Kitabı oku: «Guarding The Soldier's Secret»

This book is for my children.

I am never so proud of you as

when life knocks you down,

and you somehow manage to

pick yourselves up and go on,

stronger than ever.

Contents

Cover

Back Cover Text

Dear Reader

Title Page

About the Author

Dedication

Introduction

Prologue

PART I

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

PART II

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Epilogue

Extract

Copyright

Introduction

From the Memoirs of Sierra Sam Malone:

The day the railroad bulls beat me to a pulp and threw me off the train in the middle of a California desert, I wouldn’t have bet a wooden nickel on my chances of living to see another sunrise. Who would have thought I’d live to become one of the richest men in the country and make movies and hobnob with the biggest and brightest stars in Hollywood. Hobnob, hell, I bought and sold ’em.

Married one, too.

Barbara Chase wasn’t the first beautiful woman fool enough to marry me, but after she left her baby girl with a sitter and her clothes on a Malibu beach and walked into the sunset, I swore she’d be the last. The way I’d treated my first wife, Elizabeth, causing her to want no part of me in her life or our son’s, and now Barbara taking the way out she did, made it pretty clear to me I was not fit husband material. Or father material, either, for that matter. Which is why I sent my baby daughter off to be raised by Barbara’s folks in Nebraska.

Which turned out to be another mistake, but that’s another story.

So, I had sworn off love, after Barbara, though not off women. No...never off women. Of those there was always a plentiful supply, easily available and more than willing to please me. Mine for the taking. And I took without conscience or regrets.

When Katherine came to me with a sensible business proposition, I thought it seemed like a good idea at the time. Power and prestige, in exchange for the thing that mattered the least to me—money. The funny thing was, we were a good match, Kate and I, and we lasted longer than either of us expected.

But when tragedy struck, we lacked the one thing that might have seen us through the storm. And that was love.

Prologue

Somewhere in eastern Afghanistan

Three years previous

Laila loved puppies. She was sure there wasn’t anything in the whole world cuter than puppies. Except maybe baby goats. And lambs, of course. She liked the way the lambs sucked on her fingers when they were just born and hadn’t figured out there wasn’t any milk there for them to drink.

Laila’s mother said she liked puppies, too, but not in the house. She said the puppies and their mother had to stay outside, but she made them a nice bed from one of her old tshaaderis, behind the storage house where part of the neighbor’s wall had fallen down and made a sort of cave. It was just big enough for Laila to squeeze inside when she wanted to visit the puppies. It was nice and warm in there, but it was also cool when the sun got too hot. The mother dog liked it, too, because she could see what was outside but nobody could see her or her puppies.

It was a good place. A safe place.

On that day, Laila went one last time to say good-night to the puppies. She knew it was time to go inside for supper and to learn the lessons her mother was teaching her. Someday she would go to school—her mother had told her so—and she must be ready so the other children wouldn’t think she was stupid. But it was so much fun to hold the puppies under her chin and feel them tickle her neck with their little wet noses and hear the cute grunting sounds puppies make, while the mother dog watched, not minding at all. Laila’s mother had already called her once, but...oh, just a few more minutes, she told herself, and then she would go.

She heard a new sound and caught a breath and held it so she could listen. Yes—it was a truck coming along the dirt road, coming to their house! Not very many people came this way, especially not in a truck. Laila’s heart gave a little bump. Maybe it was Akaa Hunt! It had been such a long time since he had come to visit.

Carefully she put the puppy she was holding back beside its mother. She was about to crawl out of her hiding place when something stopped her.

The mother dog was growling. It was a scary sound, one Laila had never heard her make before. The yellow hair on the back of the mother dog’s neck was sticking up, and her teeth were showing. They were very big teeth. Slowly Laila backed up and shrank into the shadows, and the mother dog stopped growling and licked her muzzle and whimpered softly, almost, Laila thought, as if she was saying I’m sorry.

Now Laila couldn’t see the truck because it had stopped in front of the house. She wanted to go and find out who had come to visit, but when she started to crawl out of her hiding place, the mother dog put her paw on Laila’s leg and growled even more loudly than before. Laila didn’t want to see those big teeth again, so she crept back farther into the shadows. She stayed very still and quiet, and the mother dog and even the puppies were quiet, too.

Then she heard a new sound. It wasn’t like anything she had ever heard, but it made her more frightened than she’d ever been in her life before. It was high and sharp and terrible, and it made her feel cold inside, like she was going to throw up. It came again and again and again, and Laila put her hands over her ears to shut out the noise.

The worst thing was it sounded like her mother’s voice. But how could that be? Why would her mother make such a terrible sound?

She whimpered, “Ammi, Ammi!” and curled up in a ball and huddled close to the mother dog and the puppies. The mother dog growled softly, way down in her throat. Laila shivered and shivered and couldn’t stop, and after a while she heard the truck doors slam and the truck drive away.

Laila waited for her mother to come and tell her it was time for lessons and supper. But her mother didn’t come.

Laila didn’t want to be a baby, but she couldn’t help it. She cried and whimpered, “Ammi... Ammi...”

The mother dog whined and licked the tears from her face, and after a long, long time, Laila slept.

PART I

Afghanistan

Chapter 1

The room was dark, but the darkness was not absolute. By staring with wide-open eyes, Yancy could make out shapes against the whitewashed mud-brick walls: the foot of her narrow cot with the slight mound of her feet beneath the blanket; the pile in the far corner that was her personal gear; the table opposite the door and the water jug from last night’s supper.

Nothing appeared out of place. Nothing appeared to be amiss.

But something had awakened her.

Tense and alert, she listened for the faint rustle of clothing, the barely discernible sounds of breath and heartbeat. She heard nothing but her own. And yet she was absolutely certain she was not alone in that room.

Then...a lightning flurry of movement...a sudden sense of bulk and heat...and before she could draw breath to scream, a hand clamped over her mouth. Adrenaline flooded her body and coiled through her muscles, but even as she recognized the futility of struggle, a stirring of breath warmed the shell of her ear, carrying with it the softest of whispers.

“Yankee...it’s me. It’s me.”

The adrenaline froze in her veins. There was a rushing of wind in her ears. She felt an easing of the pressure of the hand covering her mouth and turned her face to escape it before drawing a shallow breath, making an effort to keep her voice light and steady even though she knew he could feel her body’s shaking.

“I’d assumed you were dead,” she said.

His laughter was all but soundless and held no trace of amusement. “I must be a ghost, then.”

She didn’t reply, and his weight and heat shifted away from her, leaving her feeling not relieved, but chilled and vulnerable.

His voice came from the darkness, low, musical, slightly sultry. “You used to call me that—Ghost. Remember?”

Remember? Oh, how she wished she did not. But her senses hadn’t forgotten. Defying her will, they stirred with familiar responses.

She cleared her throat and this time answered him. “Of course I remember.”

A sense of unreality had settled over her, and with it a blessed numbness. She hitched herself into a sitting position and drew up her knees under the blankets, rested her elbows on them and combed back her hair with her fingers. Deliberately, she yawned and spoke to the shadows into which he’d withdrawn.

“So...what are you doing here?” And how long will you stay...this time?

She could keep her voice devoid of emotion in spite of the shakes, confident she would sound merely curious. She was Yancy Katherine Malone, after all. She’d stood before cameras and reported live while bullets and rocks and bottles flew and bombs and mortars exploded around her and the air she breathed was filled with the screams of the injured and the shouts of the enraged and the stench of burning flags and tanks and human flesh. She was known for being cool under fire.

This was a piece of cake.

It should have been.

This time his laughter brought a vision to her mind, so clear it seemed more real than memory: a mouth upturned at the corners in a smile so at odds with the fierce golden glare of the eyes that went with it. Lion’s eyes.

“You didn’t used to have to ask,” he said.

Oh, I remember the night you came as you so often did, coming into my bed with a rush of air, your body cold against my back but warming quickly with my heat. Already wide-awake and shivery, I smiled in the darkness and murmured a sleepy “Who’s that?”

“Who do you think?” A chuckle and a rasp of beard in the curve of my neck.

I turned in your arms, feigning surprise. “Oh—it’s you.”

You said in a growl from deep in your chest, “You were expecting...someone else?”

I laughed, and your mouth silenced my reply.

I remember thinking, So it’s been a month? Four weeks without a word from you?

But you are here now, and I’ve learned not to wonder or ask why.

I’ve learned to be thankful for the moment...this moment. And to remind myself again that it is never wise to fall in love with a ghost.

* * *

“Nice deflection,” Yancy said, but even as the words left her mouth she realized this was different from all the other times he’d come and gone and shown up again without word or warning.

He was different. He sounded different. Almost...wary. Even uncertain, impossible as that would seem to most who knew him as Hunt Grainger, man of steel, Special Ops warrior, a man high on adrenaline and in love with the life of risk and danger he’d lived for so long. A man without fear, not even—perhaps least of all—of death.

Superhuman.

That was how she’d seen him first. More machine—a killing machine—than man.

* * *

The worst thing about battle is the sound. You’d think it would be the images, wouldn’t you? Or even the smells, that nose-burning, throat-clogging mix of smoke and explosives and blood and dust and fear. And it’s true that even now a whiff of one or the other of those will bring the images back in full horror and living color. But the sound is simply intolerable. I still watch raw footage with the sound muted, to save myself another round of those recurring nightmares.

That day I remember curling into fetal position with my hands over my ears, praying my flak jacket and helmet would stop the bullets, that the mud-brick walls wouldn’t bury us alive, and if that was too much to ask, at least that I would die quickly and without too much pain. Even in that hideous din, I remember hearing Will, the cameraman, swearing, and someone else, I don’t know who, muttering something in rhythmic cadence that might have been the Hail Mary.

I heard—no, felt—the percussion of machine-gun fire, so close it was a physical assault on my eardrums, and between bursts there were shouts, unintelligible at first, but then... Oh, my God, yes, it was—it was English!

I heard the scrape of boots, felt the thud of heavy feet on the hard-packed earth beneath me, and the blessed shout: “You all okay in here?”

I dared open my eyes and saw the room fill with what seemed almost to be alien beings. Superbeings, certainly, more machine than men, laden as they were with their gear and weapons and helmets and body armor. One knelt beside me, and I saw his eyes, brilliant, amber gold in color, and so intense it seemed I could feel their heat.

“Are you hurt?” he shouted, and I shook my head.

“Can you walk?”

I nodded.

“Then let’s get the hell outa here.”

Somehow I was on my feet. “The truck—” I think I shouted.

“Forget the truck. We’ve got a chopper. This way—move!”

As if I had a choice, with this man-machine’s arm around my waist, half carrying me. But I could see Will and the other members of my crew being similarly hustled through the rooms of the bombed-out house—mostly rubble now—and gave myself up to being rescued and focused my attention on trying not to step on anything that might have been body parts.

Once clear of the house, we ran across open ground with all the speed we television newspeople were capable of, bent almost double as if that would make us less vulnerable to bullets and mortar shells. My rescuer kept me tucked under his arm, practically under his body, shielding me with his own armor.

I could hear the thump-thump-thump of rotors, and then my rescuer’s hands grasped my waist and hoisted me bodily into the helicopter. Within seconds we were all aboard—rescue squad, news crew and most of our gear—and the chopper lunged into the air. As it banked and swept away from the battle zone, heading back toward the base, blessed quiet—comparatively speaking—settled over us. Above the creak and rustle of armor-clad warriors settling themselves and their weapons in for the journey, I could hear my own heart beating, out of sync with the thump of the chopper blades.

When I could breathe evenly enough to speak without gasping, I looked over at my personal savior. I found him watching me, eyes half-closed in his blackened face, the fire in them banked for the moment.

“Thanks,” I said, knowing how profoundly inadequate it was.

A smile transformed him instantly from machine into man. “Just doin’ our job, ma’am,” he drawled.

“What’s your name, soldier?” I asked, remembering my own job, belatedly.

Still smiling, he shook his head. “Soldier’s enough.”

* * *

That was the first hint she’d had of how human he was; later, she’d found he could even be vulnerable. Though...she’d never seen him afraid, not once in all the years he’d flitted in and out of her life like a shadow.

But he’s afraid now.

She was almost certain of it. What could have happened to him in the year since she’d last seen him...touched him...felt his touch? Possibilities flashed through her mind, scenarios formless as wisps of smoke.

She strained her ears, listening in the silence of that room, silence that stretched beyond the mud-brick walls and small shuttered window into the cold Afghan night. There were no sounds of battle tonight, no voices raised in fear or anger, song or prayer, not even the cry of a night bird or barking of an abandoned dog. Again she listened for the rustling of clothing, the whisper of quickened breathing. And again, all she heard was her own heartbeat.

Anger came like a small hot whirlwind. She sucked it in and held it close as she threw back the heavy woven wool blankets, thankful once again for the years of experience that had taught her to sleep fully clothed in these remote outposts.

“What do you want?” The question came in a tumble of uneven breath as she stabbed the darkness with her feet, searching for her boots. “Damn you, at least tell me why you’re here. I think you owe me that much.”

The answer barely disturbed the silence. “You’re right. I do.” There was a quick, soft exhalation and then: “I need your help.”

And for Yancy, where there had been heat, now there was cold, a new chill that penetrated to the pit of her stomach. On a sharp gasp she asked, “What’s wrong? Are you hurt?”

“No. Nothing like that.”

“For God’s sake, Hunt.” Still shaky, she pulled her coat from the foot of the cot and swung it around her shoulders. It wasn’t until she stood up that she realized how unreliable her legs were. She groped for the battery-powered lantern and swore under her breath when she kicked it in the near-darkness.

“No,” her visitor said harshly. “No light.”

Unformed notions swirled like swamp fog through her mind. Oh, God, he’s been wounded...horribly disfigured...doesn’t want me to see...

As if he’d read her thought, his voice held a touch of irony. “I need to open the door... Don’t want the light to show outside. Okay? Just...wait...”

She caught back questions and stood hugging her coat around her, trying not to shiver as she stared at the place where she remembered the outside door was. She listened to faint sounds, felt the movement of air as the door opened all but invisibly against the blackness of the night. After a moment, she heard the door close. The shadows in the room rearranged themselves.

Hunt spoke, barely a whisper. “You can put the light on now, if you need to.”

Yancy fumbled again for the lantern and this time found it and switched it on. Light flooded the room, a visual assault after such darkness.

She turned quickly, heart pounding, not knowing what to expect, afraid of what she would see. And went utterly still with shock. Whatever she’d expected, it wasn’t this.

Where the shadow had been that was Hunt Grainger, now there were two figures. A tall man wearing traditional Afghan clothing and a full beard, thick and dark. With him was a small Afghan child—a boy, judging from the way he was dressed, and no more than four or five years old.

“Not quite what you expected, I guess.” Hunt’s voice was still soft, but again with that hint of wry humor as he gave words to her thoughts.

“Not...quite,” she managed to murmur, still staring at the child clinging to Hunt’s leg with the fierce determination of a drowning cat. “Who is he?”

“She. It’s safer if...” There was a pause before he continued. “Her name’s Laila.”

Yancy lifted her eyes to look at him, understanding beginning to dawn. Could it possibly be...? How does he know what I...? Uneasiness tightened her chest.

“Why— How...?” She stopped, knowing it was useless to try to rush him.

“Her mother’s dead.” The statement came in a flat undertone. He tipped his turbaned head toward the child. “And if she stays in this country she might as well be. She needs to get out, and I know you can make that happen.”

Her small gasp of laughter was an automatic and, she knew, futile diversion. “Why would you think—”

He cut her off without raising his voice. “Yankee, I know. Okay? I know what you do, who you work for—besides WNN. I know your organization has the machine in place, the people—and I don’t mean them.” He jerked his head toward the door behind him, indicating the rest of the house and the rooms where the other members of the news crew were quartered. “You have the means to do this. You know how. You’ve done it before.”

Yancy hesitated a moment longer, then nodded. A cloak of calm came around her, and the ground steadied under her feet. She didn’t know how or why Hunt Grainger knew about INCBRO, but the fact that he did wasn’t a complete surprise. Hunt and the others like him seemed to know things no one else did.

“She’s a child bride, then?”

Hunt made a scoffing sound. “If that’s what you call it. They bartered a five-year-old child to a tribal leader, in exchange, I suppose, for a promise of protection.”

“They?” She had squatted down, balanced on one knee, and was gazing again at the child, who still had her face buried in Hunt’s long chapan.

She thought, My God, a bride? She’s so small...

“Her family.” His voice had an edge of steel. “Of course.”

Yancy glanced up at him, but all she could see of his face in the dim light and behind the dark curtain of beard was the glitter of his eyes. So familiar, and yet I’ve never seen him look like this...

Swallowing the knot of rage and sickness that had lodged in her throat, she spoke quietly. “Does she speak any English?”

“A little. Probably understands more than she speaks. When she speaks. Right now she’s not saying much of anything.”

She straightened up, letting out a breath. “Hunt, I don’t know what you know about the organization—INCBRO. We’re more about trying to intercede diplomatically—you know, educate and persuade family members, get them to understand they can do better for their daughters by letting them go to school instead of marrying them off as children. If they don’t have the money to do that, we try to help them. We don’t usually take a child out of the culture and environment they’re accustomed to. We don’t just...pick them up and carry them off—not that we don’t wish we could, sometimes...”

“But you’ve done just that, in certain cases. As a last resort? When the girl’s life was at stake. Haven’t you?”

“Well, I—”

“Her mother’s name was Zahra.”

She heard an edge of flint in his voice—and something else she couldn’t name. It stirred conflicting emotions and swirled them together in her mind like a wicked little dust devil—fear, compassion...a hint of jealousy—making her heart stutter and her breath catch. But for only a moment. The thoughts and emotions settled like leaves when the wind has passed.

“So you knew her?”

“Yes. I knew her.” His hand rested on the child’s turbaned head, so gentle in contrast to the cold rage in his eyes. “I thought I’d found a safe place for them, but they—” He broke off with a meaningful glance at the child and stepped away from her, turning his back to her before he continued speaking to Yancy in a low murmur. “The male members of her family killed her—killed Zahra. How they found them I don’t know. Thank God this one managed to hide. Look, I don’t have time for details. I just know if she stays here they’ll find her again sooner or later. In fact, the longer I stay here the more danger she’s in—and you, too. I know your crew is about to wrap up—pulling out tomorrow, right?”

She nodded and again didn’t bother to ask him how he knew.

“Okay. So take her with you. Get her on that underground railroad you help run. You’re the only one who can get her out of Afghanistan. You can keep her safe.” He pulled in a breath. “If you need money—”

“Not a problem. INCBRO is very well funded,” Yancy said tightly.

He nodded and for a moment seemed to hesitate—that unfamiliar uncertainty again. Then he turned abruptly, went down on one knee and took the child by the shoulders. He spoke quietly to her in Pashto, a language Yancy was still struggling to learn. The little girl made a whimpering sound and reached for him, but he held her firmly away, still talking to her.

Then, in an abrupt change to English, he said slowly and clearly, “Laila, this woman is my friend. I told you about her, remember? She’s going to take good care of you. She’ll keep you safe. Okay?”

Laila kept her head bowed but silently nodded and, after a moment, lifted small clenched fists to scrub tears from her cheeks.

“That’s my girl,” Hunt said in a husky growl. “I’ll come and see you, soon as I can, I promise.” Unexpectedly, he drew the child into his arms and held her close. Yancy’s heart did a slow flip-flop. “But for now, I want you to go with Yancy. Can you do that?”

After a long pause, Laila nodded. Hunt released the child, rose to his feet and turned her toward Yancy. The little girl bravely lifted her eyes.

A smile of reassurance froze on Yancy’s lips. She sucked in an audible breath. Lion’s eyes...golden eyes, tear-glazed but bright as flame...

Her own gaze flew to Hunt, who had paused at the door to look back at her.

“Yes,” he said gently, “she’s mine. Does it matter?”

Yancy shook her head, barely aware she did so.

“Put out the light, will you?”

Numbly, she reached for the lantern. As the room plunged into darkness she felt a chill breeze and knew he was gone.

In the silence that fell then, a small cold hand crept into hers.