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Seven
Grace stood with her sisters amidst the crowd at the construction site of the new children’s hospital, shivering under her cashmere coat. The reception for donors was set to begin in just a few minutes and she had serious mixed feelings about being there. After all, the Newport brothers were naming the hospital after Cynthia Newport. The woman with whom her father had had an affair and an illegitimate child. But Carson was her half-brother, and Eve was engaged to his brother Graham, so how could she not be there for them? The project was being funded almost entirely by the Newports.
She turned to scan the crowd to see many familiar faces. Nash Chamberlain and his wife, Gina. And of course Georgia and Carson. Even Dr. Lucinda Walsh and Josh Calhoun were in town. Brilliant cancer specialist that Lucinda was, Gracie and her sisters had hoped that she would remain their father’s caretaker for the duration of his illness, but her love for Josh had taken her from Chicago to his dairy farm in Iowa, where, Gracie had heard, she was taking over the oncology department at a local hospital. Josh, with his long hair, rugged good looks and cowboy hat, was a quintessential cowboy.
“Of course they had to pick the coldest day of the year for this,” Nora said, pulling her collar up against the bitter cold wind that poured in through openings that would soon be windows. “The windchill has to be ten below zero.”
Eve pulled out her phone and checked. “Close, fifteen degrees.”
“I feel warmer already,” she joked.
“Have you talked to Mom?” Nora asked Eve.
Eve frowned and shook her head. Despite their parents’ divorce, and their father’s very public reputation for womanizing, the news that he had fathered a child with Cynthia Newport had hit their mother, Celeste, pretty hard. It had also been difficult for her to accept that Eve was in love with Graham, and that her grandchild would have the Newport name.
“She’ll come around,” Nora said, wrapping her arm around Eve’s waist and giving her a squeeze.
“I know,” Eve said, clearly holding back tears. “It still hurts, though.”
Of the three sisters Eve was by far the toughest of the bunch, but Gracie had the feeling her hormones were out of whack from her pregnancy and making her weepy.
“I’m sorry,” Nora said. “I shouldn’t have brought it up.”
“It will all work out,” Eve said, but not with her usual confidence. “It will just take time.”
There was a moment of silence, then Nora asked Gracie, “So how did the fund-raiser go Friday? I’m sorry I couldn’t be there but the wedding plans have me chasing my own tail.”
“It was great,” she told her sister, but it was the memory of Saturday that was making her feel all warm and toasty under her coat.
Nora frowned. “That’s it? Just great? No juicy gossip to share?”
“Honestly the whole night is kind of a blur.” She glanced over at Eve, who was looking straight ahead with a wry smile on her face. Had she said something to Nora about Gracie being there with Roman? And the fact that she’d gotten drunk.
If she had, or if someone else had mentioned it, Nora didn’t let on.
“Did you meet your fund-raising goal?” Nora asked her, and Gracie wished she would just let it go.
“I haven’t talked to Dax yet, so I’m not sure.”
Nora looked at her funny. “I thought you would be all over it Saturday.”
She’d been all over something, but it wasn’t fund-raising.
“It’s a busy time for me at work,” she said, hoping Nora would drop the subject. She didn’t want to think about the fund-raiser or work or anything else. She didn’t even want to be here today. Where she wanted to be was back in bed with Roman. And at the same time, the reality of how quickly and effortlessly they had reconnected scared the hell out of her. This was not a good idea, this thing they had started. It had never been her intention to sleep with him. Not that it wasn’t some of the best sex she’d ever had in her life. But they had crossed a line, and she was afraid that she would never be able to cross back over it to where she was before. She wasn’t even sure if she wanted to go back, and that was probably the scariest thing of all.
She wanted to trust him, and believe that he had nothing to do with the recent smear campaign targeting her father, but that didn’t erase what had happened seven years ago. He had taken responsibility for his mistake, and his time in the service went a long way to prove his character. She wished she could just let it go, but it still lingered there somewhere in the back of her mind. She wasn’t sure if that residual little sliver of doubt would ever completely go away. And that lack of trust would eventually become their undoing.
Or maybe she would get over it and they would live happily ever after. If that was even what he wanted. Or what she wanted. Was she obsessing over something that he might not even want? Was she assuming things that had no basis in reality?
It was all so confusing.
“Well, if it isn’t the Winchester girls,” someone said from behind them and they turned to see Brooks Newport, smug as usual, walking toward them.
“Oh great,” she heard Eve mutter under her breath, but not quietly enough.
Brooks, with acid in his voice, said, “Sorry, I didn’t catch that.”
Gracie was typically nonconfrontational, and tried to stay out of family spats, but she was feeling particularly snarky today. “Grow up, Brooks.”
Her sisters both turned to her, looking as if they couldn’t believe that had come out of her mouth. Brooks looked a little taken aback himself, but he recovered quickly.
“So the spoiled little heiress has a voice.”
“She does,” Gracie said, and though she had never been comfortable using profanity, she calmly, but forcefully, said, “and she’s sick of your bullshit intimidations. This is a special day for your family and your inability to behave like an adult does a great disservice to your brothers and disrespects your mother’s memory.”
He obviously didn’t like being called out as the immature, narcissistic ass that he was. “Your father is the one who disrespected my mother,” he said smugly, with a top-that look.
So she did. “And that makes you no better than he is.”
Brooks blinked, and she could see that the comment stung. Well, good. She hoped it would make him stop and think about his actions.
She could see the wheels in his head spinning, but before the situation could escalate further, Carson appeared at his brother’s side.
“We’re getting ready to start,” he told Brooks.
Brooks looked at Gracie and her sisters, as if he wanted to say something more, but then turned and stalked away.
“Everything okay here?” Carson asked his half sisters.
“Fine,” Gracie said. “Brooks was just being Brooks.”
Carson shook his head sadly. “I wish I knew why he’s so bitter. I understand his anger toward Sutton, but there’s no reason to drag the three of you into it. I’m sorry if he upset you.”
“I think I speak for me and my sisters when I say we’re over it,” Gracie told him.
“You’re my family,” Carson said. “I don’t want Brooks’s behavior to have a negative impact on that.”
“Brooks’s behavior has no bearing on our connection to you,” Nora told him. “Family is family.”
Gracie figured that they had proved that by accepting Carson as their sibling, despite the extramarital affair that was responsible for his existence. Sutton’s actions were in no way Carson’s fault, and it wasn’t fair to blame him for their father’s poor judgment.
“I have to go,” Carson said. “Maybe we can talk more afterward.”
When he was gone, Eve looked at Gracie and asked, “Wow, what’s gotten into you today?”
Riding on the edge of a guilty conscience, Gracie asked, “Was it wrong of me to stand up to Brooks?”
Nora laughed. “Heck no. He expected you to defend Sutton, and when you didn’t he had no idea what to say.”
“You blindsided him,” Eve said. “And it was thoroughly amusing.”
Gracie’s phone buzzed with a text. She pulled it out of her pocket and saw that she had a message from Roman. She was almost afraid to open it on the chance that he would say their encounter had been a mistake, and there was just too much bad blood between them to make even a sexual relationship work. Because she saw no harm in occasionally having a warm body to cozy up to on cold nights. She had needs and Roman was pretty damned good at fulfilling them.
Occasionally.
Her heart pounded as she punched in the code on her phone and the text popped up on the screen.
Dinner at my place? Then a little dessert?
She couldn’t suppress the smile curling her lips. She’d been worried for no reason. He obviously was still interested. As excited as she was, and as much as she wanted to see him, she had the distinct feeling that her life was about to get very complicated.
* * *
With the guarantee that Sutton was about to reveal information about the identity of their real father, Roman finally talked both Graham and Brooks into a meeting with the dying tycoon. Which was how, the following Friday, Roman found himself back at the Winchester estate. Once again against his will and better judgment. He just hoped that Sutton would actually deliver this time. According to Grace he hadn’t been out of bed in days and she was worried that the cancer, or the treatments, or a combination of both, had begun to affect him mentally. She’d been visiting him daily, and he’d been alternating between being himself, sinking into a deep depression and experiencing fits of irrational anger at the drop of a hat. She said it was a little like Jekyll and Hyde.
Roman didn’t even know why he had to be there. When he’d asked Sutton, all he’d gotten back was a very cryptic To keep the peace. But if tempers flared and Graham took a shot at his brother, it wasn’t Roman’s responsibility to stop him. As far as he was concerned Brooks could use a little sense knocked into him. And though Brooks was nothing more than a thug in an expensive suit, he was still a client—and a very lucrative one at that—and Roman was under contract to find their birth father. As far as he’d found, it was as though their mother, Cynthia, in the time before she moved to Chicago, hadn’t existed.
Gracie had wanted to join them but her father had forbidden it, and of course she’d backed down instantly. It had always fascinated Roman, the control her father had over her. Gracie on her own, in any other element, was one of the toughest, brightest, most capable women Roman had ever met. She’d certainly never taken any crap from Roman. But bring Daddy into the picture and her backbone mysteriously dissolved.
She’d certainly been aggressive Saturday morning. And Saturday afternoon, and most of Saturday night. He drove her home Sunday morning so she could get ready to attend the hospital reception, then she came back Monday evening and he’d made her dinner. He had talked to her every day since then, but they hadn’t seen each other since she left Monday night.
Clearly the fire that burned between them seven years ago had never gone out. But he could feel her holding back. And he understood. He couldn’t say for sure that he was still in love with her. But he couldn’t say that he wasn’t in love with her, either. Not that it mattered. She’d made it clear that it was just sex to her. That she could never trust him with her heart again. But they could still be friends.
Friends with benefits. He could live with that.
When he arrived at the Winchester estate Brooks and Graham were already there, and he was surprised to find Carson, their youngest brother, and Sutton’s recently confirmed son, standing by his bedside. Sutton held the meeting in his personal suite from his bed. Though Roman had thought he couldn’t look much worse than the last time he saw the man, he’d been wrong.
Brooks and Graham stood far from each other, at opposite ends of the room.
“It’s about damned time,” Brooks snapped at Roman as Sutton’s nurse showed him into the room, then reclaimed her seat just outside the door. According to Roman’s Rolex he was a minute early.
“Forgive my brother,” Graham apologized, looking both irritated and resigned. “I’ve yet to find anything to kill the bug that crawled up his ass.”
The comment earned him a glare from Brooks. Hell, maybe they would come to blows.
Roman took a spot at the foot of the bed between the two men. Just in case.
“Now that we’re all here, let’s get started,” Sutton said, his voice so weak Roman had to strain to hear him. He was sitting propped up by a mountain of pillows, which Roman suspected was the only thing holding him upright. It reminded him of Gracie in the limo on the way home the other night, and he instantly wanted to smile.
Graham moved to his future father-in-law’s side. “Roman tells me that you have information about our father.”
“I do.”
“I’m a little confused as to why I’m here,” Carson said. “I know who my father is. I have no relation to the man you’re looking for.”
“This concerns your mother, too,” Sutton told him.
“So out with it,” Brooks snapped, completely insensitive to his rival’s fragile condition.
“You all know that I’m a man of my word. Once I’ve made a promise I will not break it,” Sutton said.
“Which is why you never promise anyone anything,” Roman told him and Sutton shot him a vague, wry smile.
“But I did once, a long time ago. A promise that until recently I intended to take to my grave.” He looked from Brooks to his brother. “One I made to your mother.”
“Your word means nothing to me, old man,” Brooks ground out. “Just tell us what you know.”
“First you have to give me your word that what I am about to tell you will never leave this room.” He looked to Roman. “All four of you.”
“This is business,” Roman said. “I would never divulge to anyone information I obtained in a private meeting with my clients.”
Sutton looked to Graham. He nodded and said, “Of course.” Then Graham gave his brother a look that seemed to say, Do it or else.
Brooks grudgingly nodded. “You have my word, as well.”
“First I want you to know that your mother was an amazing woman. I had never met anyone like her. And I haven’t since.”
“And when was that?” Brooks asked.
“She was pregnant with the two of you,” Sutton said. “Pregnant and alone working as a waitress in a café I went to occasionally. She’d only been working there a week, and she spilled a drink in my lap. She apologized profusely, then broke down in tears, so afraid that she would lose her job...” He smiled vaguely and faded off, as if lost in thought. To anyone who didn’t know what a coldhearted and brutal businessman he was, they might think he was just an average sentimental old man.
“And?” Brooks snapped after several seconds, which earned him another look from Graham. Roman couldn’t deny feeling a little irritated, too. It was obvious that Sutton was in poor shape. Still Brooks couldn’t cut him a break, which said a lot about his integrity. As in he had none. The man lay dying in front of him, confessing a secret he’d once intended to die with, and Brooks couldn’t see past his thirst for revenge. His need to conquer.
But Sutton didn’t even seem to notice. Or didn’t care.
“Let the man speak,” Graham said with a warning tone.
Carson laid a hand on his father’s shoulder and in a patient voice said, “Go on, Sutton.”
Sutton blinked rapidly and snapped back to the present. “I could see the desperation in her eyes, and that she was carrying a child, or as I later discovered, two children. I left her a generous tip, and couldn’t stop thinking about her. When I went back a week later she was working again, and I found that I was happy to see her. But she looked so tired and stressed, as if she carried the weight of the world on her shoulders.
“She thanked me for my generosity the week before. She wouldn’t admit it then—she was too proud—but she had been about to lose the room she was renting and that tip was enough to pay her rent for another month. That was before her coworker Gerty took her in. I hung around for a while, until her shift ended, and I invited her to have dinner with me.
“She hesitated of course, worried I had ulterior motives, but I think hunger won out over her pride. And she ate like she hadn’t seen real food in months. It gave me so much satisfaction to help her.”
“Why do I find that hard to believe?” Brooks said, but Sutton went on as if he hadn’t even heard him.
“I inquired about her pregnancy, and she confessed to me that she hadn’t told the father of her unborn twins about the pregnancy before moving to Chicago from Texas to start over. The long hours on her feet were difficult, but it was the only job she could find. But she said that now, since her pregnancy had begun to show, her boss was making noise like she would no longer be an asset. She knew it was only a matter of time before she was fired.”
“Isn’t that illegal?” Carson asked.
Sutton shook his head. “Not back then. But I admired her courage and fortitude, so I offered her a job.” His eyes belied the affection he felt, and maybe still felt, for Cynthia Newport.
“As your mistress?” Brooks asked.
“As my secretary. She had no experience. She couldn’t even type, but I knew that she would learn and she did. And what started out as a friendship became something more. I helped her as much as I could after you and your brother were born. But we had to keep our relationship a secret.”
“Which is how Carson came to be,” Graham said, looking to his younger brother.
Brooks glared at Sutton. “That’s what womanizers do.”
Sutton faced him, looking almost apologetic. “It was more than an affair. We were deeply in love. Your mother was my soul mate. I would have done anything for her. I wanted to divorce Celeste and marry her, but back then I was still under my father-in-law’s thumb. He threatened to ruin me financially, and keep my daughter and my unborn child from me. Cynthia couldn’t bear to watch that happen. We knew that as long as we were together Celeste’s family would never let us be happy. So we were forced to go our separate ways.
“When she discovered she was pregnant with Carson she said nothing, would never confirm that he was mine, so I tried to forget her. I distracted myself with work, and women who meant nothing to me, thinking it would ease the need to be with her. But it never did. I always told myself, maybe someday... Then she died and I lost my chance.”
“You claim to have loved her, but you didn’t even come to her funeral,” Brooks said.
“I couldn’t,” Sutton said. “It would have caused a scene, and I couldn’t do that to her.”
Carson shot his brother a look and told Sutton, “I understand.”
“The day your mother and I parted ways, she made me promise something, something I had to swear I would take to my grave.”
“Yet here we are,” Brooks said smugly. “And you claim you’re a man of your word?”
“Enough!” Carson snapped at his older brother, and Brooks actually backed down.
Sutton looked so sad when he said, “I don’t have much time left, Brooks, and I don’t want her secret to die with me. Our personal feelings aside, as her sons, you should know who your mother really was, and what she sacrificed for the two of you. It’s all I can do to honor the memory of the woman I never stopped loving.”
“What do you mean who she really was?” Graham asked, his brow knit.
“Your mom wasn’t who you thought she was. Her real name was Amy Jo Turner.”
Eight
The brothers all looked taken aback. “She moved here from Cool Springs, a small town in Texas.”
“Son of a bitch,” Roman muttered, shaking his head. With the truth out it all made sense. He’d always suspected that Cynthia Newport was an alias, but he could never be sure and his investigation had proven inconclusive. “That explains why I couldn’t find anything on her before she moved here.”
Sutton’s nod seemed to take extreme effort. “She had no choice.”
“Why would she change her name and lie about where she’s from?” Brooks asked, sounding a little less cocky this time. “Was she a criminal? On the run from the law?”
“She was on the run, but not from the law. She was trying to get away from her father, your grandfather.”
Graham frowned. “Why?”
“He was an evil man. A violent and sadistic alcoholic. She told me about the beatings and the emotional abuse...” He shook his head, wincing, as if the words were too painful to speak. “He was a monster.”
“She had scars,” Graham said. “Physical ones. I remember asking her about them and she brushed it off, said something about being clumsy. I think deep down I knew it was a lie. Maybe I didn’t want to know the truth.”
“She wasn’t clumsy. But she did get careless, and found herself pregnant. She knew he would beat her. Two of her classmates turned up pregnant the previous year, and her father told her that if she ever got herself knocked up, he would take care of the ‘problem’ himself, with a fist to her stomach. Then he would kill the man who’d violated his daughter.
“She knew that he would do it. For everyone’s safety she knew she had to leave. But she couldn’t just disappear. She knew he would try to find her. And kill her.”
“Jesus,” Brooks mumbled as the color leeched from his face, the reality of the situation finally sinking in. “What about her mother?”
“She left when Cynthia was five. She couldn’t take the beatings and the abuse any longer.”
“And she just left our mother with him? Why?”
“She didn’t have a choice. He would have never let her take Cynthia away. And she feared that if she tried, he would kill them both.”
“So our mother changed her name,” Graham said.
“She did more than change her name. As far as everyone in Cool Springs is concerned, Amy Jo Turner went for a swim in Whisper Lake and never came back out. They found her belongings on the ground at the water’s edge, and though they never did find a body, she was assumed dead.”
Carson shook his head in disbelief. “Our mother faked her own death?”
Sutton nodded, looking sallow and tired. And so sad.
Knowing the man’s reputation as a shameless womanizer, the depth of emotion he was showing in regard to Cynthia blew Roman away. He could hardly believe it, but he actually felt sorry for the man.
“She had no other choice,” Sutton told them.
“So what about our father?” Graham asked. “Do you know who he is?”
Sutton shook his head. “She never told me his name, but I know that he lived in the same town. And she told me once that you boys look just like him. I don’t doubt that with this new information, Roman will be able to track him down.”
As long as Roman had known Sutton, that was the closest thing to praise he’d ever gotten from him.
“Does he even know we exist?” Graham asked.
“She never told him about her pregnancy.”
At least now Roman knew why Sutton wanted to keep Gracie out of this meeting. Sutton’s dalliances were legend in Chicago. But it would have been awkward, explaining in front of his own daughter how he’d not only cheated on her mother, but had been in love with Cynthia.
As if reading his mind, Sutton looked over to Roman and said, “My daughters can never know about this.”
So what the hell was he supposed to tell Gracie when she asked Roman about the meeting? Did Sutton expect him to lie to her? Or would she accept that what was said was confidential? That it was official business and as such he couldn’t break privilege. He was a man of his word. Once he made a promise, he would not break it. He’d learned that lesson too late to save his relationship with Gracie, but it was a mistake he would never make again.
Either way, he couldn’t tell her.
The brothers were eager for answers, and Roman was eager to finally solve the mystery, but when the other men left, he hung back, hoping to have a word with Sutton alone.
“You have something to say to me?” Sutton asked him when he didn’t leave.
Roman stood at the foot of the bed, feet spread, arms folded across his chest. It was an intimidation tactic, and one he did automatically, because he knew that despite being so ill, no one could intimidate the great Sutton Winchester.
“That was good what you did for them,” Roman said.
“I didn’t do it for them,” the older man said, looking so weak and pale Roman worried he might drop dead right there. “I did it to honor Cynthia and her legacy. I couldn’t let the truth of who she was die with her.”
“You really did love her,” Roman said, finding that hard to imagine.
“I’ve loved deeply, and I lost her. But that was my fault. I never should have let her go, but I did and I’ve had to live with that. I was torn between being with the woman I loved and losing my family, who I loved just as much. Though I haven’t always been good at showing it.”
“Yeah, about that. Kudos on the reconnaissance mission you sent Grace on.”
He folded his hands in his lap. “You disapprove?”
“That’s putting it lightly.”
“Everything that I do, every decision I make, is for the good of the family name,” Sutton said.
He really was a selfish bastard, wasn’t he? Though Roman really should be thanking Sutton. His actions had brought Roman and Gracie back together.
Which, come to think of it, was probably the worst thing he could have done if he wanted Roman out of the picture. Sutton had never approved of him before the first scandal, and he sure as hell never would now. But Sutton had seen Gracie’s reaction to Roman that day in his office. She was clearly shaken. Hell, there was no reason for her to even be there, other than to rattle Roman’s cage. So why would he take the chance that Gracie and Roman might reunite? Wouldn’t he want them as far apart as possible?
And what did that mean exactly?
Roman heard a soft snore and realized that Sutton had fallen asleep.
Dude, it doesn’t even matter. Sutton was dying, and Gracie had set very clear parameters for their relationship. They would go back to being good friends, like before, with the added bonus of incredible sex.
What man in his right mind would turn down a deal like that?
* * *
Roman didn’t call Gracie after the meeting. Which she took to mean that he couldn’t talk about what had been discussed. She understood confidentiality agreements. Every one of her employees was required to sign one. The fashion industry was rampant with espionage and backstabbing. It was the nature of the business.
Whatever had happened in there, her father didn’t want her to know about it, but she couldn’t deny that she was dying of curiosity. Yet she felt torn between wanting the truth and wondering if she was better off in the dark. All she did know for sure was that her father had divulged the information necessary for Roman to continue his search for Graham and Brooks’s father. Eve had called to let her know. She just didn’t know what that information was.
She had decided that if Sutton wanted her to know, he would tell her. Which was why when Roman picked her up later that evening she didn’t bring it up. It would only put him in an uncomfortable position, and she wanted this to be a good night. Though they had spoken on the phone every day since last Sunday, neither had had time to see one another. They’d both been too busy to take the time away from work.
But tonight was all about them. He was taking her to one of the hottest new restaurants in downtown Chicago. And one of the priciest. And he must have been in some sort of hurry because he was driving like a maniac, whipping around corners and going over the speed limit.
“You know that the restaurant isn’t going anywhere,” she told him, clutching the door as he took a turn at high speed.
Roman glanced her way, a wry grin on his face. “What’s the point of having a sports car if you can’t have fun with it?”
“There is a fine line between fun and idiocy,” she said, knowing that he had always been a thrill seeker, and fearless, which was probably why he had done so well in black ops.
He whipped around a curve in the road while she held on for dear life. “I’d like to get to dinner alive if it’s not too much trouble.”
With a smile he slowed and downshifted. Why did she get the feeling he was trying to rattle her chain? And why, deep down, did she kind of like it?
“You used to love going fast,” Roman said.
“Then I grew up.”
“That’s too bad. The Gracie I knew liked to take risks.”
She couldn’t help but feel defensive. “I’ve taken tons of risks. My business plan was aggressive, and extremely risky. I invested everything I had into my clothing line.”
“I’m not talking about financial risk. Money doesn’t count. Money isn’t real. If you lose it you can always earn it back. A real risk is the possibility of losing something priceless.”
She didn’t mean to say them, but the words just popped out of her mouth. “Like when you lost me.”
She expected a snarky reply or a witty comeback; instead he nodded, eyes forward, voice low, and said, “Yes, just like that.”
His words dripped with so much regret her heart hurt. What was wrong with her? She had been looking forward to this night all week. Why was she trying to sabotage it?
“I’m sorry,” she said.
“Don’t be. It’s the truth.”
“I know, but—”
“Gracie,” he said, reaching over to take her hand. “Don’t worry about it. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about what I did and regret it. I would take it back if I could. But all I can do now is move forward.”
“I want to let it go,” she said. “I want to be over it. I want to trust you.”
“And you will when you’re ready.” He gave her hand a squeeze then let go to shift. “Just let it go tonight, so we can have a good time.”