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‘It winna do to meddle wi’ fowk’s free wull. To gar fowk be gude wad be nae gudeness.’
‘But gin God could actually create the free wull, dinna ye think he cud help it to gang richt, withoot ony garrin’? We ken sae little aboot it, grannie! Hoo does his speerit help onybody? Does he gar them ‘at accep’s the offer o’ salvation?’
‘Na, I canna think that. But he shaws them the trowth in sic a way that they jist canna bide themsel’s, but maun turn to him for verra peace an’ rist.’
‘Weel, that’s something as I think. An’ until I’m sure that a man has had the trowth shawn till him in sic a way ‘s that, I canna alloo mysel’ to think that hooever he may hae sinned, he has finally rejeckit the trowth. Gin I kent that a man had seen the trowth as I hae seen ‘t whiles, and had deleeberately turned his back upo’ ‘t and said, “I’ll nane o’ ‘t,” than I doobt I wad be maist compelled to alloo that there was nae mair salvation for him, but a certain and fearfu’ luikin’ for o’ judgment and fiery indignation. But I dinna believe that ever man did sae. But even than, I dinna ken.’
‘I did a’ for him that I kent hoo to do,’ said Mrs. Falconer, reflectingly. ‘Nicht an’ mornin’ an’ aften midday prayin’ for an’ wi’ him.’
‘Maybe ye scunnert him at it, grannie.’
She gave a stifled cry of despair.
‘Dinna say that, laddie, or ye’ll drive me oot o’ my min’. God forgie me, gin that be true. I deserve hell mair nor my Anerew.’
‘But, ye see, grannie, supposin’ it war sae, that wadna be laid to your accoont, seein’ ye did the best ye kent. Nor wad it be forgotten to him. It wad mak a hantle difference to his sin; it wad be a great excuse for him. An’ jist think, gin it be fair for ae human being to influence anither a’ ‘at they can, and that’s nae interferin’ wi’ their free wull—it’s impossible to measure what God cud do wi’ his speerit winnin’ at them frae a’ sides, and able to put sic thouchts an’ sic pictures into them as we canna think. It wad a’ be true that he tellt them, and the trowth can never be a meddlin’ wi’ the free wull.’
Mrs. Falconer made no reply, but evidently went on thinking.
She was, though not a great reader, yet a good reader. Any book that was devout and thoughtful she read gladly. Through some one or other of this sort she must have been instructed concerning free will, for I do not think such notions could have formed any portion of the religious teaching she had heard. Men in that part of Scotland then believed that the free will of man was only exercised in rejecting—never in accepting the truth; and that men were saved by the gift of the Spirit, given to some and not to others, according to the free will of God, in the exercise of which no reason appreciable by men, or having anything to do with their notions of love or justice, had any share. In the recognition of will and choice in the acceptance of the mercy of God, Mrs. Falconer was then in advance of her time. And it is no wonder if her notions did not all hang logically together.
‘At ony rate, grannie,’ resumed her grandson, ‘I haena dune a’ for him ‘at I can yet; and I’m no gaein’ to believe onything that wad mak me remiss in my endeavour. Houp for mysel’, for my father, for a’body, is what’s savin’ me, an’ garrin’ me work. An’ gin ye tell me that I’m no workin’ wi’ God, that God’s no the best an’ the greatest worker aboon a’, ye tak the verra hert oot o’ my breist, and I dinna believe in God nae mair, an’ my han’s drap doon by my sides, an’ my legs winna gang. No,’ said Robert, rising, ‘God ‘ill gie me my father sometime, grannie; for what man can do wantin’ a father? Human bein’ canna win at the hert o’ things, canna ken a’ the oots an’ ins, a’ the sides o’ love, excep’ he has a father amo’ the lave to love; an’ I hae had nane, grannie. An’ that God kens.’
She made him no answer. She dared not say that he expected too much from God. Is it likely that Jesus will say so of any man or woman when he looks for faith in the earth?
Robert went out to see some of his old friends, and when he returned it was time for supper and worship. These were the same as of old: a plate of porridge, and a wooden bowl of milk for the former; a chapter and a hymn, both read, and a prayer from grannie, and then from Robert for the latter. And so they went to bed.
But Robert could not sleep. He rose and dressed himself, went up to the empty garret, looked at the stars through the skylight, knelt and prayed for his father and for all men to the Father of all, then softly descended the stairs, and went out into the street.
CHAPTER VI. SHARGAR’S MOTHER
It was a warm still night in July—moonless but not dark. There is no night there in the summer—only a long ethereal twilight. He walked through the sleeping town so full of memories, all quiet in his mind now—quiet as the air that ever broods over the house where a friend has dwelt. He left the town behind, and walked—through the odours of grass and of clover and of the yellow flowers on the old earthwalls that divided the fields—sweet scents to which the darkness is friendly, and which, mingling with the smell of the earth itself, reach the founts of memory sooner than even words or tones—down to the brink of the river that flowed scarcely murmuring through the night, itself dark and brown as the night from its far-off birthplace in the peaty hills. He crossed the footbridge and turned into the bleachfield. Its houses were desolate, for that trade too had died away. The machinery stood rotting and rusting. The wheel gave no answering motion to the flow of the water that glided away beneath it. The thundering beatles were still. The huge legs of the wauk-mill took no more seven-leagued strides nowhither. The rubbing-boards with their thickly-fluted surfaces no longer frothed the soap from every side, tormenting the web of linen into a brightness to gladden the heart of the housewife whose hands had spun the yarn. The terrible boiler that used to send up from its depths bubbling and boiling spouts and peaks and ridges, lay empty and cold. The little house behind, where its awful furnace used to glow, and which the pungent chlorine used to fill with its fumes, stood open to the wind and the rain: he could see the slow river through its unglazed window beyond. The water still went slipping and sliding through the deserted places, a power whose use had departed. The canal, the delight of his childhood, was nearly choked with weeds; it went flowing over long grasses that drooped into it from its edges, giving a faint gurgle once and again in its flow, as if it feared to speak in the presence of the stars, and escaped silently into the river far below. The grass was no longer mown like a lawn, but was long and deep and thick. He climbed to the place where he had once lain and listened to the sounds of the belt of fir-trees behind him, hearing the voice of Nature that whispered God in his ears, and there he threw himself down once more. All the old things, the old ways, the old glories of childhood—were they gone? No. Over them all, in them all, was God still. There is no past with him. An eternal present, He filled his soul and all that his soul had ever filled. His history was taken up into God: it had not vanished: his life was hid with Christ in God. To the God of the human heart nothing that has ever been a joy, a grief, a passing interest, can ever cease to be what it has been; there is no fading at the breath of time, no passing away of fashion, no dimming of old memories in the heart of him whose being creates time. Falconer’s heart rose up to him as to his own deeper life, his indwelling deepest spirit—above and beyond him as the heavens are above and beyond the earth, and yet nearer and homelier than his own most familiar thought. ‘As the light fills the earth,’ thought he, ‘so God fills what we call life. My sorrows, O God, my hopes, my joys, the upliftings of my life are with thee, my root, my life. Thy comfortings, my perfect God, are strength indeed!’
He rose and looked around him. While he lay, the waning, fading moon had risen, weak and bleared and dull. She brightened and brightened until at last she lighted up the night with a wan, forgetful gleam. ‘So should I feel,’ he thought, ‘about the past on which I am now gazing, were it not that I believe in the God who forgets nothing. That which has been, is.’ His eye fell on something bright in the field beyond. He would see what it was, and crossed the earthen dyke. It shone like a little moon in the grass. By humouring the reflection he reached it. It was only a cutting of white iron, left by some tinker. He walked on over the field, thinking of Shargar’s mother. If he could but find her! He walked on and on. He had no inclination to go home. The solitariness of the night, the uncanniness of the moon, prevents most people from wandering far: Robert had learned long ago to love the night, and to feel at home with every aspect of God’s world. How this peace contrasted with the nights in London streets! this grass with the dark flow of the Thames! these hills and those clouds half melted into moonlight with the lanes blazing with gas! He thought of the child who, taken from London for the first time, sent home the message: ‘Tell mother that it’s dark in the country at night.’ Then his thoughts turned again to Shargar’s mother! Was it not possible, being a wanderer far and wide, that she might be now in Rothieden? Such people have a love for their old haunts, stronger than that of orderly members of society for their old homes. He turned back, and did not know where he was. But the lines of the hill-tops directed him. He hastened to the town, and went straight through the sleeping streets to the back wynd where he had found Shargar sitting on the doorstep. Could he believe his eyes? A feeble light was burning in the shed. Some other poverty-stricken bird of the night, however, might be there, and not she who could perhaps guide him to the goal of his earthly life. He drew near, and peeped in at the broken window. A heap of something lay in a corner, watched only by a long-snuffed candle.
The heap moved, and a voice called out querulously,
‘Is that you, Shargar, ye shochlin deevil?’
Falconer’s heart leaped. He hesitated no longer, but lifted the latch and entered. He took up the candle, snuffed it as he best could, and approached the woman. When the light fell on her face she sat up, staring wildly with eyes that shunned and sought it.
‘Wha are ye that winna lat me dee in peace and quaietness?’
‘I’m Robert Falconer.’
‘Come to speir efter yer ne’er-do-weel o’ a father, I reckon,’ she said.
‘Yes,’ he answered.
‘Wha’s that ahin’ ye?’
‘Naebody’s ahin’ me,’ answered Robert.
‘Dinna lee. Wha’s that ahin’ the door?’
‘Naebody. I never tell lees.’
‘Whaur’s Shargar? What for doesna he come till ‘s mither?’
‘He’s hynd awa’ ower the seas—a captain o’ sodgers.’
‘It’s a lee. He’s an ill-faured scoonrel no to come till ‘s mither an’ bid her gude-bye, an’ her gaein’ to hell.’
‘Gin ye speir at Christ, he’ll tak ye oot o’ the verra mou’ o’ hell, wuman.’
‘Christ! wha’s that? Ow, ay! It’s him ‘at they preach aboot i’ the kirks. Na, na. There’s nae gude o’ that. There’s nae time to repent noo. I doobt sic repentance as mine wadna gang for muckle wi’ the likes o’ him.’
‘The likes o’ him ‘s no to be gotten. He cam to save the likes o’ you an’ me.’
‘The likes o’ you an’ me! said ye, laddie? There’s no like atween you and me. He’ll hae naething to say to me, but gang to hell wi’ ye for a bitch.’
‘He never said sic a word in ‘s life. He wad say, “Poor thing! she was ill-used. Ye maunna sin ony mair. Come, and I’ll help ye.” He wad say something like that. He’ll save a body whan she wadna think it.’
‘An’ I hae gien my bonnie bairn to the deevil wi’ my ain han’s! She’ll come to hell efter me to girn at me, an’ set them on me wi’ their reid het taings, and curse me. Och hone! och hone!’
‘Hearken to me,’ said Falconer, with as much authority as he could assume. But she rolled herself over again in the corner, and lay groaning.
‘Tell me whaur she is,’ said Falconer, ‘and I’ll tak her oot o’ their grup, whaever they be.’
She sat up again, and stared at him for a few moments without speaking.
‘I left her wi’ a wuman waur nor mysel’,’ she said at length. ‘God forgie me.’
‘He will forgie ye, gin ye tell me whaur she is.’
‘Do ye think he will? Eh, Maister Faukner! The wuman bides in a coort off o’ Clare Market. I dinna min’ upo’ the name o’ ‘t, though I cud gang till ‘t wi’ my een steekit. Her name’s Widow Walker—an auld rowdie—damn her sowl!’
‘Na, na, ye maunna say that gin ye want to be forgien yersel’. I’ll fin’ her oot. An’ I’m thinkin’ it winna be lang or I hae a grup o’ her. I’m gaein’ back to Lonnon in twa days or three.’
‘Dinna gang till I’m deid. Bide an’ haud the deevil aff o’ me. He has a grup o’ my hert noo, rivin’ at it wi’ his lang nails—as lang ‘s birds’ nebs.’
‘I’ll bide wi’ ye till we see what can be dune for ye. What’s the maitter wi’ ye? I’m a doctor noo.’
There was not a chair or box or stool on which to sit down. He therefore kneeled beside her. He felt her pulse, questioned her, and learned that she had long been suffering from an internal complaint, which had within the last week grown rapidly worse. He saw that there was no hope of her recovery, but while she lived he gave himself to her service as to that of a living soul capable of justice and love. The night was more than warm, but she had fits of shivering. He wrapped his coat round her, and wiped from the poor degraded face the damps of suffering. The woman-heart was alive still, for she took the hand that ministered to her and kissed it with a moan. When the morning came she fell asleep. He crept out and went to his grandmother’s, where he roused Betty, and asked her to get him some peat and coals. Finding his grandmother awake, he told her all, and taking the coals and the peat, carried them to the hut, where he managed, with some difficulty, to light a fire on the hearth; after which he sat on the doorstep till Betty appeared with two men carrying a mattress and some bedding. The noise they made awoke her.
‘Dinna tak me,’ she cried. ‘I winna do ‘t again, an’ I’m deein’, I tell ye I’m deein’, and that’ll clear a’ scores—o’ this side ony gait,’ she added.
They lifted her upon the mattress, and made her more comfortable than perhaps she had ever been in her life. But it was only her illness that made her capable of prizing such comfort. In health, the heather on a hill-side was far more to her taste than bed and blankets. She had a wild, roving, savage nature, and the wind was dearer to her than house-walls. She had come of ancestors—and it was a poor little atom of truth that a soul bred like this woman could have been born capable of entertaining. But she too was eternal—and surely not to be fixed for ever in a bewilderment of sin and ignorance—a wild-eyed soul staring about in hell-fire for want of something it could not understand and had never beheld—by the changeless mandate of the God of love! She was in less pain than during the night, and lay quietly gazing at the fire. Things awful to another would no doubt cross her memory without any accompanying sense of dismay; tender things would return without moving her heart; but Falconer had a hold of her now. Nothing could be done for her body except to render its death as easy as might be; but something might be done for herself. He made no attempt to produce this or that condition of mind in the poor creature. He never made such attempts. ‘How can I tell the next lesson a soul is capable of learning?’ he would say. ‘The Spirit of God is the teacher. My part is to tell the good news. Let that work as it ought, as it can, as it will.’ He knew that pain is with some the only harbinger that can prepare the way for the entrance of kindness: it is not understood till then. In the lulls of her pain he told her about the man Christ Jesus—what he did for the poor creatures who came to him—how kindly he spoke to them—how he cured them. He told her how gentle he was with the sinning women, how he forgave them and told them to do so no more. He left the story without comment to work that faith which alone can redeem from selfishness and bring into contact with all that is living and productive of life, for to believe in him is to lay hold of eternal life: he is the Life—therefore the life of men. She gave him but little encouragement: he did not need it, for he believed in the Life. But her outcries were no longer accompanied with that fierce and dreadful language in which she sought relief at first. He said to himself, ‘What matter if I see no sign? I am doing my part. Who can tell, when the soul is free from the distress of the body, when sights and sounds have vanished from her, and she is silent in the eternal, with the terrible past behind her, and clear to her consciousness, how the words I have spoken to her may yet live and grow in her; how the kindness God has given me to show her may help her to believe in the root of all kindness, in the everlasting love of her Father in heaven? That she can feel at all is as sure a sign of life as the adoration of an ecstatic saint.’
He had no difficulty now in getting from her what information she could give him about his father. It seemed to him of the greatest import, though it amounted only to this, that when he was in London, he used to lodge at the house of an old Scotchwoman of the name of Macallister, who lived in Paradise Gardens, somewhere between Bethnal Green and Spitalfields. Whether he had been in London lately, she did not know; but if anybody could tell him where he was, it would be Mrs. Macallister.
His heart filled with gratitude and hope and the surging desire for the renewal of his London labours. But he could not leave the dying woman till she was beyond the reach of his comfort: he was her keeper now. And ‘he that believeth shall not make haste.’ Labour without perturbation, readiness without hurry, no haste, and no hesitation, was the divine law of his activity.
Shargar’s mother breathed her last holding his hand. They were alone. He kneeled by the bed, and prayed to God, saying,
‘Father, this woman is in thy hands. Take thou care of her, as thou hast taken care of her hitherto. Let the light go up in her soul, that she may love and trust thee, O light, O gladness. I thank thee that thou hast blessed me with this ministration. Now lead me to my father. Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever. Amen.’
He rose and went to his grandmother and told her all. She put her arms round his neck, and kissed him, and said,
‘God bless ye, my bonny lad. And he will bless ye. He will; he will. Noo gang yer wa’s, and do the wark he gies ye to do. Only min’, it’s no you; it’s him.’
The next morning, the sweet winds of his childhood wooing him to remain yet a day among their fields, he sat on the top of the Aberdeen coach, on his way back to the horrors of court and alley in the terrible London.
CHAPTER VII. THE SILK-WEAVER
When he arrived he made it his first business to find ‘Widow Walker.’ She was evidently one of the worst of her class; and could it have been accomplished without scandal, and without interfering with the quietness upon which he believed that the true effect of his labours in a large measure depended, he would not have scrupled simply to carry off the child. With much difficulty, for the woman was suspicious, he contrived to see her, and was at once reminded of the child he had seen in the cart on the occasion of Shargar’s recognition of his mother. He fancied he saw in her some resemblance to his friend Shargar. The affair ended in his paying the woman a hundred and fifty pounds to give up the girl. Within six months she had drunk herself to death. He took little Nancy Kennedy home with him, and gave her in charge to his housekeeper. She cried a good deal at first, and wanted to go back to Mother Walker, but he had no great trouble with her after a time. She began to take a share in the house-work, and at length to wait upon him. Then Falconer began to see that he must cultivate relations with other people in order to enlarge his means of helping the poor. He nowise abandoned his conviction that whatever good he sought to do or lent himself to aid must be effected entirely by individual influence. He had little faith in societies, regarding them chiefly as a wretched substitute, just better than nothing, for that help which the neighbour is to give to his neighbour. Finding how the unbelief of the best of the poor is occasioned by hopelessness in privation, and the sufferings of those dear to them, he was confident that only the personal communion of friendship could make it possible for them to believe in God. Christians must be in the world as He was in the world; and in proportion as the truth radiated from them, the world would be able to believe in Him. Money he saw to be worse than useless, except as a gracious outcome of human feelings and brotherly love. He always insisted that the Saviour healed only those on whom his humanity had laid hold; that he demanded faith of them in order to make them regard him, that so his personal being might enter into their hearts. Healing without faith in its source would have done them harm instead of good—would have been to them a windfall, not a Godsend; at best the gift of magic, even sometimes the power of Satan casting out Satan. But he must not therefore act as if he were the only one who could render this individual aid, or as if men influencing the poor individually could not aid each other in their individual labours. He soon found, I say, that there were things he could not do without help, and Nancy was his first perplexity. From this he was delivered in a wonderful way.
One afternoon he was prowling about Spitalfields, where he had made many acquaintances amongst the silk-weavers and their families. Hearing a loud voice as he passed down a stair from the visit he had been paying further up the house, he went into the room whence the sound came, for he knew a little of the occupant. He was one De Fleuri, or as the neighbours called him, Diffleery, in whose countenance, after generations of want and debasement, the delicate lines and noble cast of his ancient race were yet emergent. This man had lost his wife and three children, his whole family except a daughter now sick, by a slow-consuming hunger; and he did not believe there was a God that ruled in the earth. But he supported his unbelief by no other argument than a hopeless bitter glance at his empty loom. At this moment he sat silent—a rock against which the noisy waves of a combative Bible-reader were breaking in rude foam. His silence and apparent impassiveness angered the irreverent little worthy. To Falconer’s humour he looked a vulgar bull-terrier barking at a noble, sad-faced staghound. His foolish arguments against infidelity, drawn from Paley’s Natural Theology, and tracts about the inspiration of the Bible, touched the sore-hearted unbelief of the man no nearer than the clangour of negro kettles affects the eclipse of the sun. Falconer stood watching his opportunity. Nor was the eager disputant long in affording him one. Socratic fashion, Falconer asked him a question, and was answered; followed it with another, which, after a little hesitation, was likewise answered; then asked a third, the ready answer to which involved such a flagrant contradiction of the first, that the poor sorrowful weaver burst into a laugh of delight at the discomfiture of his tormentor. After some stammering, and a confused attempt to recover the line of argument, the would-be partizan of Deity roared out, ‘The fool hath said in his heart there is no God;’ and with this triumphant discharge of his swivel, turned and ran down the stairs precipitately.
Both laughed while the sound of his footsteps lasted. Then Falconer said,
‘My. De Fleuri, I believe in God with all my heart, and soul, and strength, and mind; though not in that poor creature’s arguments. I don’t know that your unbelief is not better than his faith.’
‘I am greatly obliged to you, Mr. Falconer. I haven’t laughed so for years. What right has he to come pestering me?’
‘None whatever. But you must forgive him, because he is well-meaning, and because his conceit has made a fool of him. They’re not all like him. But how is your daughter?’
‘Very poorly, sir. She’s going after the rest. A Spitalfields weaver ought to be like the cats: they don’t mind how many of their kittens are drowned.’
‘I beg your pardon. They don’t like it. Only they forget it sooner than we do.’
‘Why do you say we, sir? You don’t know anything of that sort.’
‘The heart knows its own bitterness, De Fleuri—and finds it enough, I dare say.’
The weaver was silent for a moment. When he spoke again, there was a touch of tenderness in his respect.
‘Will you go and see my poor Katey, sir?’
‘Would she like to see me?’
‘It does her good to see you. I never let that fellow go near her. He may worry me as he pleases; but she shall die in peace. That is all I can do for her.’
‘Do you still persist in refusing help—for your daughter—I don’t mean for yourself?’
Not believing in God, De Fleuri would not be obliged to his fellow. Falconer had never met with a similar instance.
‘I do. I won’t kill her, and I won’t kill myself: I am not bound to accept charity. It’s all right. I only want to leave the whole affair behind; and I sincerely hope there’s nothing to come after. If I were God, I should be ashamed of such a mess of a world.’
‘Well, no doubt you would have made something more to your mind—and better, too, if all you see were all there is to be seen. But I didn’t send that bore away to bore you myself. I’m going to see Katey.’
‘Very well, sir. I won’t go up with you, for I won’t interfere with what you think proper to say to her.’
‘That’s rather like faith somewhere!’ thought Falconer. ‘Could that man fail to believe in Jesus Christ if he only saw him—anything like as he is?’
Katey lay in a room overhead; for though he lacked food, this man contrived to pay for a separate room for his daughter, whom he treated with far more respect than many gentlemen treat their wives. Falconer found her lying on a wretched bed. Still it was a bed; and many in the same house had no bed to lie on. He had just come from a room overhead where lived a widow with four children. All of them lay on a floor whence issued at night, by many holes, awful rats. The children could not sleep for horror. They did not mind the little ones, they said, but when the big ones came, they were awake all night.
‘Well, Katey, how are you?’
‘No better, thank God.’
She spoke as her father had taught her. Her face was worn and thin, but hardly death-like. Only extremes met in it—the hopelessness had turned through quietude into comfort. Her hopelessness affected him more than her father’s. But there was nothing he could do for her.
There came a tap at the door.
‘Come in,’ said Falconer, involuntarily.
A lady in the dress of a Sister of Mercy entered with a large basket on her arm. She started, and hesitated for a moment when she saw him. He rose, thinking it better to go. She advanced to the bedside. He turned at the door, and said,
‘I won’t say good-bye yet, Katey, for I’m going to have a chat with your father, and if you will let me, I will look in again.’
As he turned he saw the lady kiss her on the forehead. At the sound of his voice she started again, left the bedside and came towards him. Whether he knew her by her face or her voice first, he could not tell.
‘Robert,’ she said, holding out her hand.
It was Mary St. John. Their hands met, joined fast, and lingered, as they gazed each in the other’s face. It was nearly fourteen years since they had parted. The freshness of youth was gone from her cheek, and the signs of middle age were present on her forehead. But she was statelier, nobler, and gentler than ever. Falconer looked at her calmly, with only a still swelling at the heart, as if they met on the threshold of heaven. All the selfishness of passion was gone, and the old earlier adoration, elevated and glorified, had returned. He was a boy once more in the presence of a woman-angel. She did not shrink from his gaze, she did not withdraw her hand from his clasp.
‘I am so glad, Robert!’ was all she said.
‘So am I,’ he answered quietly. ‘We may meet sometimes then?’
‘Yes. Perhaps we can help each other.’
‘You can help me,’ said Falconer. ‘I have a girl I don’t know what to do with.’
‘Send her to me. I will take care of her.’
‘I will bring her. But I must come and see you first.’
‘That will tell you where I live,’ she said, giving him a card. Good-bye.’
‘Till to-morrow,’ said Falconer.
‘She’s not like that Bible fellow,’ said De Fleuri, as he entered his room again. ‘She don’t walk into your house as if it was her own.’
He was leaning against his idle loom, which, like a dead thing, filled the place with the mournfulness of death. Falconer took a broken chair, the only one, and sat down.
‘I am going to take a liberty with you, Mr. De Fleuri,’ he said.
‘As you please, Mr. Falconer.’
‘I want to tell you the only fault I have to you.’
‘Yes?’
‘You don’t do anything for the people in the house. Whether you believe in God or not, you ought to do what you can for your neighbour.’
He held that to help a neighbour is the strongest antidote to unbelief, and an open door out of the bad air of one’s own troubles, as well.
De Fleuri laughed bitterly, and rubbed his hand up and down his empty pocket. It was a pitiable action. Falconer understood it.
‘There are better things than money: sympathy, for instance. You could talk to them a little.’
‘I have no sympathy, sir.’
‘You would find you had, if you would let it out.’
‘I should only make them more miserable. If I believed as you do, now, there might be some use.’
‘There’s that widow with her four children in the garret. The poor little things are tormented by the rats: couldn’t you nail bits of wood over their holes?’
