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I am
Aldivan Teixeira Torres
I am
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By:Aldivan Teixeira Torres
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Translator:Sara Pereira
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Academic Qualifications: Degree in Mathematics with specialization in the same area.
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Short Biography: Aldivan Teixeira Torres, was born in Arcoverde- Brazil, created the series the seer, the series sons of the light, poetry and screenplays. His literary career started at the end of 2011 with the publication of his first romance work Opposing forces. For whatever reason, he stopped writing only resuming his career in the second half of 2013. Since then he never stopped. He hopes that his writing will contribute to the Pernambuco and Brazilian culture, arousing the pleasure of reading in those that do not yet have the habit. His motto is “For literature, equality, fraternity, justice, dignity and the human being honour for ever”.
Dedication
I dedicate this work to all the enlightened and fighting spirits, that have had the courage to face the social dictates and spread their beliefs and views of the world. In special, to those stigmatized by society who are constantly being pre-judged. For these I have a message: “I am” believes in you.
Acknowledgements
Firstly, to my good God who regards me as his son. To my parents and relatives, who are always present in good and bad times. To my friends, work colleagues, acquaintances, neighbours and those who have been part of my life. To my readers who are always praising me. Finally, I thank everyone who believes in the Brazilian literature.
“Jesus was then telling the Jews that believe in him: If you stay in my word, you will be my true disciples and you will know the truth and the truth will free you. They replied: We are descents from Abraham and we were never anyone’s slaves; How come you say, “you will be free”? Jesus replied: In truth I tell you that all those that sin are slaves of the sin. The slave doesn’t stay at home all the time; The son, however, stays always there. If, then, the son frees you, you will be truly free. I know that you are descents from Abraham, but you try to kill me, because my word does not penetrate you. I speak of what I saw together with my father and you do what you have heard from your father. They answered: Our father is Abraham. Jesus told them: If you were sons of Abraham, you would do the work of Abraham. Now, however, you try to kill me, I who a have spoken the truth that I have heard from God; Abraham, did not do this. You are doing the work of your father. They retorted: We were not born from fornication; We have got only one father who is God. Jesus told them: If God was your father, surely you would love me, for I am from God and come from him: I did not come from myself, but he has sent me. Why don’t you understand my language? Why can’t you hear my word? You are from the Devil who is your father and want to satisfy the wishes of your father. He has been a murderer from the beginning and did not persist in the truth, because the truth is not with him; Telling lies, he speaks of himself, for he is a liar and father of the lies. I, however, who tells the truth, you don’t believe in me. Who among you accuses me of sinning? If I tell the truth, why don’t you believe me? He who is from God, listen to God’s word. You don’t listen because you are not from God. The Jews retorted: Perhaps did we not speak well by saying that you are Samaritan and that you are possessed by the devil? Jesus replied: I have got no demon, but I glorify my father and you dishonour me. I am not seeking my glory; There is someone who seeks and judges. In truth, in truth I tell you, those who observe my word, will never see death. The Jews then said; Now we know that you have a demon, Abraham died and so did the prophets; And you say: If someone keeps my word, will never taste death. Are you by any chance greater than our father Abraham who died? And the prophets that died? Who do you pretend to be? Jesus answered: If I glorify myself, my glory is not worth anything; who glorifies me is my father who you say is your God and whom you don’t know, I, however, know him. If I say I don’t know, I am like you, a liar. But I know him and keep his word. Your father Abraham rejoiced to see my day; He saw it and was happy. Then the Jews told him; You aren’t even fifty years old and you have seen Abraham? Jesus told them: Truly, in truth I tell you, before Abraham existed, I am”. (John 8,31 —58)
Introduction
“I am” is presented as a challenge, a daring, face a society many times backward and conservative. The first great thinker to face this paradigm, was a Jew called Jesus Christ about two thousand years ago. By declaring being son of God and by affirming his “I am” he broke the then existing structures. Inspired by this example, this book gives a shout of freedom that every human being must experience. We are not what the others say, and we are many times the personality that we create. We must be ourselves with the naked and raw truth. Following it, we will awaken our true “I am” and this will free us from our own fears forever.
“I am” also puts in contradiction the rules, the false morals, the prejudices, the intolerance and pride. Only when we find our main axle we will define our priorities and the best way to realize them. The book poses pertinent questions relating to the correlated and inter-correlated relations.
Finally, “I am” is a prime work that must be read in the light of the present society and if we put ourselves in the plot line we will solve our own failures and will discover that there is no greater happiness in the world than being together with our friends, our masters, with our belief and with our God. With them we are stronger, and we will transform ourselves into advocates, spreaders and protectors of the things of goodness. Do that. Be an apostle of goodwill, truth, the father and always practice love. A hug and good reading.
Summary
I am
I am
Dedication
Acknowledgements
Introduction
Psychography
Arcoverde
Ipojuca—Arcoverde
Riacho do meio— Arcoverde
Caraíbas—Arcoverde
Mimoso—Pesqueira
Pesqueira
Belo Jardim
In the ghetto
The return to the observatory
São Caetano
The museum
Restart
On the way
At the rural area
Bezerros
The Papangus
The crossroads district
The return
Gravatá
Towards Pombos
Vitoria de Santo Antão
Moreno
Finally, Recife, the capital of Pernambuco
Chapter I
Chapter II
Chapter III
Chapter IV
Chapter V
Chapter VI
Chapter VII
Chapter VIII
Chapter IX
Chapter X
Chapter XI
Chapter XII
Chapter XIII
Chapter XIV
Chapter XV
Chapter XVI
Chapter XVII
Chapter XVIII
Chapter XX
Chapter XXI
Chapter XXII
Chapter XXIII
Chapter XXIV
Chapter XXV
Chapter XXVI
Chapter XXVII
Chapter XXVIII
Chapter XXIX
Chapter XXX
Final Part
Psychography
It was the day of 01/01/2015, agitated, dark, sombre, stormy morning, despite being the start of the new year, at a certain place in the outback of Pernambuco, where resting on a recently bought box-bed, was the glamorous seer, the old dreamer who had conquered the cave of despair and its fire.
Among conflicting nightmares that wake him several times during the night, he debates tirelessly in search of signs that would allow a greater realization of his deepest dreams. However, nothing seemed to promise anything.
At exactly 3H00 in the morning awakes from the last sleep of the night, gets out of the bed approaches his desk where are his notebook, his printer, books, the cable to connect the internet, forms and other bureaucratic papers.
He sits down on the chair, opens the drawer, taking out a pen and paper. The spirit of Yahweh agitates him and then he begins to psychograph.
“A new era approaches and in these new times, I want to give you, my son, all the honour, glory and success deserved. I act in this way, because you are the only one on earth to understand me, to listen to me and to be completely obedient. Therefore, I tell you: Take your bag, your crook, your cross and follow me. Do not worry with what you are leaving behind and not with what will happen after, for everything has been planned from the beginning of time. I want through you to touch the people’s heart, make them reflect and who knows take a new direction in their troubled lives. I am, once more, intends looking for the sinners, for as the old saying goes: Who needs a doctor, is who is sick. Those we believe, I promise eternal life and a special place in our kingdom. Those who reject it, they will have their names taken out of the book of life, for those who do not recognize the son they can see, much less will recognize the father who they don’t see. The latter does not deserve the dust from your feet. Don’t be afraid, will always be with you directing you internally. There are no secrets between us and my grace will keep you. Look for a signal.”
The seer stops writing. He picks up the paper and gets worried. What was going to happen? At every moment that passes, the gigantic wheel into which his life has been transformed, becomes more interesting.
He has already reunited the opposing forces, understood deeply his dark night of the soul, revisited the past, has deciphered God’s code and now he was before more demands.
Tiredness was intense, and he decides to go back to sleep. He was sure that he would not be able to sleep, but at least he could rest his tired body. And so, he does: keeps the paper in the desk drawer, gets up from the chair and with four steps slumps on the bed. Now, it was just wait for day break to take care of the necessary measures.
Until this happens, he takes advantage for an inner reflection about himself, his mission and respective challenges, his social circles and its needs, his commitments, the daily battle and try to foresee the destiny’s nuances, each time more amazing. But the most important is that everything remained in peace and at the expected rhythm. His star would soon shine.
And so, the time passes. When the alarm clock rings exactly at 5H00 he jumps out of bed, gets dressed, shouts of happiness for it is a holiday, goes to the shelf, picks up the cable of the radio and plugs it in. In the same shelf he chooses one of his favourite CDs and plays it. He listens to three songs, undresses, picks up shampoo, soap, brush, tooth paste and shaving cream, razor, the towel wrapped round his needy, thin and sweating body. Leaving the room, he goes through two lounges and at the end of the corridor enters the bathroom. Closing the door behind him, removes the towel, put the personal items on the basin and starts the required procedures.
Carefully splashes some water on his face and applies the cream. At this point, he has the chance of analysing his external aspect. His face was black and blue resulting from constantly hitting his face on the pillow during the previous night. Being vain, immediately starts shaving so to feel young as soon as possible. As he shaves, the whiskers are cut, the skin becomes soft, despite some lacerations caused by not paying attention. Just as well they were not serious.
When he finishes, gets under the shower, opens it, and the contact with the cold water awakes his most inner feelings. Everything was falling into place in his life, leaving each time his destination even more interesting. Although he had not realized it yet, he felt fully confident and capable of winning once again. He was prepared to go to the bottom in search of the signal mentioned by his father in the psychograph message a while ago. Even if he did not have an idea where to start.The seer closes the shower. He puts soap on his body in the smallest detail and wash it once more. With the exfoliating of the skin, now it is easier to remove completely the corporal, spiritual and psychologic impurities that had now and again afflicted him. He takes advantage and concentrates in cleaning, leaving other thoughts for another time.
Between shampoo and soap and more cold water, he finishes bathing in fifteen minutes. He returns to the basin, brushes his white teeth, making them shine. Now, he is ready for a free day and who knows, interesting in his almost monotonous life. Feeling confident, picks up the towel, dries himself, gets dressed and leaves the bathroom, and using the same way as before, returns to his room. At this point, everyone in the house was awake and politely wishes good morning to the ones he meets and is promptly reciprocated despite that not being the usual. In the room, he puts on simple but clean clothes. Then heads to the kitchen located at the end of the passage. Passing through the same places as before, arrives there, goes to the table and sits on an empty chair around the table. At this point he smells the coffee and fried eggs which are being prepared by his kind sister. The others start to arrive making the place livelier, with the usual family contradictions.
The breakfast is then served and comprises of bread and eggs, bread rolls and biscuits. While they eat, they engage in a conversation relating to daily matters, regional news, sports, politics, religion and relationships, each one having the opportunity of giving his opinion. Everything is very pleasant.
Once the breakfast is over, the seer says goodbye and returns to his room. There, he starts to pack his knapsack, only packing the items of bear necessity. His objective was to go out and begin to look for the signal mentioned by his father. With everything ready, leaves the room, goes through the lounge, says the last goodbye and exits the door. He was going to follow his intuition
Outside, he heads towards east, place of a peculiar view. On the way, he meets two people, greets them and continues forward, for there was no time to waste. The challenge was calling for a decision.
In five minutes he is already at the field adjoining the village school. He walks around for a while and at a given moment everything seems to change: The ground shakes, the sky darkens and the torment of a black shadow approaches. It was like the dream he has had two years ago. From inside the shadow three men come out and come close. With a deceitful smile, forcibly grab the seer from both sides and take him to near the inside of the shadow. Getting closer, the son of God understands that it would be his perdition to enter the shadow and struggles to get free.
However, his efforts are futile, for he is at disadvantage, being three against one. With no way out, the solution was to ask help from his father through the following prayer named “Prayer of Liberation”:
“I invoke you, God of the armies, to rescue me at this time of despair. Behold that might evildoers got hold of my soul and body trying to lead me to perdition. I am stuck. So, I beg of you, my father, rescue me, show your mighty and take away all the evildoers. I beg you for the sake of you plan, your kindness and your unfathomable love. Free and liberate me so that I can dignify your name before the assembly. So be it.”
As soon as he had finished saying the prayer, the situation changed completely: A great light approached, stood in front of the men and from inside it two strong angels came out. There were Uriel and Rafael, old acquaintances of his. They grabbed the men and with a spectacular agility threw them back to the shadow. After, they blew a strong wind that send them to Sheol, the great abysm. Done! Now the seer was safe.
As for magic, Renato also arrives, making up the amazing quartet from the previous adventure. After the usual greetings, they start talking.
– Oh, how good that you are here, my friends, pleased to see you again – Said the seer.
– We are here by the will of your father. Thank him— Answered Rafael.
– It is our pleasure too. (Uriel)
– I am very happy, partner. (Renato)
– How come you are here, Renato? (The seer)
– The guardian lady gave me your co-ordinations. She stressed the astral importance of this moment. It is as if it were a restart of everything built up to now— He explained.
– Caramba! First the message from my father and now you are all present here. Would it be a new adventure, Rafael? (Divine)
– Precisely. We came to help you in the continuation of your work. (Rafael)
– Ok. What is the first step? (The seer)
– It is up to you to decide. Only then you will find the answers. (Uriel)
Uriel answer was reasonable. As a human being, he was free to choose the best way and intuitively he knew that would be the right choice. His father was wonderful and expressed himself through his person and that was what the angels recognised. With a brief analysis, he takes a decision and tells his friends:
– Very well. I have decided. The experience in Sodorra, showed the direction of my true mission: I look for the sinners and their liberation from darkness. I want to bring them to my kingdom where they will have peace, plenty, justice and happiness if they accept me as king and brother. “I am” invites you to a journey.
– I am at your disposal. Since the first time, I am your right and left arm of any work. (Renato)
– I will accompany you and protect you from any evil. (Uriel)
– I will always be your adviser. (Rafael)
– Thank you all. Follow me. (The seer)
Having said that, the train departed. The next stop would be the seer’s home, where they were going to get food, clothes and money for the journey’s expenses. The dice were rolled.
On the way, they have the chance of talking a little and enjoying the beginning of the new year at the village. The land of Aldivan and Renato was a tranquil and pleasant place to live at, full of cultured, polite and welcoming people. This restart of their lives was promising.
Arcoverde
A while later, the group reaches its destination. With the help of the seer, the suitcases are packed, they then get together and depart for the first destination. They go through the village centre, take the main road and after one hundred metres are already beside the road BR 232. They wait a while, talking lively about the journey’s plans.
Twenty minutes later, the bus arrives, they board it and then a twenty kilometres trip starts, towards the capital of the outback, the beautiful, beloved and important Arcoverde.
In the car, a dark grey coloured 15 seats combi, they try to keep busy, being it making small talk with other passengers, listening to music or even enjoying the enchanting typical provincial landscape of the Brazilian northeast interior. Without a doubt one of the most beautiful places in the world.
At a medium speed, they cover the distance in twenty minutes, alight at the bus stop, say goodbye, pay the fare and continue the walk on foot through the town’s main avenues.
Helped by the angels, the first stop chosen is the Cathedral of the Deliverance. They climb up the stairs, go in the main area and kneel in front of the sacrosanct altar. There are other people around, but each one has the freedom of saying his inner prayers in a perfect and individual communion with the creator.
When they finish the prayers, something calls the attention of the members of the group: A young blonde woman, 1.75 m tall, rosy cheeks, thick legs and arms, thin body, wearing a pink pair of dungarees, who could not stop crying. They decide to approach and address the unhappy creature:
– How can I help you, miss? Any problem? (The seer)
– No. Nothing that concerns you. (Young lady)
– Don’t talk to him like that. He only wants to help. (Rafael)
– Beg your pardon. It is that I don’t understand the sudden interest of strangers about me. (Young lady)
– I understand it. What is your name? (The seer)
– Rafaela Ferreira. And yours?
– My name is Rafael Potester.
– My name is Uriel Ikiriri.
– I am called Renato.
– I am Aldivan Teixeira Torres, also known as the son of God, Divine or seer. I want to tell you, apart from what is happening, that there is a solution for everything. Suffice you having more confidence in yourself, the father and in me. I am here to help you.
Rafaela was astonished. Who was that mad person thinking of himself as the son of God? In her perturbed mind, nothing and nobody could help her, and her destiny was perdition or the first bridge she found to jump off. Those words despite having touched her, did not signify anything before her private pain. She decides then show herself firm and difficult.
– You are kidding! Do you want me to believe that you are divine? Don’t waste my time.
– Seriously? You look like that young girl playing with her doll and hiding at the church’s vestry with your friends. At that time your naivety and faith were mirrors to other people. Now, however, I understand your soul darkness and I feel concerned. Don’t you want my help? Don’t regret when everything is lost— Said the son of God.
– I sincerely recommend that you listen to him. After having met him, my life was changed in such a way that I can no longer live without him. He has got words of life. (Renato)
– Aldivan is an extraordinary being. No power, symbol, entity or denomination is stronger than his love for people. Always listen to him. (Rafael)
– I don’t exist without him. (Uriel)
Rafaela was lost for words. It was indeed unbelievable despite her faith and belief not allowing to believe in miracles. The five there in front of the Almighty, her problems that did not stop hammering her head, the promise from a stranger who called himself son of God and knew about her past. What was happening? Could it be a plot from destiny to deepen her more in her misery? Or who knows could it be her salvation? In her mind this last hypothesis had the least probability.
After a quick analysis of the situation, she decides to test them and where would all this madness be going to end.
– Alright. I will let you help me. What is the first step?
– Let’s get out of here. Outside I will explain better. (The seer)
Everyone obeys the team leader. Leaving the matrix of deliverance, they walk a few metres towards south and the turn right at the centre main avenue. On the way, the seer speaks.
– Rafaela, could you introduce us to your family? You live in the neighbourhood Saint Christopher, don’t you?
– Yes. No problem. The past three months I have been living with my parents, after my engagement broke-up —She answers each time more impressed.
– I know it. We will take advantage to have a snack. Are you hungry, guys? (The seer)
– I am. (Renato)
– I am not. But I will accompany you. (Rafael)
– You don’t even ask if the lass agrees. Lazy bones! (Uriel)
– There is no problem. My parents are very welcoming. (Rafaela)
– Thank you. (The seer)
The walk continues. Further ahead, they turn right again and wait at the corner for the first bus towards the neighbourhood. While waiting, they remain silent.
Five minutes later the bus arrives. Our esteemed personalities board it and the journey through the west side of the town of Arcoverde neighbourhood restarts. At a normal speed and facing a chaotic traffic, they arrived at the nearest stop to the friend’s residence in ten minutes. They pay the fares, alight and walk a further one hundred metres.
They are in front of a modest masonry building, 10x5 m (Ten metres long and five metres wide), style house, with a short wall in front. Rafaela as hostess, takes the initiative and knocks on the small entrance gate, giving access to a small room. She knocks once, and nothing happens. At the second attempt, they hear the sound of steps and wait to be attended to.
From inside the house, out comes a strong man, short, light coloured, wearing jeans, knitted shirt, leather hat and flip-flops. Seeing his daughter accompanied by the boys, he gets surprised and with authority says:
– Daughter, what is happening? Who are these people?
– They are my friends, father. They came with me to pay a visit. Is it alright? (Rafaela)
– Ok. Excuse the bad manners. My name is Antonio Ferreira and yours?
– I am Aldivan Teixeira Torres.
– I am Renato
– My name is Rafael Potester.
– And I am Uriel Ikiriri.
– My pleasure. Be at ease. Let’s go in. (Antonio)
– Thank you. (The seer)
– Is my mother here? (Rafaela Ferreira)
– Yes. In the lounge. Are we going in? (Antonio)
Everyone accepts the invitation nodding in agreement. They pass the hall, enter the lounge, and one by one settles on the five-seat sofa and others on chairs. Gildete, Rafaela’s mother is introduced to the visitors. Immediately, they start talking.
– Good, Mrs. Gildete and Mr Antonio, we met Rafaela by chance, when we were praying to the Sacred. Tell me, when did the problems start? (The seer)
– We don’t know exactly when, but we suspect that the worse happened because of the engagement break-up. From then on, she lost the will to live. (Gildete)
– I think it was just like that. (Antonio)
– I understand it. It is very difficult indeed. (The seer)
– Have you seen a specialist? (Rafael)
– Yes. With no concrete results. (Gildete)
– In my despair, I even consulted a holy priest. (Antonio)
– I have already told them that nothing and nobody can help me. They are stubborn. (Rafaela)
– Don’t talk like that. Nothing is impossible. (Renato)
– She is depressed, young man. It is normal feeling like that. (Uriel)
– Oh, pardon me, Rafaela. (Renato)
– It is not your fault. What to do, my God? I feel lost and with no chances of surviving. What else could happen? (Rafaela)
– The answer you are seeking is in my father. When I was in the dark night of the soul— a dark period when I went away from God— he looked for me and with great love he saved me from perdition. He can even do more for you through me. For that reason, I ask permission from your parents and you, to let me try to help you. (The seer)
– I don’t know. Although I am afraid, I have trust on what.
–What must I do, dad and mom? (Asks Rafaela)
– We have nothing to lose. For the little we have talked, I have understood the greatness of this man’s heart. I have got faith. (Gildete)
– What have you got in mind? (Antonio)
– Get to know your daughter, and through knowing her be able to help her. I also want her to come with us in a short journey. (The seer)
– Everything is alright with me. However, keep us up to date. (Antonio)
– If you agree, I am also in agreement. I am going to try. (Rafaela)
– Thank you for your trust. (The seer)
– Would you like something to eat or drink? (Gildete)
– Water for me. (The seer)
– I want juice. (Renato)
– Anything. (Rafael)
– Thank you. (Uriel)
– If you excuse me. (Gildete)
Gildete got up, ruffled her hair and with steady steps headed to the kitchen. In a few strides she gets there and begins preparing some snacks. While waiting, the conversation continues lively in the lounge, relating to other subjects. When she finishes preparing the food, the hostess call everyone to the kitchen table, were everything was well organized. They respond to the call, and for twenty minutes, they continue to interact, in an atmosphere of peace, tranquillity and union, as if they were a large family. What has a touch of truth, for they are all part of the great family called humanity.
At the end, Rafaela goes to pack her suitcases to take on the long journey. A journey still not defined and unforeseen which could change the future of the entire world. Let’s wait and see.
