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After they had returned to the sitting room a couple of young artists came in with John Coburg, Mason's room-mate on the Star. He was a smooth-faced fellow of extra-solemn visage, relieved by twinkling black eyes. The artists were keen, alert-looking fellows, with nothing to indicate their profession save their pointed beards. One of them being lately from Paris turned his moustaches up devilishly; the other had fallen away from his idols sufficiently to wear his moustaches turned down and an extra width to his beard.
Rose was glad Mr. Davidson twisted his mustache; there was so little else about him to indicate his high calling.
Their coming turned the current of talk upon matters of art, which made Rose feel perfectly certain she was getting at the heart of Chicago artistic life.
Mr. Davidson inveighed against America, and Chicago especially, for its "lack of art atmosphere."
"If you've got the creative power you can make your own art atmosphere," his companion hotly said. "You always start up on that thing." Evidently it was a source of violent argument between them.
"The trouble is you fellows who paint, want to make a living too easy," Mason remarked.
"You ought to stay and do pioneer work among us," said Isabel.
"I don't consider it worth while so far as I am concerned. I prefer Paris."
"You're not very patriotic."
"There is no patriotism in art."
"That's the regular Parisian jabber," returned his friend. "I talked all that myself. What you need is a touch of poverty. I'd like to see your people drop you in a small town where you had to make your living for a little while."
"All the hard conditions of Chicago are changing," Isabel interposed, with peaceful intent. "All that was true a few years ago is not true now. The materialism you war against, no longer dominates us. We are giving a little time to art and literature."
Davidson twisted his mustache point. "It isn't noticeable yet – O, there's a little band of fellows starving here like rats in a garret – but what general recognition of art have you?"
"What could you expect?"
"Well, you might buy pictures."
"We do – old masters and salon pictures," said Mills, with a relenting acknowledgment of the city's weakness.
"That's it exactly!" said Davidson. "You've no judgment here. You are obliged to take your judgment from somebody else."
So the talk proceeded. To Rose it was illuminating and epoch-making. She read in it the city's developing thought. Paris and the Rocky Mountains met here with Chicago and the most modern types of men and women.
Meanwhile Mason found opportunity to say to Thatcher, who seemed a little ill at ease:
"These little informal Sunday suppers and free-for-alls are increasing in number, and they are signs of civilization. Of course a few of the women still go to church in the morning, but that will wear off, except at new-bonnet time."
Thatcher did not reply; he thought Mason a little flippant.
Rose sought opportunity to talk about Mrs. Thatcher and Josephine.
"They're quite well."
"I wish I could see them both."
"We should be glad to welcome you back to Madison any time. But I hardly expect to see you, except on a vacation, possibly. You're a city dweller already. I can see that." He seemed sadder than she had ever known him, and his look troubled her a little.
At ten o'clock she rose to go, and young Harvey sprang up:
"Are you going? If you are I hope you'll give me the pleasure – my carriage – "
"Thank you very much," she answered quickly. "I've a friend coming for me." Thatcher rose as if to go with her, but sat down again with a level line of resolution on his lips.
Mason and Harvey both wondered a little about that friend. Mason took a certain delight in young Harvey's defeat, and analyzed his pulse to find out why he was delighted. "We should mob that friend," he said to Sanborn. "He is an impertinence, at this time."
Rose felt Isabel's arm around her as she entered the cloakroom.
"Isn't he fine?"
"Who?"
"Mr. Harvey."
"O – yes – so are the artists." Rose began to wonder if Isabel were not a matchmaker as well as a promoter of genius.
Isabel had a suspicion of Rose's thought and she laughingly said:
"Don't think I'm so terrible! I do like to bring the right people together. I see so many people wrongly mated, but I don't mean – I only want you to know nice people. You're to do your own choosing," she said with sudden gravity. "No one can choose for you. There are some things I want to talk about when I can venture it."
Mason and Sanborn were the last to go and when Isabel returned from the door, where she had speeded the last guest, she dropped into a chair and sighed.
"It's splendid good fun, but it does tire me so! Talk to me now while I rest."
"Sanborn, talk!" Mason commanded.
Sanborn drew a chair near Isabel and put his arm about her. She leaned her head on his shoulder.
Mason rose in mock confusion.
"I beg your pardon! I should have gone before."
Isabel smiled. "Don't go; we're not disturbed."
"I was considering myself."
"O, you were!"
"Such things shock me, but if I may smoke I may be able – "
"Of course. Smoke and tell me what you think of Rose. Isn't it strange how that girl gets on? She's one of the women born to win her way without effort. It isn't true to say it is physical; that's only part of it – it's temperament."
Mason got his cigar well alight before he said:
"She has the prime virtue – imagination."
"Is that a woman's prime virtue?"
"To me it is. Of course there are other domestic and conjugal virtues which are commonly ranked higher, but they are really subordinate. Sappho and Helen and Mary of the Scots were not beautiful nor virtuous, as such terms go; they had imagination, and imagination gave them variety, and variety means endless charm. It is decidedly impossible to keep up your interest in a woman who is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow – whose orbit can be predicted, whose radiance is without the shadow of turning."
"Should he be stopped?" Isabel asked of Sanborn.
"I shouldn't like the job," Sanborn replied. "When he strikes that line of soliloquy he's out of my control."
Rose found Owen waiting in the hall, and she accepted his escort with the frankness of a sister.
"Have you waited long?"
"No, I was just going to ring the bell when I heard your voice."
They walked on in silence. At last he asked:
"Did you have a good time?"
"Splendid!" she answered.
"We missed you," he said.
Rose felt something tender in his voice and remained silent.
"I heard from my partners today." He went on after a little: "They're feeling mighty good. Struck another vein that promises better than the one we have. I ought to go out, but I – " He paused abruptly. "Did you ever see the Rockies in late fall? O, they're mighty, mighty as the sky! I wish you'd – I wish we could make up a party some time and go out. I'd take a car – "
She faced the situation.
"I'll tell you what would be nice: When you and Mary take your wedding trip I'll go along to take care of you both."
Owen fairly staggered under the import of that speech, and could find nothing to say for some time.
"Did you have a good time tonight?" he asked again.
"Splendid! I always do when I go to Isabel's." Thereafter they walked in silence.
Rose fell to thinking of young Harvey in the days which followed. There was allurement in his presence quite different from that of any other. She could not remember anything he had said, only he had made her laugh and his eyes were frank and boyish. She felt his grace and the charm that comes from security of position and freedom from care.
He brought up to her mind by force of contrast, her father, with his eyes dimmed with harsh winds and dust and glowing sun. He was now spending long, dull days wandering about the house and barn, going to bed early in order to rise with the sun, to begin the same grind of duties the day following. Young Harvey's life was the opposite from this.
He admired her, she felt that as distinctly as if he had spoken to her. He wanted to be near her. He had asked her to help him with the chafing-dish that night, and to pour the beer while he stirred the gluey mass of cheese. All the little things by which a young man expresses his admiration he had used almost artlessly, certainly boyishly.
There was nothing there but a vista of pleasures, certain relief from toil and worry. What a marvelous thing to be suddenly relieved from all fear of hunger and every harassing thought about the future! And it was not a question of an old man of wealth, or a man of repulsive appearance; it was a question of taking a bright, handsome, clean-souled man, together with his money. She felt the power to put out her hand and claim him as her own.
She liked him, too; he amused her and interested her. She admired his splendid flesh and his clear, laughing eyes. It seemed the easiest thing in the world – to an outsider. She felt that Isabel was working hard to have her see young Harvey at his best, and she felt, too, that Mrs. Harvey was taking unusual interest in her, and in her secret heart she knew she could marry into that fine family, but —
Liking was not love. She did not shiver when he clasped her hand, as she did when Mason greeted her. She feared Mason. When he came by, her judgment blurred and her eyes fell. She couldn't tell what his traits were, and she didn't know whether he was a good man or not. She hungered to see him, to hear his voice; beyond that she hardly dared consciously go.
His attitude toward her she could not understand. Sometimes he seemed anxious to please her, sometimes he seemed equally determined that she should understand how inconsequential she was in his life – and always he dominated her.
She did not once think it might be indecision in his mind, after the usual stupidity of love's victims. She thought his changes of manner due in some way to her. She had acted foolishly, or she was looking so badly he was ashamed of her.
In this condition of mind, it may be imagined, she did not do much studying or writing. She went to the library regularly, but she could not concentrate her thoughts upon her book. She grew surly and changeable with Mary, who no longer dared to talk unguardedly with her.
Mary's eyes were not glass marbles; she could see things with them, and she said gleefully to Owen one night:
"She's in love, that's what is the matter with her. I don't mind it. She'll be all right after a while. She's short as pie-crust with me, but I know how it is myself. She's in love with some high-flyer she's met at Dr. Herrick's house."
Then she wondered why Owen made no reply.
CHAPTER XXI
MASON TALKS AGAIN
Not seeing Mason for some days, Sanborn took a walk one night, and turned up about nine o'clock at his rooms. He found him sitting before his open grate fire, smoking meditatively.
"Hello, Sanborn! Glad you came over." He did not rise, but Sanborn was untroubled by that.
"Got another chapter turned off?"
"Possibly. Fill up and draw up."
Sanborn obediently filled a pipe and drew up a chair.
"You look tired."
"I am. I have written a column editorial on the labor question, one on the Chinese treaty, a special article on irrigation for the Sunday issue, not counting odd paragraphs on silver, anarchy, and other little chores of my daily grind."
"That's not as bad as poulticing people."
"Bad! There's nothing any worse, and my novelistic friends are always saying, 'Why don't you turn in and finish up your novel?' What can an intellectual prostitute do?"
"Get out of the business, one would suppose."
"Well, now, that brings me to the point. In the midst of all my other worriments, I am debating whether to marry a rich girl and escape work, or a poor girl and work harder, or to give the whole matter of marriage up forever."
"These are actual cases, not hypothetical, this time?"
Mason turned a slow eye upon him.
"I have no need to fly to hypothetical cases," he said, dryly. "In the first place, my hero – if you incline tonight to that theory of the case – my hero is equally interested in two young women. This is contrary to the story books, but then only an occasional novelist tells the truth. I'm to be that one."
He seemed to be going off upon some other line of thought, and Sanborn hauled him back by asking a pertinent question:
"You mean to say both of these young ladies have that glamour?"
"O, not at all! They did have, but it has faded in both cases, as in all previous cases, yet more seems to have remained, or else I am getting a little less exacting. In the case of the sculptress – she's the poor girl, of course – she's a genius. The first time I saw her she read a paper on 'The Modern in Sculpture' (it was good, too). She was dressed beautifully, in cheese-cloth, for all I know – I only know she put to shame her sculptured copies of Hope and Ariadne. The glamour was around her like rose-colored flame. It was about her still when I stepped up to her. She was tall, and strong as a young lioness. Her clean, sweet eyes were level with mine, and she made me ashamed of every mean thing I had uttered in my whole life."
"Well, well!" exclaimed Sanborn.
"She was flattered and exalted to think 'the editor' was pleased with her essay, and the rest was easy. I went to call on her a day or two later – "
"And the glamour – the glamour?"
Mason shook his head. "Faint! She was in her study, and the hard, cold light was merciless. She was handsome, even then, but her face had a pinched look, and there was a heavy droop to her lips. The color so beautiful that night when flushed with excitement had faded from her cheeks, and gathered in some unfortunate way about her eyes and nose. She was a fine woman, but – the glamour was gone."
"What an eye for symptoms! you should have been a physician," Sanborn put in.
"At the same time she grew upon me. She's an artist. She has the creative hand – no doubt of that. She has dreams, beautiful dreams of art. She glows, and dilates, and sings with the joy of it. She could bring into my life something of the dreams I myself had as a youth. She's going to make a name for herself, without question."
"Why, that's glorious, Warren, old man; she's just the wife for you! And she really inclines toward you?"
"She does." Then his self-crucifying humor came in. "That's really her most questionable virtue. However, if Love can laugh at locksmiths, I suppose he can laugh at a bald head. But this is only one phase of the matter. Like all spectators, you are informed of only one side of the banner. Let's look at the other.
"I manage to live here and support this fire, which is my only extravagance. I keep the establishment going, and a little more. I'll anticipate the usual arguments. Suppose, for a little while, it would not increase expenses. It would not do to bring a woman here, it would not be right. When children came – and I should hope for children – they should have a home in the suburbs; I don't believe in raising children in a flat. That would mean an establishment which would take every cent I could hook on to, and it would mean that the whole glittering fabric would be built upon my own personal palm."
"But she might earn something – you say she's a genius."
"She is, that's the reason she'll never make money. Holding the view I do, I could not require her to toil. I do not believe marriage confers any authority on the husband – you understand my position there?"
"Perfectly – and agree with it, to a limited extent, of course."
"Going back, therefore – I do not believe I can assume the risk involved. I'm not capable of twenty years' work at my present rate. I'd break down, some fine day, and then my little home, upheld upon my Atlas palm, would tumble. No, I can't take the risk. I'm getting too foxy; I haven't the bounce I once had. Besides, her career is to be considered. I don't believe I can afford to let her marry me."
"That's mighty kind of you," Sanborn dryly remarked.
"Thank you. I think it is an error of judgment on her part. She is younger, and as her adviser I think I must interfere and save her from the power of a vivid imagination and abounding vitality. You see, there are a great many considerations involved."
"Real love, I must repeat, would not consider."
"I wish you wouldn't repeat it, it does you an injustice. The animal passion of youth would not consider. With youth, it is marry – marry, even if within the year you are picked up by the patrol wagon, a vagrant in the streets. The love of my time is not so heedless nor so selfish; it extends to the question of the other party to the transaction."
"I suppose that should be so, but as a physician I doubt it. My observations do not run that way. Age grows like a child again, thoroughly selfish."
"Then there is the question of the 'possible woman,'" Mason resumed, and his tone was cynically humorous again. "I can't give her up. There she stands in a radiant mist always just before me like the rainbow of our childhood. I can't promise any woman to love her till death. I don't know as it would be safe to promise it even to the woman with glamour. Another might come with a subtler glory, and a better fitting glamour, and then – "
"What then?"
"It would all be up with the first woman," he said with a gravity of tone of which the words gave no hint.
"I'm afraid some one has already come to make pale the beauty of the sculptress. What about the other, the rich girl you set over against the sculptress at the beginning? Mind you, I believe the whole situation is fictitious, but I'll humor you in it."
"Well, Aurelia – we'll call her Aurelia – brings up a far-reaching train of reflections, and, if you've got a patient waiting, you'd better come again."
"I'm the only patient waiting."
Mason ignored the lame old pun and proceeded:
"Aurelia lives in Springfield. You know the kind of home the wealthy politician builds in a western town – combination of jail and court-house. I attended a reception there last winter and saw Aurelia for the first time. She was as beautiful as an acrobat – "
"I don't want to interrupt, Mason, but I notice all your heroines are beautiful."
"They must be; my taste will not permit me to tolerate unsymmetrical heroines. I started in as an architect and I've done a little paddling in clay, and my heroines must be harmonious of structure – glamour comes only with beauty, to me."
"Largely physical, then."
"Certainly! I believe in the physical, the healthy, wholesome physical. In the splendor of the tiger's wooing is no disease."
"Well, well, she was beautiful as an acrobat – "
Mason looked sour. "One more interruption, and the rest of my heart-tragedy will remain forever alien to your ear."
Sanborn seemed alarmed:
"My lips are glued to my pipe."
Mason mused – ("Composed!" Sanborn thought.)
"She looked as if she had been moulded into her gown. The Parisian robe and the hair piled high, were fast – undeniably theatric, but her little face was sweet and girlish, almost childish. Well, she had glamour, largely physical as you say. But like the heroes of E. P. Roe's novels, I aspired to awaken her soul. She was pleased with me apparently. I called soon after the reception – I always follow up each case of glamour. I knew she was rich but I did not realize she commanded such an establishment.
"It was enormous. Her mother was a faded little hen of a woman, who had been a very humble person in youth, and who continued a very humble person in middle-life. The court-house in which she was forced to live continually over-awed her, but the girl used it, entertained in it as if she had a string of palace-dwelling ancestors straggling clear back to Charlemagne."
"That's the American idea, the power of adaptation. Our women have it better developed than – "
"She was a gracious and charming hostess, and I admit the sight of her in command of such an establishment was impressive. I thought how easily a tired editor could be absorbed into that institution and be at rest – a kind of life hospital, so to say. She was interested in me – that was certain."
"Now, Mason, I must protest. You know how high Isabel and I both hold you, but we never quite considered you in the light of a ladies' man. Your Springfield girl must have had dozens of brilliant and handsome young men about her."
Mason smoked in silence, waiting till Sanborn's buzz ceased.
"Well, she came to the city last month, and I've been to see her a number of times; the last time I saw her she proposed to me."
Sanborn stared, with fallen jaw gaping, while Mason continued in easy flow.
"And I have the matter under consideration. I saw the coming storm in her eyes. Last night as we sat together at the piano she turned suddenly and faced me, very tense and very white.
"'Mr. Mason, why can't you – I mean – what do you think of me?'
"I couldn't tell her that night what I thought of her, for she had seemed more minutely commonplace than ever. She had trotted round her little well-worn circle of graces and accomplishments, even to playing her favorite selection on the piano. I equivocated. I professed it was not very easy to say what I thought of her, and added:
"'I think you're a fine, wholesome girl,' as she is, of course.
"'But you don't think I'm beautiful?' That was a woman's question, wasn't it. 'Yes,' I said in reply, 'I think you are very attractive. Nature has been lavish with you.'
"Then she flamed red and stammered a little:
"'Then why don't you like me?'
"'I do,' I said.
"'You know what I mean,' she hurried on to say – 'I want you to like me better than any other woman.'
"'That's impossible,' I replied. It was pitiful to see her sitting there like a beggar in the midst of all her splendor. 'I like you very much. I think you're very sweet and kind and girlish.'
"She seemed to react from her boldness. Her eyes filled with tears. 'I know you think I'm terrible to say these things.'
"'No. I feel that I do not deserve such trust on your part.' Then she defended me. 'Yes, you do. I couldn't have spoken to any one else so. You're so kind and gentle.'"
"Did she say that of you?"
"She said that."
"I wish I could reach that phase of your character," sighed Sanborn. "What did you say in reply?"
Mason apparently showed deep feeling at last.
"I told her that I was like the average man. I was taking credit to myself for not devouring her like a wolf! She didn't listen to that. 'What can I do to make you like me?' she asked. She leaned toward me, her chin in her palm, thinking and suffering as her sweet little soul had never suffered before. 'I'm too simple,' she said, with a flash of startling insight. 'I don't know enough. I feel that. Can't I study and change that?'
"'You're changing that now,' I replied.
"She grew radiant for a moment."
"'O you do like me a little!'"
As he went on, Mason's tone grew sweet and solemn. It had singular power of suggestion. It developed more of his nature than he knew; his real gravity, and tenderness and purity.
"There you have it," he ended. He struck the ashes out of his pipe and rose.
"I could marry her, but it wouldn't make her happy. It would make her suffer. It is not a light thing to decide. It is a very grave thing. As in the case of the sculptress I thought it an error of judgment on her part, and on my own it would be criminal."
"That's a fine bit of fiction," said Sanborn. "You're too rough on yourself, for you could do the girl a deal of good by marrying her."
"Possibly. In the case of the sculptress the problem is different. She is moving past me like a queen – splendid, supple, a smile of conscious power on her lips, the light of success in her eyes. It's a terrible temptation, I admit, this power to stretch out my hand and stay her. It makes my blood leap, but my sense of justice will not allow of it. I shall let her pass on, beautiful and rapt."
"To marry some confounded pin-head, who will make her a domestic animal, and degrade her into 'my wife, gents'?"
"Possibly. However, my responsibility ends where I say good-bye."
"Don't shirk – don't shirk."
Mason turned on him. His voice lost a little of its coldness.
"Is a man to have no credit for letting such a glorious creature pass him, unharmed and free?"
"Why yes, certainly. But the world of art will not satisfy that girl. She's sure to marry – she must marry – and she is entitled to more consideration. You've got to look ahead to the time when she regrets the lack of husband and children."
"Ah, but it's a frightful thing, Sanborn, to arrest that girl, to make her a wife and mother, to watch her grow distorted, stiffened, heavy with child-bearing. I prefer to see her pass me, in order that I may remember her, lithe, radiant, moving like music and light."
"That's fine, Mason, I honor you for that spirit," said Sanborn, deeply moved. "But you must remember I am about to be married to a beautiful woman myself, a woman who knows both sexes, knows their vices and passions. She tells me, and it fits in with what I know myself, that the woman's nature moves on from this beautiful state you've described so well, into the pain and responsibility of marriage not merely willingly, but eagerly. Half the girl's joy, which we men see in her face, is the smile of anticipated motherhood – it must be so. Isabel, as you know, is no sentimentalist; she's a woman you can talk these things to, freely. I can't state it as she did, but the substance of it was this: if the girl knew she was to be always young and childish, her youth and beauty would be of no value to her – that it is the untried pain and pleasures of other years and conditions which make the beauty so radiant now."
"All of which merely means she makes the best of an irresistible and tragic impulse, a force which she does not originate and cannot control. Therefore I say it is a sorrowful business to hew down a temple or tear a lily in pieces."
The two men were silent again. They had reached fundamentals in their talk. Sanborn considered the whole matter an allegory, which Mason was using to veil his design to win Rose if possible. He knew the ease of Mason's invention, as well as his power to present a case dramatically, and while he was moved by the expression of his friend's noble thought, he could not think that there was any exact truth contained in the story.
Mason resumed a moment later:
"There are certain other material, minor and prosaic considerations which must be kept in mind. Suppose I announce my engagement to Miss Aurelia; the newspapers would have a pleasant paragraph or two. Some people would say 'what a very appropriate match.' Others would say very knowingly, 'Well, Mason has feathered his nest.' The newspaper boys who really wish me well would say, 'Good for Mason; now he can take time to finish that great American novel he's had on hand so long!' A few shrewd fellows would say, 'Well, that ends Mason! He's naturally lazy, and with a wife and home like that he'll never do another stroke of work. Mason's like Coleridge in one thing: he dreams great things, but never writes them. He's out of the race!'"
"There's something in that," Sanborn admitted.
"I know there is," Mason replied without offense. "Now we'll suppose I scrape a little money together for immediate use. The old railway Baron is kind. He tolerates me for the daughter's sake. I come in contact with the relatives; already I have had a touch of them! A girl like that is not like a pebble on the sea-shore; she's a thread in a web of cloth, a silken thread in a breadth of shoddy, maybe. You can't marry her and have her to yourself. You come into new relations with her people as her fiancé. They cannot be escaped. They swarm around you. They question your motives and they comment on your person: 'He's getting bent and bald;' 'He's lazy;' 'What did she ever see in him?' They vulgarize everything they touch. They are as tiresome as the squeal of a pump, but there you are, you must meet them. The old gentleman is a man who deals in millions, reliable and conscientious. He talks to you about his business, till you say, 'business be damned.' He thereafter meets you in heavy silence. The mother is a timid soul, with an exaggerated idea of your importance as an editor. The aunts and uncles variously sniff and tremble before you."
"Meanwhile your wife has talked all she knows, and all she says thereafter has a familiar sound. She delights in stories with many repetitions in them. Her little brain travels from the pantry to the table, from the tea table to the children's bath tub; its widest circuit is the millinery store and the bargain counter. She gets fat, that's another distressing phase of my trouble, let me say. I seem to be gifted with a prophetic eye in the midst of my transports – "
"Think of you in a transport!"
"I am able to see just how each one will change, how this pretty plumpness will get fat, how this delicate slimness will get bony. I see how this beautiful alert face will get beakish. In other words I am troubled about the future, when I should be involved only in the ecstasy of the present. In this latest case I see excessive plumpness and chatter in ten years. I see myself bored to death with her within ten months. She is at her best now; in striving to win me she is like a female bird, her plumage is at its best; she will grow dowdy when the incentive is gone.
"There are other considerations. Aurelia, too, has exaggerated notions of my power to earn money. She may expect me to maintain an expensive establishment. I can't ask anything of the political pirate, her father; I can only put my income into the treasury. If my power to earn money decreases, as it may, then I become an object of contempt on the part of the old savage, who considers money the measure of ability. Suppose at last I come to the point of borrowing money, of going to the old man humbly, twisting my hat in my hand: 'My dear sir, Aurelia and the children' – Pah!"
He uttered a sound of disgust and anger and fell silent.
Sanborn mused, "I wonder if the lovers of any other age had any such scruples about marriage. I guess you're right about Aurelia, but I don't believe you are about the sculptress. I think she would make you happy."
