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This new father has a lot to learn

...and she’s perfect for the job

Bachelor Paul Belvedere is overwhelmed with raising his recently orphaned young nephew. Fortunately, he’s found an ally in violet-eyed teacher Charlotte Connelly. Paul might even be able to trust her with his shameful secret. But when he discovers that Charlotte is planning on leaving town on a mission trip, Paul is caught between saying goodbye...or teaching her an important lesson in love.

DONNA GARTSHORE loves reading and writing. She also writes short stories, poetry and devotionals. She often veers off to the book section in the grocery store when she should be buying food. Besides talking about books and writing, Donna loves spending time with her daughter, Sunday family suppers and engaging online with the writing community.

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Instant Father

Donna Gartshore


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ISBN: 978-1-474-09625-6

INSTANT FATHER

© 2019 Donna Lynn Gartshore

Published in Great Britain 2019

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“Trying to get rid of me?”

Charlotte was startled, but then saw the twinkle in Paul’s eye. Still, she couldn’t resist adding one more thing.

“I hope I’ve made it clear, Paul, I won’t tolerate being pressured about this. But at the same time, I want you to trust me. Can you do that? I care about Tyson, too, just as I care about all of my students.”

“I trust you,” Paul said, but the words seemed unfamiliar in his mouth. “I, uh, missed you at lunch yesterday,” he added, his tone gruff with confession.

So he had noticed. I missed you, too…

But she couldn’t bring herself to say the words or to stir the embers.

She suddenly wondered how it would go over if she was to start dating the guardian of one of her students.

Whoa, now, where had that thought come from?

Besides, there was her application, making its way through the mail and waiting to bring back with it the answer to her future.

An answer that she was no longer sure she was ready for.

Dear Reader,

Thank you so much for reading Instant Father and spending time with Paul, Charlotte and Tyson.

Being people of faith doesn’t always stop us from doubting ourselves and feeling like we must hide our flaws from others. It also doesn’t stop us from letting the expectations of others influence our decisions.

Both Paul and Charlotte struggle with these things and it is only by learning that they can trust God to be strong in their weaknesses that they are willing to take a chance on each other and on love.

I wrote this book because I wished to express that, although we are imperfect, God loves us and we can all have fulfilling lives. We do not need to let our shortcomings define us.

I also brought bullying into the story because I believe it’s an ongoing issue that we all need to be aware of, pray about and take a stand against.

I know I speak for all Love Inspired authors when I say that our readers mean the world to us. We are so thankful that you read our books and we love to engage with you. Please join our Love Inspired Author and Reader Group on Facebook. We want to connect with you, pray with and for you, and hear about your lives.

I can also be reached via email at deelynn1000@hotmail.com; friend me or like my author page on Facebook; follow me on Twitter @gartshoredonna or on Instagram @dlgwrites.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart and I look forward to hearing from you!

Blessings,

Donna Gartshore

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

—2 Corinthians 12:9

This book is, as always, for my daughter, who brings light and fun to my days.

For my family, who supports me and believes in me.

And for my writing group and other friends, who keep me encouraged.

Thanks again to Melissa Endlich for helping me to be the best writer I can be.

Contents

Cover

Back Cover Text

About the Author

Booklist

Title Page

Copyright

Introduction

Dear Readers

Bible Verse

Dedication

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-One

Chapter Twenty-Two

EPILOGUE

Extract

About the Publisher

Chapter One

It was Friday in the second week of September, her grade-one students, restless and energetic, had departed for the weekend and Charlotte Connelly was intently focused on her computer screen. But instead of looking at lesson plans, she studied pictures of people engaged in overseas missionary work. During the community activities on Wednesday night at her church, where Charlotte often assisted with literacy volunteer work, one of the other volunteers had pointed out the opportunity to her and said he thought she would be perfect for it.

Since then, Charlotte hadn’t been able to focus on anything but the thought of going overseas. There was no doubt she was ready for a change, perhaps even for some adventure. But would she actually dare to do it?

She had lived in Green Valley, a small community about a forty-minute drive from Regina, Saskatchewan, her entire life. At age twenty-five, she was still single, and she didn’t see that changing anytime soon.

The volunteers looked happy and fulfilled in a way that she hadn’t felt for a long time. Well, truthfully, not since Anna... But as soon as the thought of her younger sister came into her mind, it was immediately followed by guilt-ridden memories that blamed her for what happened. She knew that her parents counted on her, especially since her mother was unwell these days. Charlotte suspected it was stress, but the headaches and upset stomach were real and debilitating.

But Charlotte still had the longing in her heart to have a life that brought her true fulfillment...maybe even love. But, despite being a believer and a regular churchgoer, she didn’t feel like she knew what His intentions were for her life. Was this opportunity to do missionary work a nudge toward discovering this?

A soft clearing of a throat from the classroom doorway startled Charlotte. She quickly regained her composure and turned on her professional smile before seeing who it was. Then her smile wavered for a moment, as something unsettling flowed through her, an odd mix of disturbing and pleasant. A moment later, the sensation was gone and she was left feeling slightly shell-shocked.

She couldn’t explain why she’d had such a visceral reaction to seeing Paul Belvedere standing in the classroom doorway. He was the uncle and guardian of one of her students, Tyson Francis, and he wasn’t the only parent or guardian to seek her out lately.

Although, admittedly, she couldn’t recall any other class parents who filled up the doorway with such broad shoulders and whose dark brown eyes were so intense.

“I hope I’m not interrupting,” Paul said in the deep voice that several women in town gossiped about. “I—uh—Mildred Price said it was no trouble if I picked Tyson up late today, so I thought I’d take the opportunity to...” For a split second Charlotte saw weariness and uncertainty wash across Paul’s strong-boned face. Then he cleared his throat again and said in a forthright way, “I want to talk to you about how Tyson is doing and I want you to be honest with me.”

“Yes, of course, Mr. Belvedere,” Charlotte said. “Please come in and have a seat.”

She couldn’t help noting that the chair she kept by her desk for this purpose was dwarfed by his size. Yet what should have been a comical picture only served to emphasize his physique.

Stop it, Charlotte, she scolded herself.

She knew that Paul’s question wasn’t a casual one. Even if she hadn’t been Tyson’s teacher, it would have been impossible in a town the size of Green Valley to avoid knowledge of the tragedy.

Tyson and his parents, Ross and Erica Francis, had only been living in town for a couple of years, yet they’d readily fit in. One fateful night, about seven months ago, Ross and Erica left Tyson with a babysitter and drove into Regina for dinner and a movie. They never made it to the movie. As they were crossing the street after dinner, they were struck down by a drunk driver and killed instantly.

Tyson had woken up to the news that he would never see his parents again.

Charlotte swallowed hard and reminded herself that Paul had come to get her opinion on his nephew, not to watch her dissolve in a puddle of sympathy, even if she did understand all too well what it was like to lose a sister. But that was something she never talked about.

He shifted in the small chair, and she realized that he was waiting for her to answer his question. There was something edgy about him, not dangerous, but as if he didn’t have time to waste.

“I’m glad that you came to talk to me,” Charlotte said. “I’ve actually been thinking about whether I should contact you, but I wanted to give it some time. In some ways Tyson is doing as well as can be expected. All children experience an adjustment period between kindergarten and grade one because of the full days and higher expectations, and, of course with Tyson...”

A shadow passed through Paul’s eyes, and his jaw tightened, so she rapidly stepped around the emotional land mine.

“We’ll just say that Tyson has some additional challenges.”

Paul gave a grim nod. “So he’s having problems? I was afraid of that.”

Charlotte thought about Tyson and pictured his unruly mop of reddish hair, the dash of freckles across his nose and his smile, which, though infrequent, was gap-toothed and endearing.

“Tyson is a sweet boy,” she said with sincerity. “He’s kindhearted and smart and, given time, I know he’ll be fine.”

She silently prayed that her confident prediction would come true.

“But...” Paul prompted.

“But in the meantime I do think he could use some extra assistance and attention.”

“What are you suggesting?” Paul asked.

“I’m saying that we have to work as a team. We both care about Tyson and are committed to helping him through this. We can’t bring back his parents.” Charlotte swallowed briefly then braced herself. She couldn’t give in to emotion now. “But if we work together, I know we can make a difference for him.”

Paul appeared to be considering her words, then he asked, “What about the other kids? How is Tyson getting along with them?”

“Social interactions are an adjustment for all of the children,” she said cautiously. “It’s really not that long since their only social interactions were with their parents.”

She stopped herself. But it was Paul who pushed past the hard moment in the conversation.

“Is Tyson not getting along with the other children?” he asked.

“He’s a friendly and kind little boy,” Charlotte reiterated. “But again, there are struggles, for obvious reasons. He has one or two friends that he seems to be comfortable with, but he still likes to be alone much of the time.”

“And you think we should be concerned?” Paul asked sharply.

Charlotte was momentarily flustered by his tone, then regained her composure. It was only natural that Paul would be uptight. Not only was he new to town, but she’d heard that he was also a confirmed bachelor. Parenting was new to him. Plus he’d also be dealing with his own grief over his sister.

“I think it’s all part of the struggle he’s going through,” Charlotte said. “I do want to say again that I think Tyson is doing quite well, but it’s going to take both of us, as well as the support of the community, to keep him on the path to healing.”

Again Paul scrutinized her in a way that made Charlotte feel like he could see right through her. Then his face relaxed and he said. “Okay, thank you for answering all of my questions, Ms. Connelly.”

“That’s what I’m here for,” Charlotte said. “I’ll keep in close touch with you about Tyson’s progress and trust you’ll do the same for me. Also, Mr. Belvedere, I know that you’ve had a loss, too. Green Valley is a supportive community—don’t be afraid to reach out.”

“Thanks, I appreciate it.” But Paul’s face had gone stony, discouraging further discussion on the matter. He glanced at his watch and unfolded himself out of the chair. Charlotte stood up to walk out of the room with him, noticing that, although she was five feet seven inches, she felt tiny beside him. She tried not to feel like a little girl as she scrambled to match his long stride.

Although Paul had indicated that he was satisfied with her answers, Charlotte felt like there was something he wasn’t saying, and she wanted to offer more reassurance, but she didn’t know how.

Dear Lord, help me to help Tyson and his uncle. Show me what I can do.

Almost immediately, the community activities that took place at Green Valley Community Church on Wednesday nights came to mind.

“Listen, Paul,” she said, tilting her face up to catch his eye.

He stopped walking and looked down at her, waiting.

“You may already know this, but there are a variety of activities that take place at the Green Valley church on Wednesday nights. It would be a great way for Tyson to have more bonding time with his classmates and a chance for you to get to know more people, too. I’m usually with the literacy volunteer group and—”

“Thank you,” Paul said. “Sorry to interrupt, but I do need to get going. I promised Mildred and Tyson that I wouldn’t be too late. Maybe we’ll drop by the church—we’ll see.”

But Charlotte didn’t have confidence that they would. She had never seen them there on a Sunday morning.

As they reached the exit, they almost ran into Rena Acoose, who was heading back into the school with a fretful look in her beautiful dark eyes.

“Rena, what’s the matter?” Charlotte asked. Her First Nations friend was the grade-four teacher at Parkside Elementary School. “I thought you were long gone.”

“That was the plan,” Rena said rather breathlessly. “I have the car today because I’m supposed to be getting a few groceries after work, but it won’t start. I left my cell phone in my desk and I need to get hold of Seth.”

Her husband owned and managed the local coffee and bakeshop, Seth’s Café, a popular hangout on Main Street.

“It’s just been one thing after another,” Rena said, shaking her head. “I know we’ll have to get a mechanic to look at it, but we just found out that we have to get a new furnace installed before winter, too.”

“I could take a look,” Paul said, and Charlotte remembered that he’d been hired as a mechanic by Mildred’s brother, Harold. Harold said Paul did high-quality work.

“I have to pick up Ty right now, but I could stop by Harold’s Garage and grab my tools and come back to have a look.”

Rena shook her head. “That’s so nice of you,” she said. “But I really can’t afford it right now.”

“Oh, I’m sure we can work something out,” Paul said. “Maybe just mention to Seth that Tyson and I are pretty fond of that bannock he makes.”

Paul’s half smile caused Charlotte’s cheeks to flush. More than his obvious good looks, she was attracted to his willingness to help. Her curiosity was piqued.

A moment later, though, she tamped down on the curiosity. Her only goal with him was to help his nephew, although it did no harm to notice how handsome he was.

Paul departed with a promise to return to look at Rena’s car. As soon as he was out of earshot, Charlotte felt her friend’s fingers eagerly gripping her forearm.

“He’s cute!” Rena whispered dramatically. “A nice guy, too. And don’t even try to pretend you haven’t noticed.”

Wanting to steer Rena away from any matchmaking thoughts, Charlotte said, “I’ve been looking online at sites about overseas missionary work.”

“Do you think you’ll do it?” Rena asked.

“I’m not sure. I mean, I’d really like to, but...there’s a lot to think about.”

Rena nodded.

One of the best things about longtime friends, Charlotte thought, was that you didn’t have to spell everything out for them.

“You headed to your parents’ tonight,” Rena said. It wasn’t a question. Everyone who knew Charlotte knew that she went to her parents’ on Friday evenings for tea and shortbread and a game of cribbage with her father.

“Yes, I keep telling Mom that they can come to my place if she’s not up to it,” Charlotte said. “Or we can take a night off, but she says she likes doing it. I guess...well, I guess she likes knowing that some things won’t change.”

But, as she left Rena at the school to wait for Paul to look at her car, Charlotte wondered what Paul Belvedere did on a Friday night.

* * *

Could he trust Ms. Connelly to do everything she could for Tyson? Paul wondered if she would truly pay enough attention, because he was all too aware of what could happen when teachers—and parents—let things slip through the cracks.

Despite himself, he was also trying to decide if she was pretty. His first reaction was that she was plain, until he caught a glimpse of her eyes. They were quite extraordinary, violet with long thick lashes, and they brought an unexpected beauty to her face. She was tall and slim and her straight-line gray skirt and pink blouse made him think of a prim librarian. She had light brown hair that she wore pulled back in a low ponytail, her nose was small and straight, her mouth was on the wide side and she didn’t wear lipstick.

Not that any of that mattered. The important thing was how Tyson felt about her and, so far, he said he liked her. Plus Paul had heard nothing but good things around town about Ms. Connelly.

Mildred Price lived one block over from Main Street, and as Paul headed toward her house, he passed the few businesses in town—Seth’s Café, Fran’s Women’s Wear and Dudley’s Pharmacy. It still bemused him that he could walk from one end of Main Street to the other in less time than it took him to pick up one of Seth’s renowned cups of coffee. It was a real change from Toronto, which was the last place he’d lived.

His sister, Erica, had emailed him about Green Valley, and he’d teased her, unable to believe they would last for long there. She and her husband, Ross, were city people through and through, or so he had thought. But they’d wanted to raise Tyson in a place where he could play outdoors and where they would actually know their neighbors’ names. Despite how much he’d enjoyed giving his older sister a hard time, Paul had been happy to be proven wrong, because Erica and her family had thrived in Green Valley.

He still had a hard time believing they were gone. Somehow, he would get through it, one step at a time. He would pick up Tyson. He would stop by the garage and grab his tools. He would look at Rena’s car. Tyson liked Rena and wouldn’t mind hanging out while Paul did his work. One step at a time, he could do this.

Paul always felt reassured at Mildred’s home. Everything about her freshly painted house and immaculately tended yard spelled comfort and order to him. He regretted the time that Tyson had to spend with a caregiver, but since it was necessary, he was glad that Ty was happy there.

Mildred had never married and had no children of her own, but she was an honorary grandmother to the entire town. In contrast with her house and yard that conjured images of a storybook grandmother, Mildred was six feet tall, broad-shouldered and wore overalls and her white hair was always in two long braids.

The front door of her house swung open as Paul neared it. Clearly, they were watching for him.

“How did Tyson get along today?” Paul asked Mildred as his nephew was getting his backpack.

“Oh, he’s always a good boy,” Mildred said in her soft, sweet voice. “How was your meeting with his teacher? Charlotte Connelly is a fine young woman.”

Was it his imagination, or did the older woman put extra emphasis on her statement about Charlotte?

“She seems like a good teacher,” Paul said cautiously. He had no desire to delve any deeper into the topic. Charlotte Connelly was not his type. Not that he’d ever really had a type. Dating had never been a priority for him.

Survival had.

Now he had one goal, and that was to be the best guardian possible for Tyson. Even though he was sure Erica would never have named him guardian if she’d known how unstable his faith was now.

“Thanks for letting Tyson stay late,” Paul said.

“My pleasure,” Mildred said.

“We have to stop by Harold’s for a couple of minutes,” Paul explained to Tyson as they went down the sidewalk together. “Then I’m going to have a quick look at Ms. Acoose’s car.”

“I like her,” Tyson declared.

“I thought you did,” Paul nodded. “You like your teacher, Ms. Connelly, too, don’t you?”

Tyson nodded. “Yup.” Paul waited to hear more, but Tyson had already moved on to the subject of his after-school snack. It amused Paul, the way the boy’s thoughts could drift from one topic to another like scattered fluff from a dandelion wish.

“We had oatmeal and raisin cookies,” Tyson said. “Except not raisins, because Mildred knows I don’t like raisins.”

“I don’t like raisins, either,” Paul said. Tyson looked up at him with those large blue eyes of his and nodded with a satisfied sigh. The expression on his freckled face clearly said that they were two men bonding over a shared dislike of wrinkled fruit.

It was these moments that gave Paul hope that he could do this. He could do this whole guardian, raise-a-child-into-a-responsible-adult thing.

“Did my mom and dad like raisins?” Tyson asked. “Is there snacks in Heaven? Do you haveta have raisins?”

And, just like that, the cautiously emerging confidence was gone, like a rabbit being chased away by hounds.

Paul didn’t know how he felt about the God and Heaven questions these days. In Paul’s opinion, He had been pretty much MIA during Paul’s school days, and then after losing Erica... Well, how was he supposed to feel about a God who would allow all of that?

But there was a little boy, wide eyes fixed on him, waiting for an answer, and he couldn’t confess his raging doubts to anyone, let alone a six-year-old who counted on him.

“I’m sure you only eat what you like in Heaven,” he finally answered. To Paul’s great relief, there were no more questions. As they walked to Harold’s Garage, Tyson chatted about the things he had learned in Ms. Connelly’s class that week. Each time he said her name, Paul was unwittingly struck by a vision of her violet eyes.

They reached the garage, and Harold greeted Tyson in the booming voice that the little boy loved.

“Why, hello, good sir! And what brings you my way? Do you need a part for your car? Or have you come to help me organize my wrenches?”

Tyson giggled, then suppressed it because that was part of the game.

“I’ve come to buy a racing car, good sir.” He did his best to imitate the low boom in Harold’s voice, and Paul broke into a grin.

Harold Price was five years younger and a good six inches shorter than his sister, Mildred, but his warm blue eyes matched hers and, although he was married and had a family of his own, he cared equally about Green Valley and the people who lived there.

“I’m actually here to get my tools,” Paul said. “I promised someone a favor.”

Harold considered that briefly, then nodded. Paul knew the older man was an astute businessman but that he would also understand that being a Good Samaritan was beneficial to everyone in the long run.

“Since you’re here,” Harold said. “There is something I’d like to talk to you about.”

He reached down and lifted Tyson up, swinging him onto a high stool behind a workbench.

“Mind the shop, good sir?” he asked. “I’m just going to have a quick chat with your uncle.”

Tyson sat up straight and proud. “You got it, good sir,” he replied.

Paul felt the relaxed, enjoyable feeling of the moment slip away into apprehension. But he quickly reasoned that he was a good mechanic and he knew he worked hard.

Back in Harold’s office, a small room crammed with a desk, one chair and shelves filled top to bottom with binders and stacks of paper, Harold indicated that Paul should sit.

“This won’t take long,” Harold promised. “First off, you’re a fine mechanic, Paul. I don’t know if I’ve worked with a better one.”

“Thank you,” Paul said, feeling the thread of tension in his shoulders begin to unravel.

“However...”

The thread pulled taut again.

“Competition in this business is fierce,” Harold continued. “Sure, folks will come here because they know us and it’s convenient. But there are garages being set up all over the place, so it’s very important that we offer excellent customer service.”

He leaned forward, linking his hands together and studying Paul’s face intently. “Do you understand what I’m saying?”

Paul couldn’t think of a single time when he’d done less than his best work. “I’m not sure I do.”

“You do great work,” Harold reiterated, “and the customers do like you. It’s just that...” He stopped, looking as if it pained him to say what he had to say. “Mrs. Meissner had a bit of a complaint about you yesterday.”

“A complaint?” Paul repeated, trying to think of his dealings with her. He had fixed her car, which hadn’t been an easy job. Also, in the short time he’d known Mrs. Meissner, she struck him a chronic complainer.

“Maybe complaint is too strong a word,” Harold amended. “Let’s say she had a concern about you.”

“What was it?” Paul asked, wishing that his boss would get to the point. He didn’t want to leave Tyson waiting too long.

“Well, she always likes someone to review her invoices with her,” Harold explained, “and she said that you refused to do it.” Harold looked at him, as if sure there was a logical explanation.

Suddenly Paul remembered the incident. Mrs. Meissner had said something about a price being higher than usual. Paul had remarked that inflation seemed to impact everything and then had gone into the shop to let the next customer know he was ready for him.

His mind raced, like a mouse going through a maze after some elusive cheese. He would have to apologize and give some kind of reason. He had to make sure that he bonded with the people of this town, for Tyson’s sake, even if his own inclination was to run away as soon as the pressure was on. Maybe he would take Ms. Connelly up on her offer of Ty and him joining in those Wednesday night activities at church.

There was only one thing he was sure of. There was no absolutely no way he could tell Harold, or Mrs. Meissner, or anyone else that the reason he hadn’t reviewed the invoice with her was because he couldn’t read.

Chapter Two

Late Saturday morning, Charlotte was sitting with her cousin Bridget at Seth’s Café. As always, the place was busy, and Seth was cooking, calling out orders and chatting with the customers. His black hair spiked out in all directions, regardless of what he was doing but, inevitably, one of the regulars was bound to call out, “Look at Seth, he’s working so hard his hair’s standing on end!”

The familiar joke, as well as the coffee, lightly flavored with nutmeg, and an order of pancakes usually soothed Charlotte, but she had a restlessness that she couldn’t quell.

Sometimes she liked to imagine different directions her life could take. She loved music and poetry and she’d always been fascinated by history. Of course she could teach about those things, but that wasn’t the same thing as actually experiencing them. Maybe one day she would travel more, go to concerts and shows and see first-hand some of the things she’d only read about.

But she had also made a promise to the uncle of a grieving little boy...

Charlotte’s father and Bridget’s father were brothers, both businessmen who commuted daily to Regina. Less than a year apart—Charlotte ten months older, almost to the day—she and Bridget had always been close. They were more like sisters than cousins. People always told them they looked like sisters, too, although Bridget’s eyes were more denim than violet blue, and her hair was a shade lighter.

“So, what do you think?” Charlotte asked Bridget, having filled her in on her possible mission work. Bridget hadn’t been at church on Wednesday night because she was on a date. Since they’d been teenagers, she and Bridget had shared their ideas of what their perfect lives would look like. Marriage and family were definitely part of the plan.

“I don’t know, Char,” Bridget said, twirling a piece of toast through an egg yolk. “I can’t imagine you going so far away. You’ve never even left Saskatchewan. How are you going to handle living thousands of miles away?”

“Maybe it’s time to change all that,” Charlotte said quietly.

Bridget shrugged. “Maybe,” she said. She finished the rest of the food on her plate and sighed. “That was so good, but I am not going to eat anything else until supper time.” She looked around the café. “It’s busy this morning.”

“It always is,” Charlotte said. She accepted that the conversation about missionary work was over for now. She knew that Bridget would miss her terribly if she went away, even if she had a hard time saying it.

“Who’s sitting in the back corner?” Bridget asked in a lowered voice. “Don’t make it obvious that you’re looking.”

Charlotte laughed and turned around to look. “If they’re strangers here,” she said to Bridget, “I won’t be the first person to stare.”

She briefly took in the sight of a woman who looked like she was in her early to mid-thirties, with a tired face and a distant gaze, and a boy, who looked to be about six or seven, listlessly pushing a toy car back and forth across the table.

Charlotte turned back to Bridget. “I’ve seen them on Wednesday nights at church, so they must live somewhere close by, but I haven’t seen them Sunday and the little boy isn’t at our school.”

“They don’t look like they feel at home here,” Bridget observed.

“Maybe we should do something to make them feel welcome, then,” Charlotte suggested. But she had no idea how to do that.

She felt a bit ashamed at her relief when the strangers got up to leave.

Seth sped around the café, refilling coffee mugs and water glasses. He had hired Eugenie Tyler, a high school senior, to help out in the café, but Seth still liked to mingle with his customers.

Charlotte thought with amusement that when Eugenie tried to keep up with Seth, she looked like a fledging bird in a nest watching an eagle swoop around her. But she was always pleasant and worked hard.

She also thought that it was a good thing that Seth’s wife, Rena, was quiet and generally unflappable. It not only made her an effective teacher, it also provided the perfect balance for Seth’s boundless energy.

Charlotte believed that there was a perfect match for everyone, at least in theory. Unfortunately, she hadn’t yet met her perfect match.

Inexplicably, she pictured Paul Belvedere’s deep brown eyes and the way he had studied her face as if he was trying to make a decision about her.

She brought her attention back to Bridget.

“Speaking of being a homebody,” she said, “I need to get handier with repairs and stuff. There are so many things around the house that need fixing up, but I’m afraid of ruining it if I tackle anything.”

“I wish I could help,” Bridget said. “But you know I’m no better.”

A melodic chime sounded in the café, signaling that someone else had entered. As usual, almost everyone looked to see who the new arrival was. Charlotte followed suit and saw Paul and Tyson coming in.

She had no explanation for the way her heart suddenly sped up.

Tyson had his hands jammed in the pockets of his jeans, and his reddish mop of hair looked like it could use a cut. Beside him, in a black T-shirt that emphasized his broad shoulders and a pair of blue jeans, his uncle looked strong, and like he could handle any situation that life threw his way.

Except Charlotte could still see the shadow of a deep weariness in his eyes. She wanted to know more about him, about what put those shadows in his eyes.

Tyson had spotted her and was sidling up to their table, looking awestruck to see her. It always entertained Charlotte the way her students acted like they had run into a celebrity—or an alien—if they saw her outside the classroom.

Tyson grinned shyly. “Hi, Ms. Connelly! Did you have breakfast?” he asked.

“I did,” Charlotte told him. “The pancakes were delicious.”

He nodded as if pondering the secrets of the universe. Paul came over to their table. “Hi,” he said glancing at Charlotte, then at Bridget.

“Hi!” Bridget chirped. “And what brings you two handsome gentlemen out this morning?”

“Who’s she talking about?” Tyson said in an audible whisper, and Charlotte fought the urge to giggle.

“We’ve come out for some breakfast, too,” Paul answered Bridget. “For a special treat.”

“And we forgot to buy eggs,” Tyson added.

“I sometimes forget to buy things, too,” Charlotte said to Tyson, hoping Paul knew he shouldn’t be too hard on himself.

Their gazes met, and his eyes had a glimmer of thanks in them.

“Hey, Paul,” Bridget piped up, “I’ve heard you’re good at repairs and things. Char here was just telling me that she could use some help with her house.”

Charlotte shot her cousin a warning look.

“Really?” Paul said. “I’d be happy to come over and give you a hand.”

“Oh, that’s okay, you don’t have to,” Charlotte said, flustered.

“No, I’d like to,” Paul said. “It would mean a lot to me if I could contribute in some way.”

Charlotte understood the feeling of wanting to make a contribution.

“Okay, then,” she said. “I’d be happy to accept your assistance.”

Tyson wandered over to select a coloring book and crayons from the basket Seth kept for the children at the front.

“Did you see those reading sheets I sent home with Tyson?” Charlotte asked. “He’s doing quite well, but I think just a bit more practice would really make a difference. I can go over them in more detail with you, if you like?”

For a moment she thought she saw a panicked expression flash across Paul’s face, but then it was gone. He gave a tight smile and said, “That’s fine, we’ll get to them. It’s just been a busy week.”

Charlotte nodded. “I understand,” she said. She would make sure that she encouraged and supported them both.

“Just know I’m here to help if you need it,” she added.

Paul nodded. “I appreciate that,” he said. “Got your coloring book?” he called over to Tyson.

“Yup, and crayons, too.” The little boy came back to stand beside his uncle.

“Hey, Paul!” Seth hurried over. “Have a seat, and whatever you want, it’s on the house. Thanks a lot for looking at the car. We really appreciate it.”

“My pleasure.”

Paul said the right words, but Charlotte saw from his face that he wasn’t comfortable being praised.

“Let’s go find a table, Ty,” he said to his nephew. “Say goodbye to the ladies.”

“Goodbye, ladies,” Tyson intoned obediently.

Charlotte grinned. “Enjoy your weekend, Tyson. See you at school on Monday.”

Just as they were about to walk away, Paul turned back and asked, “When did you say those community activities were?”

“Wednesday nights,” Charlotte said. Paul nodded as he made his way to a table on the other side of the café, where Tyson was sitting.

“What was that all about?” Bridget asked in a hushed tone. “Are you guys friends?”

“His nephew is a student in my class,” Charlotte replied, deliberately not answering the question she knew Bridget was really asking.

Especially since there was no other answer to give, was there?

* * *

After breakfast at the café, Charlotte went home to do her Saturday chores around the house. As she dusted and swept, her thoughts kept returning to Paul Belvedere. She couldn’t escape the nagging feeling that there was something he wasn’t telling her. On the other hand, he was trying to connect.

Lord, please be with Paul and Tyson and please help me to help them in the best way I can.

Charlotte picked up the dishcloth and wiped the counter and around the burners of the stove. The motion helped soothe her racing thoughts.

She knew her home would never be as pristinely immaculate as the one she grew up in, but that suited her just fine. She loved the earthy tones, the fact that not everything matched perfectly, her collection of knickknacks that ranged from lovely to humorous and the fact that her bookshelves bulged from floor to ceiling and still couldn’t contain everything she wanted to read.

Her home was her haven, and she was content there. Or at least she had been. Why was it that lately she felt like she wanted to go somewhere where no one knew her? She looked at the computer that sat on her kitchen table and promised herself that she would make time for more missionary-work research later.

She was scrubbing especially hard at a remnant of spaghetti sauce on the stove top when the phone rang, causing her to jump.

“Charlotte, dear, it’s Mom.” Her mother sounded weary. “How are you? I just wanted to touch base with you.”

“I’m fine, Mom,” she said. “How was your day? How’s your head feeling today? Did you and Dad get to the farmer’s market?” Her mother launched into a description of carrots, cucumbers, beets and bartering.

Try as she might to focus, Charlotte’s thoughts kept drifting to missionary work. She felt like she was keeping a secret from her parents by not telling them that she was even thinking about it, but she couldn’t bring herself to mention it, because it seemed like ever since Anna had died, her parents got through their days by keeping things as much the same as they could. To them, change often signaled something negative.

* * *

On Wednesday night, Paul watched Tyson eat his last bite of spaghetti, then immediately leaned in with a washcloth to tackle the orange beard. Tyson yowled and wriggled.

“Quite the performance,” Paul observed dryly. The first time Tyson had reacted that way to getting his face cleaned, he had thought he was hurting him and had felt guilty. Now, he realized it was par for the course for a six-year-old and that Ty would be fine in thirty seconds.

Sure enough, his face clean, Tyson asked nonchalantly, “Where are we going again, Uncle Paul?”

“We’re going to the church. There are some activities there on Wednesday nights that might be fun.”

“What’s activities?”

“Games, I think. Maybe some stories and snacks. There’s a basketball hoop outside.” Paul tried to think of how else to sell the idea to Tyson...or maybe he was trying to sell it to himself. “Your teacher will be there, too, I think.”

“Ms. Connelly?”

“Yes, I think so.”

“I like stories,” Tyson mused, “and games, and maybe basketball.”

“See, it will be great!” The enthusiastic tone in Paul’s voice sounded slightly false to his own ears. “Put your plate in the sink, please,” he told Tyson. “And go brush your teeth. We’ll be leaving in five minutes.”

Tyson obliged, but then stopped at the bottom of the stairs. “My mom and my dad used to read stories to me. Will you read me stories, Uncle Paul?”

Oh, please, not now...

“What!” Paul feigned exaggerated offense. “What about the continuing saga of ‘Ty the Adventure Boy’? You can’t tell me that there’s a story out there more exciting than that!”

Every night at bedtime, he’d been spinning out tales of a little boy just like Tyson who went on a variety of adventures. So far, Tyson had seemed to love it, but Paul worried that his reprieve was over.

But Tyson didn’t say anything else for the moment. He just turned and ran up the rest of the stairs.

He took the few minutes that Tyson would be gone to rinse off their supper dishes. He still wasn’t quite used to Tyson’s toys and articles of clothing strewn here and there. He preferred his living accommodations to be clean, stark and impersonal. That way nothing felt like home and it was easy to leave when the urge took him.

But you can’t do that anymore, he thought. It was different when he had only himself to worry about, but now he had Tyson to consider, and he would for many years to come. It wasn’t just that Erica had granted him guardianship of Ty. He knew all too well what it felt like to think no one was on your side, and he was determined that Tyson would never have to feel that way. Thankfully, Ty’s teacher felt the same way. He had the primary role in Tyson’s life, but the more people the little boy could count on, the better.

Tyson came back down the stairs with his face pink from what looked to be another scrubbing and his hair slicked back and smelling suspiciously like Paul’s aftershave.

“Got yourself a little spiffed up there, did you, bud?”

Tyson nodded and beamed, while Paul fervently hoped the walk over would help ease some of the overpowering scent.

The church was about a ten-minute walk from his house, and he knew that there was really no good reason why attending on Sundays couldn’t become a regular habit for them. Well, other than the fact that he had lost his desire to attend years ago.

“Will there be kids there that I know?” Tyson asked, and Paul tried to gauge whether there was any apprehension in the question.

“I expect so,” he said. “Ms. Connelly said there usually are. You’d like that, wouldn’t you?”

Tyson considered and nodded.

“Tyson?”

“Yeah, Uncle Paul?”

“The other kids in your class...they’re nice to you, aren’t they?”

“Yup. Except...they all have moms and dads.” Paul watched his nephew struggle to articulate something that no six-year-old should have to. It was difficult enough for an adult to cope with the impact of such a loss.

“It’s okay, Ty,” he said softly, giving the boy’s shoulder a gentle squeeze. “I totally get it.

“And Ms. Connelly is a good teacher?” he asked, after they continued walking. He thought that she was, but he needed to hear Tyson say it.

“Yeah, she’s nice and she’s pretty. Do you think she’s pretty, Uncle Paul?”

He pictured her caring smile and violet eyes. “Yes, she’s pretty.” It caught him off guard how much he meant it.

“She’s not even married,” Tyson added, conversationally. “Hey! Neither are you, Uncle Paul.”

Okay, he had to put a rapid stop to wherever Tyson was going with this.

“As long as she’s a good teacher and you’re happy, that’s all that matters to me.”

At the front door of the church, Tyson hesitated. “If I don’t have fun, we don’t have to stay, right?”

“No, we don’t,” Paul said. “But I hope that you do have fun.” He suddenly felt pressured, like he desperately needed this to work out—for both of them. He had to find his place here in town and get along with people as well as he could, even though he always kept his guard up.

He was growing used to the way Tyson’s bravado ebbed and flowed. But he wished he knew if that was typical of the age or something specific to Tyson’s personality.

There were so many things that he didn’t know.

The first person Paul spotted when they stepped inside was Charlotte. Her appearance surprised him. She looked much less rigid dressed in blue jeans and a navy-blue-and-turquoise plaid shirt, with her hair pulled up in a ponytail. She was smiling at someone, and he suddenly wished that he was the recipient of the smile that brought life and beauty to her face. She didn’t have the kind of beauty that he had noticed right away. But now he wanted to keep looking.

He found himself drawn in her direction, not even sure what he planned to say to her, only knowing he wanted to be within her reassuring orbit. “There’s your teacher,” he murmured to Tyson. “Let’s go say hello.”

They drew closer but just as he was about to get her attention, she called out, “Literacy volunteers for tonight, raise your hands, please!”

Paul stopped and gripped Tyson’s hand.

Charlotte summoned the volunteers forward and began to give them instructions.

“Char, I’m so happy to hear you’re going to apply for overseas missionary work,” Paul heard one of the volunteers say. “I think you’ll be absolutely perfect for it.”

He couldn’t hear Charlotte’s response, and he was only vaguely aware of Tyson tugging at his hand and saying, “C’mon, Uncle Paul, I wanna say hi to Ms. Connelly.”

“She’s busy,” he answered automatically. “Let’s go find something to do.”

While his thoughts whirled around in his head, he stopped Tyson’s protests by steering him toward a table that held juice and cookies.

Why had Charlotte promised that they would work as a team to help Tyson when her plan was to leave town?

He hoped he hadn’t made a huge mistake in coming here...or in trusting her.

Chapter Three

Charlotte tried to focus on setting up tables and chairs in the room where the literacy class was being held, but she was puzzled. She was sure that she had seen Paul and Tyson come in and start heading in her direction, but by the time she was finished instructing the volunteers, they were nowhere to be seen.

Well, she would try to catch up with them later. They had a full house tonight. She noticed that the tired, rather bedraggled-looking woman and her young son, whom Bridget had asked about at Seth’s, were there again. They stayed close to the snack table, and she pondered approaching them to see if they wanted to join in any of the activities. But the last time she had done so, the woman had responded in a prickly manner that had set Charlotte back on her heels. Still, she believed that the church was open to all and guessed that they just wanted a place to be without being bombarded with questions.

The little boy—if she remembered correctly, his name was Michael Cannon—had joined the other children for stories and games last week, but he hadn’t interacted much, and his mother had been anxious to leave as soon as the evening was over.

Charlotte reminded herself to ask around to see if anyone knew more about them, and to pray for them.

“Charlotte, can you give me a hand setting out the materials?”

She snapped herself out of her musings to see Stephanie Winslow, a pretty young pharmacy assistant who worked at Dudley’s, holding an armful of books, sheets of paper and a box of pencils.

“Sorry, Steph, be right there.” She hurried over to relieve Stephanie of some of her load.

As the two women got things organized, other volunteers came through the door—Seth and Rena were there, Dudley and his wife, and a couple of teenage boys from youth group.

“Good of you to come out.” Charlotte smiled at them.

The literacy volunteer group worked mainly with immigrants who were learning English. Usually Charlotte loved interacting with the students. She loved their eagerness and willingness to learn and seeing the way their eyes would light up with pride and understanding when they grasped something. But, for some reason, on this particular night she couldn’t concentrate.

Her thoughts kept returning to Paul and Tyson. She wondered where they had gone—if they had even stayed—and what activities they had chosen. She tried telling herself that she was only concerned for Tyson, but she had to admit that she was also worried about his handsome uncle. She wondered what had prompted him to come tonight when she had been so sure that he wouldn’t.

But perhaps the biggest question was why did it matter to her so much? Was she already getting too involved, not only in her concern for Tyson but also by accepting Paul’s offer of help around her house? She was Tyson’s teacher and committed to helping him, but she didn’t want to risk too strong a connection knowing full well that she could be gone by the end of June.

But asking herself those questions didn’t stop her from wanting to track them down.

“Would you mind getting things started?” she asked Stephanie. “I have something I have to check on.”

Stephanie quirked a curious eyebrow at her but nodded.

“Thanks. I promise I won’t be long.”

Charlotte stepped out into the main fellowship room and looked around. She spotted Tyson by the snack table, where he was exchanging wary glances with Michael. The latter boy’s mother was nowhere in sight, although Paul lingered close by, keeping a watchful eye on both boys.

“Where’s your mom, Michael?” Charlotte asked. He looked surly and older than his years.

“Went to read in the library. She said she needed quiet time.”

“There are stories and games for you boys, if you like,” Charlotte said. She glanced at Paul, who looked ready to pounce.

“If that’s okay with you,” she said to him. “Eugenie, from Seth’s café, is supervising the kids tonight. I promise she’s very good with them.”

“Would you like to go, Ty?” Paul asked.

“I guess...” the little boy said.

Tyson looked uneasily at Michael, who shifted from one foot to the other and said, “I guess I’ll just go sit with my mom. I know I have to be quiet,” he said, answering a question that hadn’t been asked.

As soon as Michael was gone, Tyson said with more conviction, “I want to go.”

“I’ll show you where the room is.” Charlotte offered him her hand, which he grasped onto.

Paul followed closely behind them. “What’s with that kid? Michael?” he asked in a low tone so Tyson couldn’t hear him.

“I’m not sure,” Charlotte admitted. “They don’t live in Green Valley, and he’s not at my school. I get the feeling they haven’t had an easy time of it.”

“Probably not,” Paul said. “I hope things work out for them, whatever the issue is, but I have to say I’m glad he’s not in your class.”

“Why is that?” Charlotte asked.

“Let’s just say, I know the type.”

She turned a questioning face to him, but his was unreadable.

Charlotte handed off Tyson to Eugenie. He soon had a book in one hand, a cookie in the other and a nose-crinkling grin on his face.

“Have fun, sport,” Paul said to Tyson. “I’ll be right out here at...?”

“At eight o’clock,” Charlotte said. “Eugenie will tell you when it’s time to go.”

She knew she needed to get back to her group, but she wondered what Paul planned to do for the remainder of the evening.

“Would you like to join our group?” she asked him. “The more the merrier.”

As she extended what was meant to be just a friendly invitation, she suddenly realized how much she wanted him to say yes.

* * *

For one mindless moment, Paul felt like he’d follow the teacher and her bright smile wherever she was going. But then it struck him that, of course, she meant that he could come along and help teach. He felt his mouth quirk into an unamused smile. It didn’t help either that he still carried his discomfort from what he had overheard earlier.

“When I came to see you about Tyson,” he began.

“Yes?” Charlotte encouraged.

“You said that it was important for us to work as a team.”

“Which is true.” She tilted her head and gave him a puzzled smile.

“So, why didn’t you happen to mention that you’re planning to go away?” In answer to her startled face, he added, “I overheard one of the volunteers.”

“I’m only thinking about going,” Charlotte confirmed. She straightened her shoulders and met his gaze. “I haven’t made a final decision yet, but even if I do end up going, it won’t be until after the school year has ended. I meant what I said, Paul. I have no intentions of leaving while Tyson is still in my class.”

Paul studied her. It all sounded good, but only time would tell if her actions matched her words. He had been hurt and disappointed by too many people in the past. He wished her eyes weren’t quite so big and expressive and made an effort to gentle his tone. “I guess we’ll see how it goes, then.”

Her shoulders relaxed a bit. “Okay, thank you. Would you like to join us?” She extended the invitation again.

“No, thanks,” Paul said. “I’m more of a physical-activity type.”

“There’s the basketball hoop outside,” Charlotte reminded him. “You could join your fellow jocks.”

Your fellow jocks... A memory slammed into him involving some grade eight boys from the basketball team.

It took every ounce of self-control he had to say lightly, “I guess I meant I’m more of a fix-it kind of guy. I don’t suppose you have any light bulbs that need changing, or a furnace filter that’s overdue for a swap?”

Charlotte studied him with a puzzled look on her face. “You want to spend your time here fixing things?”

“Or whatever needs doing.”

“I thought you’d come here to get to know people better?” she asked.

She was right, of course, and he would do whatever it took, as long as Tyson was safe and happy here. He just wouldn’t go shoot hoops with a group of men who would bring back memories of how the jocks in school had treated him.

“I do want that,” Paul said. “But I think you can get to know people working on projects together. Plus, these older buildings usually have a lot of neglected areas because no one has the time or inclination to get to them—kind of like you and your house,” he couldn’t resist adding and grinned to see how flustered the sometimes prim schoolteacher could look.

“Yeah, yeah,” she said, waving her hand. Then she said, “I just thought of something—wait right here.”

Paul stood there, wondering what she had in mind. Charlotte returned a few minutes later, looking pleased with herself.

“We have more than our quota of volunteers tonight,” she said, “so I’m getting Stephanie to take over for me and I’m going to take you on a tour of the place and introduce you to a couple of gentlemen who have been keeping a long-running list of the things that never get done.”

Again, he had conflicted feelings about Charlotte. She appeared to be so engaged in helping him and Tyson, which he supposed went along with her role as a teacher and a volunteer. But he couldn’t allow himself or Tyson to get too attached to her. The end of the school year would come before they knew it, and it was very likely she would be gone.

Besides, what reason would he possibly have to get attached to her besides wanting what was best for Tyson?

Soon, he found himself engaged in conversation with Ralph Meyer, a retired police officer, and Joe Rockaberry, who had owned the grocery store in town for years before selling it to his son-in-law. They both had an avid interest in keeping things shipshape at the church. It was clear that their white hair and aging bodies had no impact on the sharpness of their minds or the validity of their ideas.

As they chatted about what Paul could help with, a quietly optimistic voice in the back of his mind said, I can do this. This is all going to work out. He caught Charlotte’s eye then, and was warmed by the encouraging nod that she gave him. But again he reminded himself not to count on her encouragement too much. His entire life had taught him that he couldn’t really count on anyone. Ever.

“We should sit somewhere,” Joe suggested. “Put some kind of plan together.”

The remainder of the time went by rapidly, as the three men sat in one of the meeting rooms and decided what projects would take priority. Soon Paul found himself back at the classroom door, waiting for Tyson to come out. He tried not to, but he caught himself watching for a glimpse of Charlotte’s blue plaid shirt and the bounce of her ponytail.

Just then, Tyson came out of the room, chattering the instant he saw his uncle.

“We had so many stories, Uncle Paul! Did you know David slewed Goliath even though he was way smaller and did you know that Max is my new friend and that she’s a girl, not a boy, even though her name is Max, and I want to come back next week, okay, can we?”

When he finally stopped to take a breath, Paul smiled. “I’m glad you enjoyed yourself so much. Yes, we can come back.”

Tyson jumped around excitedly. “Hey, Max,” he said to the little girl who had come to stand beside him, “I get to come back next week.”

Max was tiny and blonde, wore pink overalls and had pink ribbons on her pigtails, so Paul was amused at how deep and froggy her voice was. “That’s great, Ty!”

Just then, he spotted Charlotte across the room. She was smiling at a woman and holding a wriggling child in her arms while the woman put her coat on.

Then he saw the library door open and a bedraggled woman emerged, looking like she’d just awoken from a nap. She held Michael’s hand but seemed detached from him.

He saw Michael look over at Tyson and frown. A shot of apprehension went through Paul, but Tyson was engrossed in making silly faces with Max and hadn’t noticed.

He reassured himself that the boy wasn’t in Tyson’s class. The evening at church had gone better than he’d expected, and he didn’t want anything to spoil it.

Charlotte’s peal of laughter bounced across the room. Paul looked over to see that she was giggling at the antics of a toddler. He noticed other eyes were on her, too. Michael’s mother’s frown mimicked her son’s.

Charlotte had said she didn’t know them. So why was the woman looking at Charlotte like she was angry at her about something?

Charlotte came over to Paul and Tyson and said, “I’m really glad you came tonight. I hope you had fun.”

“I sure did,” Tyson said.

“It was great,” Paul said. “I’m sure we’ll be back. Thanks for introducing me to Ralph and Joe. They’re great guys.”

“You’re welcome,” Charlotte said, her eyes shining with pleasure. “See you soon.”

Paul found himself thinking that was something he hoped would happen. He definitely wanted to see Charlotte again soon.

Chapter Four

On her way home from school on Thursday, Charlotte popped into the pharmacy to pick up one of her favorite women’s magazines to read with her evening tea, and also to ask Stephanie how the rest of the night had gone with the literacy volunteer group.

“I felt bad about leaving you guys,” she said. “But it was Paul and Tyson’s first time there, and I wanted to make sure that they felt welcome.”

Stephanie looked over the rim of her glasses at Charlotte. “I’m sure you did,” she teased.

“Oh, stop it,” Charlotte protested in a light tone. Because she was in her mid-twenties and not married, it went with the territory to be teased about every eligible man that came along. But still, she wished others would understand that she had no idea when she would seriously consider marriage. She was still trying to decide her life, let alone trying to incorporate a relationship into the equation, even with someone as undeniably attractive as Paul.

“All joking aside,” Stephanie said, “the group was great. We missed you, of course, but we got a lot done. You know, it’s not just reading that they need help with, it’s a whole bunch of practical things, like how to take public transportation, how to open up a bank account, that kind of thing.”

“I know.” Charlotte nodded. “We really have to make sure that we remember that many of them are starting a whole new life here and the things we take for granted are things that are totally new to them.” She added, “I noticed that boy Michael and his mother were there again, too. Has anyone had a chance to find out more about them?”

Stephanie shook her head. “I think a few people tried, but they don’t make themselves very approachable. I have the feeling that the church isn’t so much a place they want to be as a place they’re using to get away from something, if that makes any sense.”

Or from someone? Charlotte found herself wondering. But before they could explore the subject any further, an older gentleman stepped into the pharmacy and Stephanie excused herself to assist him.

Once she was home, Charlotte sliced up some vegetables into the salad she was making for supper. As she twisted open the cap on a bottle of salad dressing, she thought about the previous evening and the time she had spent with Paul Belvedere to welcome him to the church community. She prayed that it had been a good experience for him. She noticed that Tyson had been more outgoing in class today. Of course, Charlotte thought with amusement, he looked more than happy to let Max Hansen lead the way.

When Charlotte slid the silverware drawer open to get a fork, the drawer stuck as it always did. She frowned as she wiggled it gently to and fro. Finally the drawer opened, but instead of feeling satisfied, she sighed and mentally added it to the seemingly endless list of things in the house that needed fixing. Besides the sticky drawer, she needed more shelf space, the walls needed paint touch-ups, the leg on one of the kitchen chairs was wobbly and the light in the storage room remained out because she was intimidated by the light fixture cover.

She thought of Paul’s offer to come over and help, and as she pictured his large presence in her kitchen, it did funny things to her pulse again. She wondered how she would possibly muster the courage to go overseas if she was thwarted by a few repairs. She didn’t want to need Paul’s help, but maybe if he could give her a few pointers, she could handle the rest. She wanted to be a strong, independent woman who could take care of herself and who had something to give back to the world.

And, Lord, I want to stop feeling terrible about Anna every single day of my life.

Then she did what she always did when guilt and regret threatened to consume her: she brought herself back into the present by being practical. She grabbed a pen and paper and started to make a list of things she would need to do if she was truly going to consider the missionary work. At least that way she could feel one step closer to her goal.

When she began writing her list, her phone rang. When Charlotte saw her parents’ number come up, she briefly considered letting it go to voice mail, but then thought better of it.

“Hi, Mom,” she said.

“Actually, it’s Dad.”

“Dad? Is everything all right?” Charlotte asked. Her father rarely called her.

“Yes,” he continued. “I just needed to let you know that I’m worried about your mother. Her health doesn’t appear to be improving and the doctors aren’t able to give us any solid answers. I’m actually afraid she might be getting worse. But you know your mother—you can’t get her to take a break from anything.”

Charlotte was concerned about her mother, too, but the timing of the phone call discouraged her from believing she’d ever get a chance to do the missionary work. But maybe she wasn’t meant to go and her role was to be there for her parents, because what had happened to Anna was her fault. And now, to add to that, she found it hard to shake the uneasy feeling she got knowing that Paul had doubted her good intentions when he’d heard she was thinking of going away.

But she had told God she was sorry. She had told Him so many times she had lost count.

Dear Lord, can’t I please be allowed to have a fulfilling life of my own?

“Charlotte? Are you still there?” She could hear the strain in her father’s voice. He didn’t like talking on the phone, so she knew he must be very worried to have called her.

“I can talk to Mom,” she said. “Try to get her to slow down, and we’ll definitely keep on the doctors to look for what’s causing her severe headaches. But, like you said, you know how she is.”

“Thanks, honey. I appreciate you trying,” her father said. “We’ll see you tomorrow for supper.”

“Yes, see you tomorrow night.”

After they hung up, Charlotte started adding more items to her list. But unspoken questions buzzed around in her head and she put the pen down. She decided that she would go for a walk to try to clear her head instead.

And, Lord, she continued her prayer, am I ever going to feel Your forgiveness?

Because, despite what the Bible said, she didn’t feel forgiven for not protecting Anna, not in the slightest.

* * *

On Friday morning, Paul was in a good mood—mostly because Tyson was in such a fine one. It was remarkable how quickly his life had been become impacted by the little boy—this adorable legacy of his sister.

“Max knows everything,” Tyson said as he shoved cereal into his mouth. “She’s going to show me at recess how to tie knots like they tie them for ships.”

“A good skill for anyone to have,” Paul said. Speaking of skills, he wondered if Charlotte would take him up on his offer to help fix up her house. He had to admit he was curious to see what kind of home she had and how it reflected her personality.

“That’s what I thought, too,” Tyson agreed, with enthusiasm. “Uncle Paul, can you believe that Max and I were in the same class and we didn’t even notice each other and now we’re best friends?”

“That’s something for sure.”

“Maybe you and Ms. Connelly could be best friends or get married or something.” Tyson nodded as if something obvious had been decided and set his spoon down.

“We’ll stick with friends for now, okay, sport? Take your dishes to the sink and go brush your teeth. We’re leaving in five minutes.”

A picture of Charlotte’s laughing face came into his mind. That made him smile.

After Paul had dropped Tyson off at school, he was relieved to get to work and let the busyness of the day take over and not give him time to think about other things. Although he fervently hoped that Mrs. Meissner wouldn’t be one of his customers today.

Constantly hiding his illiteracy was exhausting. It had always made him acutely aware of what people did and didn’t pay attention to. No one ever questioned him, for example, in a restaurant if he just pretended to glance at a menu and said, “That sounds good. I’ll have the same.” These days no one even blinked if you hadn’t read a particular book or news article, since it was so quick and easy to keep up with current events by other means.

But all of that didn’t make him feel any better about it. He was tired of hiding, but every time he thought of doing something about it, he was frozen with fear.

Once again, he wondered how it would feel to share his secret with Charlotte.

Just before noon there was a lull at the garage, and Paul settled himself on a stool in the back to eat the ham and cheese sandwich he’d hastily made that morning.

When Harold came into the back to find him, he braced himself for the worst. But all Harold said was, “It was great to see you at church on Wednesday night. That’s the kind of thing that people here in town really appreciate.”

“Tyson and I enjoyed ourselves,” Paul replied.

“Carry on, then,” Harold said cheerfully. “I’m heading out for a bit. I shouldn’t be gone too long.”

A few minutes after he left, the door chimed again, and Paul went to the front to see who had come in. He was caught off guard at how glad he felt to see that it was Charlotte.

She was back in teacher mode, wearing a gray jacket, white blouse and gray pants, and she had her hair smoothed back into a tidy bun. He thought about how she’d looked on Wednesday night with her jeans, and her soft, loose hair and her ready laugh.

“It’s like there are two different versions of you.”

Had he really just said that out loud?

For a second, Charlotte gave him an odd look.

“I...ah—” he fumbled for the right thing to say. “I mean, your hairstyles...”

“Oh...” Charlotte’s hand reflexively went up to the bun, and she smiled uncertainly.

“You look great both ways,” Paul said. “I mean...”

She also smelled good, the light scent of her soap reaching him, and he cleared his throat, feeling awkward.

Then Charlotte laughed and broke the moment. “It’s okay,” she said. “I think I know what you mean. I have to dress more professionally for work but, between you and me, I’d live in my jeans if I could.”

Changing the subject, Paul asked, “So, what can I do for you?”

“I, ah... I want to take you up on your offer. I mean, could you come over sometime and look at the things that need doing around my place?”

“I’d be happy to,” Paul said, grinning. “How about Saturday morning after breakfast?”

Charlotte nodded, looking like she had accomplished something big just by asking. “That would be great,” she said. “I really appreciate it.”

“No problem. I’m glad you asked.” He surprised himself with how much he meant it.

It didn’t mean he was getting involved with her, he was quick to remind himself. She was helping him with Tyson, and he was helping her in return. A fair exchange.

“Did Ty have a good morning?” he asked, returning to a subject that was safe for both of them.

“Yes, he had a great morning. We talked about different kinds of pets this morning. What makes a good one and what doesn’t. I apologize in advance, because I think you might be hit with the ‘Can I have a dog?’ question any day now.”

He chuckled. “I appreciate the heads-up.”

The door chime signaled another arrival to the shop.

“Charlotte? I thought I saw you in here!” Charlotte’s cousin Bridget poked her head into the office. “I’m just on a break and was on my way to grab a sandwich at Seth’s.”

“Bridget is an assistant at the vet clinic,” Charlotte explained.

“Hi, Bridget,” Paul said, trying not to be too obvious in his disappointment that his conversation with Charlotte had been interrupted. “Good to see you again,” he added politely.

“Nice to see you, too,” Bridget answered. She linked her arm through Charlotte’s. “Walk over with me, Char?”

“In a moment,” Charlotte said. Paul noticed that she didn’t seem in a hurry for their conversation to end.

“By the way, have you talked to your parents about mission work?” Bridget asked. “Just think, Char, this time next year you could be halfway across the world!”

“Yes, imagine that,” Paul said coolly. “Well, I won’t keep you ladies any longer, then,” he added. “Enjoy the rest of your lunch break.”

“Will you still be coming over to help out?” Charlotte asked hesitantly.

“Yes, I promise I’ll be there,” Paul said.

He could only hope that she took her own promises as seriously.

Chapter Five

What exactly was the appropriate thing to wear when a handsome bachelor was coming over to teach her about home improvements?

Charlotte’s nervous hands moved her clothes back and forth in her closet. She knew it was just a poor attempt to ignore the real question: Did Paul Belvedere like her or not? One moment he acted like he did, and the next it seemed like he couldn’t wait for her to leave, like when Bridget had come into Harold’s during their conversation at lunch yesterday. She told herself that it wasn’t so much that she wanted him to like her; she just needed him to trust that she was a good teacher for Tyson and had their best interests at heart.

Frustrated, she yanked a purple shirt off a hanger and found an old pair of jeans on the top shelf of her closet. She dressed quickly, put on enough makeup to look presentable but not like she was trying too hard, and checked to see that the coffee was on.

She had just finished putting her hair into a braid when there was a knock at the door. She took a deep breath and opened it to see Paul standing on her doorstep, holding a large toolbox. His masculine good looks made her foolishly wish that she had taken more time with her appearance. She pushed the thought aside. This wasn’t about them making a romantic connection. This was about learning practical skills that would help her to feel more independent. That’s what she wanted, after all—independence, not forming ties that were bound to break.

“Am I too early?” Paul asked, and Charlotte realized that she’d let him just stand there on the doorstep.

“Not at all,” she said hurriedly. “Please come in. Where’s Tyson, by the way?”

“He’s over at Max’s.”

As he stepped into the entryway, she tried to see her house through his eyes. She knew she was a tidy but not immaculate housekeeper, and that the decor reflected her personality rather than the latest trends.

“Come into the kitchen,” Charlotte said. “That’s probably the best place to start.”

Paul set the toolbox on the kitchen table and looked around. “I like your place,” he said. “It’s very you.”

She was inordinately pleased, but then something in Paul’s eyes shut down again. “I don’t mean that I really know you,” he said. “Just that I noticed there’s some variety in how you’ve fixed up the place, like you have different ways that you dress and wear your hair.”

Feeling self-conscious, Charlotte tugged on her braid. “I knew what you meant,” she hurried to say. “I don’t like everything matchy-matchy,” she added, thinking of her mother’s house, where the curtains matched the sofa and the wallpaper.

Silence hovered between them.

Paul cleared his throat. “So...what do you want to show me first?” he asked.

“Maybe we could start by changing the light bulb in the storage room,” Charlotte suggested.

With Paul coaching and encouraging, she climbed up on the step ladder and managed to remove the cover off the light fixture. Paul was good at explaining things without making her feel like she had six extra arms, none of which had any coordination at all. “I did it!” she said, back on the ground and feeling pleased with herself.

“You sure did,” Paul praised her. “Next I’ll show you how to hammer a nail without hitting your thumb.”

They moved on to the next task, and after they’d successfully hung all of Charlotte’s pictures, Paul said, “I’ve got to take you shopping for your own tool kit. There are things that no house should be without.”

“Or you could just make me a list,” Charlotte suggested. “I’d hate to take up more of your time.”

“I don’t mind,” Paul said tersely. “But I should probably leave soon, to pick up Ty.”

“Can you stay just a little while longer?” Charlotte asked. “I made coffee. I’d like to show you some hospitality to thank you for helping me.”

“That’s very kind of you,” Paul said, as he sat down at the kitchen table and accepted a mug of coffee.

“I think I might have some leftover Saskatoon berry muffins from Seth’s, if you like,” Charlotte offered.

Paul shook his head. “I had a big breakfast.”

As he sipped his coffee, Charlotte noticed that his eyes had taken on their weary look again, and once more she felt that Paul had concerns above and beyond being Tyson’s guardian.

She couldn’t resist making another attempt to reach him, even if that meant risking another rejection. “Paul, is there anything else you’d like to talk about? I mean it, anything at all. You know, helping a student involves more than just dealing with the student. I care about what’s happening in the families, too, because that can impact the student.”

Paul’s large hand curved around the cup, and he stared down at the coffee inside.

“It’s good of you to care, Charlotte,” he said with an expression that she couldn’t read.

“I know moving here has been a big adjustment for you,” she continued, “You’re probably not used to kids, and you’re still grieving your sister...”

He raised his eyes and gave her a long, searching look. She almost held her breath, thinking for a moment that he was about to open up. But then his eyes dropped again and he said, “I appreciate your concern, I honestly do. But Ty and I...we’ll muddle along. I just want you to keep making sure he’s doing all right in school, okay?”

“Of course,” Charlotte nodded, trying not to feel disappointed that she hadn’t gotten further with him, but she couldn’t force him to say anything he didn’t want to. Besides, maybe it was only her imagination that there was anything else to discuss.

Still, something needled her...

“I’m glad I got that light bulb changed and hung those pictures,” she said, noticing how Paul relaxed once she’d changed the subject. “Thank you again.”

“You’re welcome,” Paul said. “We’ll find a time to pick out some basic tools that will be handy for you to have around and I can come over again, maybe next Saturday? You’d mentioned painting, too. I expect you’ll want to pick out colors, but let me know when you want to get that done, too.”

Charlotte laughed nervously. “I was thinking of hiring a professional for that.”

Paul shook his head. “You don’t want to spend that kind of money. Trust me, you can do it yourself for half the cost. Besides, you might even enjoy it.”

He smiled at her, a relaxed, open smile, and she had to stand up quickly to take their coffee cups to the sink before he saw the effect he had on her.

Then Paul stood up. “I really have to go. I’m sure I’ll see you soon.”

“Yes, we’re bound to run into each other,” she said, smiling at him.

Paul reached forward and gave her braid a gentle tug.

“I like this look on you,” he said. Charlotte blushed profusely as she walked him out.

After he left, Charlotte felt like a daydreaming schoolgirl. Then her phone rang and she grabbed it up, glad of the distraction.

“Hi, Bridge,” she answered.

“You sure had Anna on your mind at supper last night,” Bridget said, not wasting any time getting to the point. “But you know it’s upsetting for everyone when you talk about what happened.”

Daydreams of a handsome handyman bachelor quickly disappeared.

A million answers, none of them adequate, rushed through Charlotte’s mind. Finally she said, “I’m tired of never talking about her, and I think she deserves to be remembered.”

“I’m just concerned that you keep tormenting yourself with it, Char.”

Then the fight went out of Charlotte as suddenly as it had arrived and she felt as deflated as a damaged tire on the side of the road. She didn’t want to upset her family, even if it meant bottling up her own feelings. So she changed the subject to something she knew would interest her cousin.

“I decided you were right about Paul.”

“Oh? Why do you say that?”

“I asked him to come over and help me with some fix-it projects around the house. We got a lot done. So thank you for the suggestion.”

She didn’t tell Bridget about the questions that still troubled her. What good would that have done?

* * *

“Do we have a grocery list?” Tyson asked Paul later on that afternoon. “My mom’s grocery list was always on the fridge with a magnet that was a bumblebee.”

Paul tensed up a little. When Tyson mentioned his parents, he still never knew if it was going to be just a passing remark or a spiral downward into a session of grief and the impossible demand that his parents be returned to him.

But this time, Tyson just looked curious, and Paul breathed a sigh of relief. For the moment, he was free to think about the morning he’d spent helping Charlotte. She was a quick learner and was more adept at things than she gave herself credit for. He’d wanted to tell her so, but he was torn between being drawn to her and keeping up his walls. Especially since she was going to leave town soon. He tried to tell himself that he was only concerned for Tyson’s sake, but it was getting harder and harder to do that.

“Uncle Paul?” Tyson repeated. “Do we have a list?”

“It’s all up here,” Paul tapped the side of his head with one finger and pulled a funny face that made Tyson laugh. He relied on his memory, compensating for not being able to read.

“Saturday we call Grandpa Glen and Grandma Pat, right?” Tyson’s question steered his thoughts away from Charlotte.

“Yes, that’s right.” He believed it was good for Tyson to connect to whatever family he had left, even if he was never sure how much the phone calls meant to his parents.

They had retired to Victoria, British Columbia, and during their Saturday evening phone visits, they chatted enthusiastically about life in their senior living complex, which, as far as Paul could tell, provided plenty of friends, lots of activities and a variety of delicious meals. He knew that both of his parents had worked very hard to provide for their family throughout the years, so he tried not to begrudge them a well-earned early retirement. But it reminded him of the way they had always been such a self-contained unit—working long hours to provide for his and his sister’s physical needs but letting the details of their lives slip through the cracks. Details from the small, like Erica and her best friend having a brief fight, to large ones... Paul closed his eyes briefly.

That was then. This is now. I’m not that boy anymore.

He knew they must have grieved Erica’s loss greatly. But they’d handled the funeral and other details and carried on with their lives in such a pragmatic way it was almost impossible to tell exactly how they felt about losing their only daughter.

Paul vowed again that Tyson would never have to wonder how Paul felt about him.

At the grocery store, Paul was surprised when he spotted Charlotte in the hardware aisle. She held two packages of nails in her hands and frowned at both of them. Her frown made him want to grin from ear to ear. She was wearing blue jeans, a pair that looked newer than the ones she’d worn that morning, and a mint-green sweater. But she had her hair pulled back, teacher style—a hybrid of the two Charlottes.

He suddenly realized that she was trying to pick out nails on her own, even though he’d told her he was willing to help. He wondered what that meant.

Tyson caught sight of her, too, and called out, “Ms. Connelly!” as he careened toward her. “Hey it’s me, Tyson!”

“It is you!” Charlotte said to Tyson, matching his enthusiasm. She ruffled his already unruly hair. “It’s great to see you. I see you’re helping your uncle get the grocery shopping done.” She turned her gaze to Paul. “I guess we’re seeing each other again even sooner than we thought.”

He nodded, trying to decide if she was embarrassed or if he was only imagining it.

“Uncle Paul doesn’t use a list,” Tyson said, with an eye roll that made his feelings clear on the matter.

“His memory must be better than mine,” Charlotte said. “I’d be lost without one.”

Paul didn’t want any more conversation about memory or lists, so he changed the subject. “You look like you could use some help there,” he said, indicating the nails. “Though I thought I’d made it clear that I’d help you with that.” He looked pointedly at her.

“I know,” Charlotte said with an shy smile that tugged as his heart. “But I feel silly asking. I should be able to do these things on my own.”

“We all need help with one thing or another, don’t we?” Paul said. “Here, let’s have a look. No one is born knowing this stuff.”

As soon as he said it, an idea flashed into his head. “You know how you’re helping the newcomers with their reading and communication?” he said, his words tumbling out rapidly. “Well, there could be other skills they could learn that I could teach them, like basic car maintenance and easy home repairs. Things that everyone could make use of. You could come, too, though of course I’m still willing to help you on a personal level if you...”

He stopped talking. He probably sounded like a blathering idiot.

Charlotte laughed.

“I didn’t mean...” Paul said.

“No, I know what you mean. It’s okay.”

“Ms. Connelly, your cheeks are red,” Tyson said.

“Ah, yes... I think it’s a bit warm in here.” She smiled. “I think it sounds like a really good idea,” Charlotte said, trying to recover her composure. “Let’s talk more about it on Wednesday night.”

“Sounds good,” Paul said. “And, by the way, you might as well get both kinds of nails.”

“When in doubt, buy more than you need?” Charlotte asked in a teasing tone.

“Exactly,” he said. “See, you’re learning already.”

They parted ways, and Paul was glad that Tyson occupied himself by dashing ahead in the aisles and grabbing what was needed. At least it provided some respite from the constant chatter about his teacher.

“I like Ms. Connelly,” he said blissfully. “She shops for groceries like we do, right, Uncle Paul? Do you like her, Uncle Paul?”

“She’s a nice woman,” Paul answered carefully. “I’m glad you’re happy she’s your teacher.”

He wondered how involved he should really be getting with Charlotte or with the community in general. The problem with getting too close to people was that they could hurt you or find out things about you that you didn’t want them to know. He had not been part of a church community for years, and he hoped that people wouldn’t think that helping out meant he was interested in letting God in again. Still, for Tyson’s sake, he felt he had to give back to the community he was now living in. And maybe helping others would help him to feel less like an outsider.

But he’d do whatever it took to guard his heart against a certain violet-eyed teacher who was making her way closer him—and to the things he didn’t want anyone to know about.

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