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“Know her?  Rather!  Why to see her is to want on the spot to ‘go’ for her.  She also must sit for me,”

“She?  Louisa Brash?”  If Lady Beldonald had the theory that her beauty directly showed it when things weren’t well with her, this impression, which the fixed sweetness of her serenity had hitherto struck me by no means as justifying, gave me now my first glimpse of its grounds.  It was as if I had never before seen her face invaded by anything I should have called an expression.  This expression moreover was of the faintest—was like the effect produced on a surface by an agitation both deep within and as yet much confused.  “Have you told her so?” she then quickly asked, as if to soften the sound of her surprise.

“Dear no, I’ve but just noticed her—Outreau, a moment ago put me on her.  But we’re both so taken, and he also wants—”

“To paint her?” Lady Beldonald uncontrollably murmured.

“Don’t be afraid we shall fight for her,” I returned with a laugh for this tone.  Mrs. Brash was still where I could see her without appearing to stare, and she mightn’t have seen I was looking at her, though her protectress, I’m afraid, could scarce have failed of that certainty.  “We must each take our turn, and at any rate she’s a wonderful thing, so that if you’ll let her go to Paris Outreau promises her there—”

“There?” my companion gasped.

“A career bigger still than among us, as he considers we haven’t half their eye.  He guarantees her a succès fou.”

She couldn’t get over it.  “Louisa Brash?  In Paris?”

“They do see,” I went on, “more than we and they live extraordinarily, don’t you know, in that.  But she’ll do something here too.”

“And what will she do?”

If frankly now I couldn’t help giving Mrs. Brash a longer look, so after it I could as little resist sounding my converser.  “You’ll see.  Only give her time.”

She said nothing during the moment in which she met my eyes; but then: “Time, it seems to me, is exactly what you and your friend want.  If you haven’t talked with her—”

“We haven’t seen her?  Oh we see bang off—with a click like a steel spring.  It’s our trade, it’s our life, and we should be donkeys if we made mistakes.  That’s the way I saw you yourself, my lady, if I may say so; that’s the way, with a long pin straight through your body, I’ve got you.  And just so I’ve got her!”

All this, for reasons, had brought my guest to her feet; but her eyes had while we talked never once followed the direction of mine.  “You call her a Holbein?”

“Outreau did, and I of course immediately recognised it.  Don’t you?  She brings the old boy to life!  It’s just as I should call you a Titian.  You bring him to life.”

She couldn’t be said to relax, because she couldn’t be said to have hardened; but something at any rate on this took place in her—something indeed quite disconnected from what I would have called her.  “Don’t you understand that she has always been supposed—?”  It had the ring of impatience; nevertheless it stopped short on a scruple.

I knew what it was, however, well enough to say it for her if she preferred.  “To be nothing whatever to look at?  To be unfortunately plain—or even if you like repulsively ugly?  Oh yes, I understand it perfectly, just as I understand—I have to as a part of my trade—many other forms of stupidity.  It’s nothing new to one that ninety-nine people out of a hundred have no eyes, no sense, no taste.  There are whole communities impenetrably sealed.  I don’t say your friend’s a person to make the men turn round in Regent Street.  But it adds to the joy of the few who do see that they have it so much to themselves.  Where in the world can she have lived?  You must tell me all about that—or rather, if she’ll be so good, she must.”

“You mean then to speak to her—?”

I wondered as she pulled up again.  “Of her beauty?”

“Her beauty!” cried Lady Beldonald so loud that two or three persons looked round.

“Ah with every precaution of respect!” I declared in a much lower tone.  But her back was by this time turned to me, and in the movement, as it were, one of the strangest little dramas I’ve ever known was well launched.

CHAPTER III

It was a drama of small smothered intensely private things, and I knew of but one other person in the secret; yet that person and I found it exquisitely susceptible of notation, followed it with an interest the mutual communication of which did much for our enjoyment, and were present with emotion at its touching catastrophe.  The small case—for so small a case—had made a great stride even before my little party separated, and in fact within the next ten minutes.

In that space of time two things had happened one of which was that I made the acquaintance of Mrs. Brash; and the other that Mrs. Munden reached me, cleaving the crowd, with one of her usual pieces of news.  What she had to impart was that, on her having just before asked Nina if the conditions of our sitting had been arranged with me, Nina had replied, with something like perversity, that she didn’t propose to arrange them, that the whole affair was “off” again and that she preferred not to be further beset for the present.  The question for Mrs. Munden was naturally what had happened and whether I understood.  Oh I understood perfectly, and what I at first most understood was that even when I had brought in the name of Mrs. Brash intelligence wasn’t yet in Mrs. Munden.  She was quite as surprised as Lady Beldonald had been on hearing of the esteem in which I held Mrs. Brash’s appearance.  She was stupefied at learning that I had just in my ardour proposed to its proprietress to sit to me.  Only she came round promptly—which Lady Beldonald really never did.  Mrs. Munden was in fact wonderful; for when I had given her quickly “Why she’s a Holbein, you know, absolutely,” she took it up, after a first fine vacancy, with an immediate abysmal “Oh is she?” that, as a piece of social gymnastics, did her the greatest honour; and she was in fact the first in London to spread the tidings.  For a face—about it was magnificent.  But she was also the first, I must add, to see what would really happen—though this she put before me only a week or two later.  “It will kill her, my dear—that’s what it will do!”

She meant neither more nor less than that it would kill Lady Beldonald if I were to paint Mrs. Brash; for at this lurid light had we arrived in so short a space of time.  It was for me to decide whether my æsthetic need of giving life to my idea was such as to justify me in destroying it in a woman after all in most eyes so beautiful.  The situation was indeed sufficiently queer; for it remained to be seen what I should positively gain by giving up Mrs. Brash.  I appeared to have in any case lost Lady Beldonald, now too “upset”—it was always Mrs. Munden’s word about her and, as I inferred, her own about herself—to meet me again on our previous footing.  The only thing, I of course soon saw, was to temporise to drop the whole question for the present and yet so far as possible keep each of the pair in view.  I may as well say at once that this plan and this process gave their principal interest to the next several months.  Mrs. Brash had turned up, if I remember, early in the new year, and her little wonderful career was in our particular circle one of the features of the following season.  It was at all events for myself the most attaching; it’s not my fault if I am so put together as often to find more life in situations obscure and subject to interpretation than in the gross rattle of the foreground.  And there were all sorts of things, things touching, amusing, mystifying—and above all such an instance as I had never yet met—in this funny little fortune of the useful American cousin.  Mrs. Munden was promptly at one with me as to the rarity and, to a near and human view, the beauty and interest of the position.  We had neither of us ever before seen that degree and that special sort of personal success come to a woman for the first time so late in life.  I found it an example of poetic, of absolutely retributive justice; so that my desire grew great to work it, as we say, on those lines.  I had seen it all from the original moment at my studio; the poor lady had never known an hour’s appreciation—which moreover, in perfect good faith, she had never missed.  The very first thing I did after inducing so unintentionally the resentful retreat of her protectress had been to go straight over to her and say almost without preliminaries that I should hold myself immeasurably obliged for a few patient sittings.  What I thus came face to face with was, on the instant, her whole unenlightened past and the full, if foreshortened, revelation of what among us all was now unfailingly in store for her.  To turn the handle and start that tune came to me on the spot as a temptation.  Here was a poor lady who had waited for the approach of old age to find out what she was worth.  Here was a benighted being to whom it was to be disclosed in her fifty-seventh year—I was to make that out—that she had something that might pass for a face.  She looked much more than her age, and was fairly frightened—as if I had been trying on her some possibly heartless London trick—when she had taken in my appeal.  That showed me in what an air she had lived and—as I should have been tempted to put it had I spoken out—among what children of darkness.  Later on I did them more justice; saw more that her wonderful points must have been points largely the fruit of time, and even that possibly she might never in all her life have looked so well as at this particular moment.  It might have been that if her hour had struck I just happened to be present at the striking.  What had occurred, all the same, was at the worst a notable comedy.