him too much.
At the office holiday party, most of the men at work were married or otherwise taken, so Rina had socialized with the women. She’d used the night wisely, taking notes on their views of what men wanted and what would attract and keep the opposite sex interested. Most women agreed that while men were attracted to packaging, only something deeper and far beyond chemistry would keep one around.
But packaging most always jump-started a relationship and her first column in her Simply Sexy series, entitled “Sex Appeal,” had run on Thursday. If the e-mails and phone calls were any indication, she’d made a huge impact on the reading audience already.
As she’d faxed the column to Jake and Brianne, pride had swelled inside her. So had new and revealing feelings. This job filled an emptiness within her, and she owed Corinne a huge debt for giving her this chance.
Next week’s article was called “Strut Your Stuff.” The title was courtesy of Emma, the idea something Rina had learned how to do during her years in New York. She’d been a single woman in Manhattan, and her married life had consisted of parties, social get-togethers and business dinners. Her past provided her with a solid knowledge base. She knew how to act in order to attract a man, as she’d proven with the coffee shop owner the other day. Her conversations with women both in the past and the present provided added insight.
Once she’d been able to put Colin out of her mind, she’d gotten a good strong start on her series. But Colin never left her thoughts for long. They’d connected on a deeper level, proving that the dance they’d begun could be more than just hot. An affair with Colin could be dangerous if she didn’t keep her emotions under lock and key.
A SMART MAN KNEW when to give a woman space. Colin prided himself on possessing enough intelligence to stay the hell away from Rina until Saturday, letting the anticipation build. Besides, he didn’t want to give her the opportunity to break their date and ruin any chance he’d have to learn more about her.
She rented a small upstairs apartment in a Cape-style house. He knew this because Emma had handed him Rina’s address along with directions. “In case you get lost. Wouldn’t want you driving in circles all night when you could be with Rina,” the older woman had said, winking.
At eight sharp, he rang Rina’s doorbell. The last thing he expected was to be greeted by a barking dog. From behind the door, he heard Rina’s command. “Norton, sit.”
Norton? What kind of name was Norton?
She opened the door, but before he could catch a glimpse of Rina, he was attacked by the dog, who jumped up on his hind legs and placed his front paws on Colin’s lower thighs.
“Norton, down!” Rina grabbed the dog’s collar and jerked him off.
Norton complied with a sad whine.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “His manners are usually better than that.”
Colin laughed. “At least he has some manners.” He glanced down at Norton, seeing him for the first time. “A sharpei?”
She pet the dog’s tan head, then meshed her fingers through the wrinkles on his back. “What was your first clue?” she asked wryly.
He’d never seen the breed anywhere except television and knew nothing about them except they cost a pretty penny. He’d never pictured Rina with this kind of breed, but he liked the dog immediately. “He’s a gorgeous animal.”
She smiled. “He was Robert’s dog before I ever came along. Now he’s mine.”
At the mention of a male name, one said with a sadness tinged with regret, Colin’s stomach twisted. He couldn’t remember the last time any woman had evoked jealousy inside him, not even Julie. Rina was different, as his churning insides reminded him.
Had she left a man behind in New York? At the thought, the pain in his stomach became acute. “Who’s Robert?” he asked, his jaw aching from the tension of gritting his teeth.
“My husband.”
His gut clenched violently. “You’re—”
“But he died,” she added quickly. “I just hate the word widow.”
That took some of the wind out of him. He started to reach for her then, unsure the gesture was appropriate, merely said, “I’m sorry.”
“Thanks.” She patted Norton and rose. “It’s been awhile now.”
As soon as she’d removed her hand from the dog’s collar, Norton walked over to Colin and began sniffing at his feet.
“Uh…you should watch out. He peed on my brother’s sneakers the first time they met. He’s particular about who he likes.”
Colin laughed, and the tension broke, but he stepped back just in case. Norton followed, rubbing his head against Colin’s pant leg. Following the dog’s lead, Colin gave him the attention he desired and scratched the dog’s head. In response, Norton flopped into a prone position before rolling onto his back, legs spread open wide.
“Ugh. Norton, have some class,” Rina groaned. “He likes to expose himself. It’s embarrassing.”
She met his gaze, amusement and something more bubbling in the brown depths that he just now noticed weren’t covered by the black-framed glasses. He stepped back to admire the change. Her face had the same minimal makeup as he’d noticed the day before, but without the glasses he got an unobstructed view of those gorgeous eyes and he liked what he saw.
“I hope you don’t mind, but I need to walk Norton before we go. I’ll dress for the party as soon as we get back.” She turned toward the coatrack and the ponytail swung behind her, hitting the center of her back. “My landlord’s washing machine broke while I was doing laundry and I spent the afternoon at the Laundromat,” she explained. “I never had time to change.” Reaching for her jacket on a coat hook, she shrugged it on over her shoulders, then grabbed Norton’s leash.
“I’ll go with you to walk the pooch,” he offered.
Sixty minutes later, they finally returned home with Norton in tow. Colin’s fingertips were frozen and his nose was numb. “You did this on purpose, didn’t you?” he asked.
“Did what?”
Her wide questioning gaze might have fooled other men, but not one with a reporter’s instincts. “You waited for me to walk Norton, knowing it was an hour ordeal so I could freeze to death along with you,” he said wryly.
Not that he’d minded their time walking, talking and just getting to know one another even more. If anything, she’d defeated her purpose. He felt closer to her now than ever before. The one thing he hadn’t been able to bring up was the subject of Corinne and the paper, since Rina had dominated the conversation with stories of her childhood Christmases. Even with little money, they’d always had warm, family times.
Something Joe and Nell had tried to give to him. Looking back, he hadn’t made it easy, going so far as to stay at friends’ homes to avoid the stark reality of his parents’ absence. Listening to Rina, her easy chatter and comfortable silences, allowed him to reflect, to acknowledge his actions and regret them. But it was Joe who needed to know his feelings, and while he was home this time, Colin intended to make amends.
“I just wanted you to share the fun Norton brings to my life.” She met his gaze, amusement and happiness in those brown depths.
She made him feel good. “You mean his unique quirks. He hates the ice-cold street so much that he tries to dive for shelter into any home we pass. Doing business is the last thing on his mind.”
“He might have a slight problem with weather extremes,” she admitted.
“Which prolongs his walk.”
She bit the inside of her lip. “I didn’t say that.”
He let out a feigned groan. “You didn’t have to. I figure you wanted my company on Norton’s long walk.”
“My brother always says I’m chronically late, so you really can’t think I stalled walking him on purpose.” Her lips twitched, a sure sign she’d been caught.
The desire to kiss those lips grew stronger inside him. He wanted to linger here and to hell with Emma’s holiday bash. “Any chance you’d go change so we can get going?”
Because if she didn’t, he’d act on his impulses, carrying her to the couch across from the TV and kissing her again. Only this time he wouldn’t stop with her lips. He’d feast on her skin, as well, and hoped she’d do the same on his.
“I’ll be ready in five minutes.” Her voice brought him out of his fantasy.
“I’ve never known a woman yet who could be ready that fast, especially one with a chronic lateness problem.”
She laughed. “Just watch me.” Catching her turn of phrase, she blushed. “I didn’t mean literally watch me. I meant just wait for me. And see.” She started for the open door on the other side of the room. “Norton will keep you company.” Then she slipped inside and slammed the door shut behind her.
He refused to let his mind wander to thoughts of her undressing in the next room. He couldn’t, if he wanted to be able to walk into Emma’s party. Instead, he shot a sideways glance at the pooch who sat at his feet, black tongue hanging out as he panted from the exertion of his walk. “I’m sure there’s water for you somewhere.” Colin headed for the kitchen, a small room off the living area.
Norton followed, and sure enough, his bowl sat in a corner and he ran for it, devouring the water in thirsty laps. With the dog occupied, Colin went back to the family room for a better look into who Rina Lowell really was.
In a bookcase, he found mystery novels, which didn’t surprise him since the woman appeared to be an enigma herself. He also discovered a framed photo of a dark-haired man and a woman with her arms around his neck. Since the man had similar features to Rina, he assumed the guy was her brother, Jake, and the woman his wife, Brianne. An older couple with palm trees in the background waved for the camera. Her parents, he assumed. And finally another of Rina, hair pulled back as usual, her arms around Norton. Colin grinned, liking the mix of family photos. His own rented condo held similar ones. An old shot of his parents and more recent ones of Joe and Nell. It seemed both he and Rina had a soft spot for family.
Already and without trying, he’d discovered common ground. The explosive, hot chemistry they already shared went without saying. Their caring for family was a strong indication that they shared other needs, as well. Needs he’d be only too happy to cultivate while satiating their mutual desires at the same time.
It didn’t escape his notice that he hadn’t seen a picture of her late husband, and his curiosity grew. The corner of the room had a small wooden desk. A small photo sat on the corner and he found himself drawn there. And because the picture was a small, framed wallet-size one and set apart from the photos in plain view, a twinge of guilt nudged at him, but he picked up the picture anyway.
A too-good-looking guy stared back at him. Colin hadn’t known Rina long, but he didn’t see her with the suit-and-tie, corporate type. Then again, he wouldn’t have envisioned her with a sharpei, either, and the dog was back, slobbering at his feet. Proof that where Rina was concerned, he should expect the unexpected. He liked the intrigue and challenge she presented.
Why not? He was a man who thrived on extremes. Rina, who lacked artifice and possessed extraordinary depth offered him many layers to uncover and revel in.
He replaced the picture and stepped back to the center of the room just as Rina reentered. He took one look at her, and his libido, which he’d been barely controlling, kicked into high gear. How was it this woman managed to look sexy in a tuxedo?
Colin wore black pants and a sport jacket with a mock turtleneck sweater beneath, the most he’d do in the way of dress-up. Rina had her own mode of dress. His gaze traveled from her black pumps, up her tailored slacks to the white-collared shirt with suspenders and red bow tie. His exploration didn’t end there, but continued to her face, adorned only by the sheer foundation and blush, her wide eyes, which had some shadow and mascara, and settled on her red lips. She wasn’t in a sexy dress, nor did she display ample cleavage, yet she simply took his breath away.
Was it his imagination or had the oxygen been sucked out of the room? He drew a shallow breath.
“I’m ready to go.” She glanced at her watch. “With thirty seconds to spare.”
“And a damn fine job you did in those five minutes.” He extended his hand and she came toward him.
“Well, thank you. Did I mention you dress up nicely yourself?”
He grasped her elbow, then without warning he realized what else was different about her tonight. “Your hair.”
“It’s still here, right? I haven’t gone bald since I left you earlier?” She lifted a hand to the shoulder-length strands and laughed.
“No, but it’s a damn sight shorter than the ponytail led me to believe.”
“The art of illusion, Colin. Women are masters. I take it you liked my extension?”
Enough to give him a damn hard-on, as he’d daydreamed about wrapping himself in the silken mass. “I liked it,” he said blandly.
She leaned closer and a hint of peppermint drifted toward him. He wasn’t sure if it came from her toothpaste or her shampoo, but she smelled fresh, clean and distractingly sexy. No expensive perfumed scents for Rina. And Colin found himself even more aroused by her natural scent.
“Liar,” she said softly in his ear. “You loved the ponytail. Because men love long hair. It’s the stuff of fantasies.”
“Says who?” He folded his arms across his chest in a deliberate attempt to play dumb. He might act like a stereotypical male, but damned if he’d admit to it. Besides, the feelings she aroused in him weren’t contingent on what she wore or how she looked.
“Every woman’s magazine printed.”
“Oh yeah? Then why does this shaggy hairdo turn me on?” He went for the personal question instead of pursuing his professional agenda. Rather than jump on the opportunity to ask if she’d ever considered taking her talents to a more appropriate venue, like one of those magazines she’d mentioned, he opted to let her know what she did to him. He turned her way, capturing her between his body and the wall, not allowing her room to maneuver away.
She sucked in a breath and her nipples tightened, pressing into his chest. He wanted desperately to run his fingers through her tousled hair but refrained, knowing they were ready to leave and he’d cause yet another delay if he did. “You could test a saint,” he said with a low groan.
“I’m not trying to test a saint,” she said in a teasing voice. “I’m trying to test you.”
“And you’re doing a damn good job.” But this physical thing between them had to wait. “Time to party.” He held out his hand.
Confusion settled in her eyes.
“Didn’t you say you wanted to use Emma’s family party to research?”
She nodded. “I did.”
“Well, I don’t want you to resent me because you didn’t get your job done.” He didn’t want to give her an excuse to push him away—and not just because Joe’s legacy was at stake. He wanted Rina to believe what she wanted and needed was important to him. Because suddenly, it was.
She tipped her head to the side. “Are you for real?”
“Last time I looked.” Though he admitted to himself that he was sure off balance now.
Colin had promised both the man who’d lent him money for the paper and their biggest advertiser that he’d get things back on track. And the only way that would happen was if the Times returned to hard news.
He couldn’t afford to care for Rina or her needs.
Unfortunately, he already did.
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