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I suppose I should have said something nice, instead I looked down at the ground and all I could see was concrete. I didn’t know that word, but it seemed to me that this hard stuff was everywhere – the driveway, the road surface, even on some of the houses. I had never seen anything like it. And the houses themselves were like toy houses.
I would soon come to realise this was a normal suburban road – a cul-de-sac – but I couldn’t see any wide green spaces or trees or distant hills, only a few small flowers in gardens down the road. Worse still, I could hear a continuous rumbling sound in the background, which I later found out was traffic. At Field House there had always been peace and quiet, except for the birdsong in the trees, so this was all a huge shock to me.
‘Let’s go inside,’ suggested Pearl, leading me in through the front door.
CHAPTER 6
The House of Dangers
Stepping into a small gloomy hallway, the first thing I noticed was the strong smell. I recognised it as a clean smell, similar to our bathroom at Field House. It was the smell of bleach. How strange that it should be in the hall of this house instead of beeswax polish. I suppose I thought everybody lived as we did, so now I would have to learn different ways.
Standing in the hallway with Pearl, I was wary of Arnold, standing behind us. She must have known.
‘Let’s go up to the bathroom first and clean you up properly,’ she said. She led the way up the stairs and straight into a clean white bathroom. ‘Take off all your clothes,’ she said, opening my case and getting out my change of summer clothes. She ran warm water into the basin and used soap and a flannel to wash me down, then dried me with a fluffy towel – much nicer than the scratchy old ones I’d been used to.
‘Can I go to the toilet?’ I asked, desperate by now.
‘Yes, of course, it’s just next door to the bathroom.’ She opened the door for me.
Meanwhile, she must have put my case in one of the bedrooms.
‘That’s better, isn’t it?’ she said. ‘You’re all clean and smell nice again. Let’s go downstairs and I’ll show you round the house.’
We walked down the thin, red cord carpet running down the middle of the stairs. At the bottom the hall floor was covered in lino, with a flowery pattern. There were three doors from the hall, one of which was closed.
‘That’s the front room,’ explained Pearl, opening the door just wide enough for me to see a dark, formal room with old-fashioned furniture and quite a musty smell. ‘You’re not allowed to go in there on your own, only when one of us is with you.’ She quickly closed the door again.
‘This is the kitchen,’ she said, taking me through an open doorway to the back of the house. It seemed very clean and sparse. Again, there was a lino floor, with a different flowery pattern and a flowery mat in front of the sink. Almost everything in this house seemed to be floral!
‘This leads to the garage,’ she said, opening a door at the side of the kitchen. ‘You can play in there if you want to, when the weather is bad.’ She opened another, narrower door at the back. ‘And this is the pantry. We keep all of our food nice and cool in here.’ She opened that door to show me the shelves, stacked high with tins and packets of all shapes and sizes.
Being a boy who loved his food, I was relieved to see that they had so much of it stored away, but I was puzzled there were no cooking or baking smells in here. I was quite hungry by now, having not eaten since lunch, but I knew I would probably have to wait until it was a meal time.
‘We bought this house when it was newly built,’ said Pearl, ‘so we could choose to have a nice modern kitchen.’
I suppose it was very modern for its time, with a stainless-steel sink, cupboards and a small work surface, plus a Formica and tubular steel table and four matching chairs – all very neat and tidy.
‘This is our sitting room,’ she said, taking me back through the hall and opening the third door, which led into a lighter, airier room. ‘Arnold and I come and sit in here in the evenings.’ She indicated the sofa and two armchairs. Then I noticed the strange wooden cupboard thing in the corner, with a small piece of glass in the front.
‘What’s that?’ I asked, pointing at it.
‘That’s our television.’
‘What’s a television?’
‘You switch it on and it shows moving pictures of things, like in the cinema.’
‘What’s a cinema?’ This was all new to me and my curious mind.
Pearl explained in more detail about films and television programmes, which intrigued me.
‘Does it have programmes for children?’ I asked.
‘Yes,’ she replied, lowering her voice. ‘But Arnold might not let you watch those.’ She didn’t explain why. ‘We don’t watch it much,’ she continued in a whisper. ‘Arnold doesn’t like most of the programmes they show.’
‘What do you like?’ I asked Pearl, innocently, too young to interpret her reticence.
She looked a bit uncomfortable. ‘I don’t know,’ she eventually answered. ‘Arnold doesn’t like me watching it when he isn’t here – he likes to decide what we watch.’ She paused. ‘He likes Dixon of Dock Green, so we watch that.’
Just then there was a metallic noise. ‘What’s that?’ I asked, turning towards the corner of the room where it came from. That’s when I saw the cage and its yellow and green occupant. ‘You’ve got a budgie!’ I exclaimed. It was the first time I had smiled since I came into this house.
‘Yes, that’s Joey,’ she said.
‘We had a budgie at Field House,’ I told her. Then I turned to the bird and said, ‘Hello, Joey.’ He didn’t reply, but he cocked his head to one side as if interested in what I was saying. ‘Hello,’ I repeated.
‘He doesn’t talk,’ explained Pearl, ‘but I think he likes you.’
I was pleased because I could look forward to getting to know Joey and maybe teach him to say ‘hello’ – I would enjoy that.
Also at that end of the room was an oak gate-leg table and four chairs.
‘This is where we eat our Sunday lunch,’ explained Pearl. ‘The rest of the time we eat in the kitchen.’
There were two windows and a French door to the back garden. I looked outside to see if there was a lovely big lawn to run around and trees to climb, but I was disappointed. There was a concrete raised area and some steps down to a patch of grass, but it was very small and being a new house, there was nothing much growing there yet.
‘Now, let’s go back upstairs and I’ll show you where your bedroom is,’ suggested Pearl. ‘We can unpack your case.’
At the top of the stairs was a landing, a bathroom and three bedrooms. I’d already seen the bathroom, which was very small, but it had everything it needed. Pearl showed me where my toothbrush and face flannel could go and she’d bought a new pale blue towel.
‘It will be your towel,’ said Pearl. ‘Just for you.’
I was rather pleased with that as I’d never had a fluffy new towel of my own before.
‘This is our bedroom, Arnold’s and mine,’ she said, pointing to a closed door. ‘It’s at the front of the house. And there is the spare room.’ She pointed to another door.
‘Now, this is your bedroom,’ said Pearl, pushing the door open and ushering me in to a tiny room – everything seemed so small here.
While Pearl busied herself opening my case and checking all the things on the list were there, I looked round the room. The first thing I noticed was the lino on the floor – a plain, light grey colour, with a dark brown coconut mat next to the bed – not soft like a furry rug, this mat looked hard and scratchy. There were thin brown and white, flowery nylon curtains at the front window. They were see-through – the sort that stick to you every time you brush past them.
The furniture, a dark wooden bed, matching chest of drawers and wardrobe, took up most of the room.
‘Would you like to see what’s in your case now?’ asked Pearl. ‘You can unpack it, if you like, while I go downstairs and put the kettle on and we can have a nice cup of tea. Come down and join me in the kitchen when you’re ready.’
After she left the room, I lifted the lid of my little case and took everything out.
First, the few clothes, all of them washed and ironed, but, as usual, none of them new. I put them away in my drawers, along with a dressing gown, coat and shoes. My housemother had thought of everything. When I opened the bottom drawer, I saw several brand-new items of clothing, which Pearl must have bought specially for me. They were really smart and I looked forward to wearing those.
Finally, I went back to look in the bottom of my case, where I found Jeffrey and tucked him into my bed. There were my two little cars with their opening doors and metal wheels that used to send sparks flying when I raced them on the flagstones in Field House. I parked those under my bed, just as I’d always done. Then I got out my precious spinning top, which I put on the floor of my wardrobe. Right at the bottom of my case, some kind soul, probably my housemother, had put in a colouring book and some crayons. I was so pleased about that because it showed kindness and I would enjoy colouring in the pages every now and then.
Down the stairs I went, as quietly as I could, so as not to disturb Arnold, wherever he was. I went into the kitchen and Pearl pulled out a chair for me to sit on. She poured out two cups of tea and we sat there companionably, sipping and chatting. I liked that: I liked the tea – I’ve loved tea ever since – and I liked Pearl’s almost musical voice and her warm smile.
‘Did you finish unpacking?’ she asked. ‘And did you find the nice new clothes I bought you?’
‘Yes, thank you. Can I wear them tomorrow?’
‘Of course you can,’ she replied. ‘Would you like a biscuit?’
‘Ooh, yes please!’ It was a long time since I had eaten and now that my tummy had calmed down, I felt quite hungry.
‘Do you think you will like having your own bedroom?’ she asked me.
‘Yes,’ I said, nodding, though I really didn’t think I would like that, but I couldn’t say so. Ever since I was a baby, I had slept in a dormitory with my friends at Field House – I was a little afraid of how I would feel, being on my own so much here.
Suddenly I heard heavy footsteps. In an instant the cosy atmosphere changed as Arnold strode into the kitchen.
‘What’s he doing here?’ he asked, but didn’t wait for the answer. ‘Take him up to bed!’
‘Yes, Arnold.’ Pearl nodded nervously and turned to me. ‘Come along, I’ll take your cup of tea up for you.’
So off we went, up the stairs and into my room, where she put the cup down.
‘I must go and get Arnold’s tea ready,’ she explained. ‘I’ll come back up and put you to bed as soon as I can.’
I sat on the edge of my bed and watched her leave, closing the door behind her. Perhaps she would bring me something to eat too when she came back. Though I couldn’t tell the time yet, I knew from my tummy that it must be time for a good meal. After I had finished sipping what was left in my cup, I went over to the window. I gazed out at the view and discovered that my room was at the front of the house, though I could see nothing but brick and concrete houses along concrete streets, with rows of red rooftops, all looking the same. There was not a tree or hedge and hardly a blade of grass in sight. I’d never seen a view like this before: where could I run and play?
I went back to sit on my bed. The room was bare, with nothing to look at – no pictures on the walls, no picture-books anywhere either. I closed my eyes, wishing with all my heart that I was having a nightmare and I could wake up and be back where I belonged, in our big, light, cheerful bedroom in Field House with all my friends. I hardly dared open my eyes again, but when I did, I was still a stranger in a cold little space.
After that cup of tea I wanted to go to the toilet again, but I was apprehensive to go out of my room. What if Arnold saw me? So I sat and waited until I could wait no longer. I opened my door a crack. Downstairs I could hear them both talking – Arnold’s voice curt and loud against Pearl’s softer tones. I tiptoed out onto the landing. But where was the toilet? I’d forgotten already. All the doors were closed and I didn’t know what to do.
Just then I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and dashed back into my room, fearing the worse. But it was all right: it was Pearl who came in. I was so relieved that I blurted out: ‘Can I go to the toilet?’
‘Yes, of course you can,’ she smiled. ‘Go whenever you need to.’
‘I can’t remember which door!’ I explained, in an anguished state.
She showed me and I came back to find her getting out the hand-me-down pyjamas from a drawer
‘Time for a bath and bed,’ she said. ‘You’ve had a long day. I thought you might feel more comfortable in your familiar things the first night.’
I was grateful for her thoughtfulness. It had indeed been a long and difficult day.
Pearl took me through to the bathroom and turned on the bath taps, then helped me to undress. As she tested the water, I noticed the red patches with bluish tinges beginning to show on my arms and legs. I’m sure there must have been some on my back too, because that was sore all over, but there was no mirror to check. I climbed into the lovely warm bath that immediately started to soothe my tired, battered body. Pearl passed me a large sponge and some soap. At Field House I had been used to splashing about and having fun in the bath, with the other boys coming in and out to wash and clean their teeth, chatting and laughing in the background, while one of the housemothers washed me all over. But now, here, it was dead quiet and I had a sudden urge to make some noise, so I slapped my hand down into the water and made a big splash.
Immediately, Pearl flinched. ‘We have to be quiet,’ she explained. ‘Arnold doesn’t like noise.’
So, no more splashing. I sat still while she soaped the sponge and washed my face first, then my body.
‘Poor boy,’ she said in her soft voice as she lightly washed over my tender skin. ‘Don’t worry, I don’t think those bruises will show when you have your clothes on tomorrow. You’ll be able to go out and meet the other children, make friends and play with them if you want. That will be nice, won’t it? But first, a good night’s sleep will do you a lot of good.’
‘Thank you,’ I whispered as she helped me out of the bath and wrapped me up in my big bath towel, then gently rubbed me dry.
I put on the Field House pyjamas and we went back to my bedroom, where she tucked me into bed and put out the light. No story to lull me to sleep, no other children to keep me company …
‘Sleep well,’ she said and left me alone in the dark – hungry, hurting and in a state of high anxiety. It was only now that I realised I had never been in a room on my own before and I didn’t like it. At not yet five years old, I remember feeling overwhelmed. I was still shocked and confused by Arnold’s cruel beating when I was sick that afternoon – I didn’t understand. Worst still, after my bath I could feel more strongly the tender bruises all over my body, especially my back. Arnold’s attack and the long, car-sick journey had made me very tired. My tummy still cried out for food, but it didn’t look as if I would have any tonight. I tossed and turned on the lumpy mattress to try and find a comfortable position. I was miserable but, despite it all, I soon fell into a fitful sleep, full of nightmares. It must have been one of those that woke me.
Immediately, I was upset still to be here, alone and bereft. I must have been disoriented in a strange room, the pale glow of the street lamp through my flimsy curtains casting eerie shadows, distorting everything around me. Though scared of the shadows, I was even more afraid of Arnold. He had become the ogre of my nightmares, but now that I was awake, I realised afresh that he was real, terribly real.
At that moment, I wet the bed. I couldn’t stop myself.
Oh no!
At Field House, one of our lovely housemothers would have come in and comforted me with loving care, but not here. I cried in panic, trying desperately not to make any noise, but I couldn’t stop myself sobbing.
I heard a creak on the landing. The door burst open and Arnold stormed in, towering over me, shouting and swearing. I can’t remember most of what he said that night, especially the swear words, which I’d never heard before, but one or two things stood out, though I didn’t understand them.
‘You little bastard!’ he shouted at me as he pulled all my covers off. ‘Look what you’ve done! You don’t deserve our kindness in taking you in. Your parents didn’t want you, nobody wants you. You’re a bastard child, even God doesn’t want you!’
I cowered and sobbed more loudly.
Taking hold of my pyjamas in one hand and my ear in the other, he pulled me right out of bed and threw me onto the floor. As he yelled all the insults he could think of, I curled myself up in a ball on the coconut mat, while he rained slaps and punches on me and kicked me again and again, as hard as he could with his bare feet.
He was in a frenzy. Instinctively, I put my hands round my head to protect myself, but my body hurt with every blow. At one point I think I soiled myself too, but I couldn’t help it – if only he would stop. I heard myself scream out for help, but that angered the monster even more. However, my scream must have woken Pearl as the door opened and in she came, with an anguished expression and tears streaming down her face.
‘Stop! Please stop!’ she wailed at Arnold. ‘You’ve done enough,’ she pleaded. ‘If you go back to bed, I’ll sort Richard out and clean everything up.’
Arnold still had hold of me in one hand, his other fist ready to punch me again, but suddenly he dropped me, stormed out and slammed the door behind him.
‘There, there,’ soothed Pearl. ‘He’s gone now, so let’s clean you up and make you comfortable again.’
She led me into the bathroom, carefully took off my wet, soiled pyjamas, gave me a good wash down and put the big towel round me to go back in the bedroom and keep warm while she got out the new pyjamas she had bought me. After unfolding them, she passed them to me to put on, while she stripped the bed and turned the mattress: new sheets and pillowcases made it all smell nice and fresh again.
She tucked me in and said goodnight with a sorrowful smile. I gave her a weak smile back, but I was still sobbing inside. My whole body ached and throbbed from the tyrant’s attack. She turned off the light and closed the door, leaving me crying quietly to myself, under the covers. I was so tired, but was it safe to sleep? Would he come back for another attack? It was only my first night here – would every night be the same? Sore all over, I curled up in my bed and cried myself silently to sleep.
CHAPTER 7
One Day at a Time
When I woke up the next morning – my first morning away from Field House – everything seemed calm, but I was wary. Stiff and aching, I sat up in bed and listened. All I could hear was the distant clinking of cups or plates, which seemed to come from downstairs in the kitchen, but no voices. Should I get up? No, I decided it might be safer to wait and see, but I didn’t have to wait long.
‘Richard?’ called Pearl’s voice up the stairs. ‘Arnold has gone to work. Are you awake?’
‘Yes. Shall I get dressed?’
‘I’ll come up.’
I heard her running lightly up the stairs and my door opened.
‘You can wear some of the new clothes I bought you, if you like,’ she said with a warm smile, getting them out for me to look at. ‘You choose.’
This was a first for me. I picked a pale blue short-sleeved shirt and some red shorts and she helped me put them on.
‘Are you hungry?’ she asked.
‘Yes,’ I replied, politely. In fact, I was more than hungry – I hadn’t eaten since yesterday lunchtime, except for the one biscuit Pearl had given me. I imagined a big breakfast all laid out for me to choose from, with porridge or cereals, toast and fruit, so I gladly followed her downstairs. But the kitchen table was bare.
‘I’ll just put the kettle on,’ she said. ‘We’ll have a cup of tea and I’ll butter you a slice of toast.’
So that was it – one slice of toast for my breakfast that first morning.
It was a great relief to me that Arnold had gone to work. Pearl seemed more relaxed too, as she chatted away to me at the kitchen table.
‘We have some nice neighbours,’ she told me. ‘And there are quite a few children living in our road, some of them are about your age. They often play together outside, so you must try and make friends with them if you can.’
‘Are there some boys?’ I asked.
‘Yes, and they play together very well. I’m sure you will enjoy that.’ Pearl poured us both a second cup of tea. ‘You’ll soon be ready to start school,’ she added. ‘The infants’ school is only just round the corner, behind our garden, so we’ll be able to walk there. The teachers are very nice. They’ll teach you to read and write and you’ll be able to learn all sorts of things.’ She paused to sip her tea. ‘What would you like to learn about?’
‘Cars,’ I said straight away. ‘And I love animals, so I’d like to learn more about them – especially insects. We had a lot of insects in the Japanese garden at Field House.’
Thinking of that, my bottom lip suddenly started to quiver. I think she must have noticed.
‘Well, when we go to the shops, maybe we could go to the library, register you for a library ticket and find you a book about insects. Would you like that?’
Pearl was being very kind to me that first morning and I did appreciate it, after all that had happened in the previous 24 hours. I was still wary, listening out in case I could hear a car in the drive, or footsteps in the hall, as I didn’t know that when people worked, it was usually all day. But I felt safe enough when it was just Pearl and me, and I was quite keen to meet the other children and make some new friends. Although I’d always liked playing on my own, I did miss the company and the fun of sharing my bedroom with other children, eating our meals together and running around the gardens with them.
That whole morning Pearl said nothing about Arnold. I wanted to ask her why he hit me, but I didn’t dare. She acted as if nothing had happened and I didn’t want to upset her, but I couldn’t get it out of my head and every now and then, the bruises reminded me it was real.
We cleared away the breakfast things and she gave me a tea towel to dry the washing-up. I felt quite proud to be trusted with that job and dried everything carefully.
‘Thank you,’ she said when we’d finished. ‘Up you go to brush your teeth,’ she prompted me.
Back in my bedroom, I looked out of the window, but there were no children outside yet, so I went down to the sitting room to say hello to Joey the budgie. He seemed a little surprised, but again cocked his head to one side, as if listening intently, though I just kept repeating the same thing: ‘Hello, Joey.’ He sidled up to the bars and I put my little stubby fingers through to touch his feathers. I was very gentle and he didn’t seem to mind.
I walked across the room to look out of the glazed door and get a better look at what the garden was like. I craned my neck to see if there was more space beyond this disappointing patch of brownish-green lawn, but no, there wasn’t even space to run more than four or five of my little strides. Not at all impressed, I had a wobbly moment, with a few tears, as I stood there and tried to imagine myself back at the lawns of Field House.
‘You can go out to the garden if you like,’ suggested Pearl with a smile, as she came to see what I was doing.
‘Can I get my toy cars and play with them in the garden?’
‘Yes, of course.’
So that’s what I did. Once outside, it seemed very strange. I could hear a whole mixture of sounds. There was a sort of rumble, which I didn’t recognise, but must have been the traffic sounds from the main road. There were some sharp and scraping metal sounds, which I later learned were from nearby workshops, and of course the joyous sounds of children playing at the infants’ school behind us. It made me want to go and join in. But I couldn’t hear any birdsong. I just sat alone on the raised concrete area, racing my cars to and fro, crashing them and trying to raise sparks.
I didn’t feel I belonged here. I didn’t fit in, and I knew I wasn’t wanted by Arnold. If only I could let my housemother know, she would surely come and fetch me. But I knew it was no good.
Just then, Pearl stuck her head out of the door: ‘Would you like a cup of tea and a biscuit?’
‘Yes, please,’ I replied enthusiastically. I quite enjoyed our companionable tea breaks, chats and, of course, the biscuits. Perhaps she would let me have an extra one this time.
‘You’ll be with the little ones when you start school,’ Pearl explained to me as we sat together at the kitchen table. ‘In the first class. They will all be the same age as you and there will be lots of lovely things for you to do.’
‘I heard the children playing,’ I said. ‘Do they have any lawns to play on?’
‘They have a big field.’ She nodded. ‘I expect you’ll love that – I think it’s even bigger than the lawns you showed us at Field House.’
I grinned.
‘When can I start school?’
‘As soon as you’re five. So that’s in November, but you have to wait till the start of the next term after that, which means you will start in January.’
‘When’s January?’ I asked her.
‘After Christmas.’
I had no idea how long away that was, but at least I now had something to look forward to: school sounded like the best place to be.
After our mid-morning tea break – it was never coffee, always tea – Pearl opened the front door and took me out onto the little piece of concrete she called their drive. Sure enough, there were two girls sitting on the adjoining piece of concrete, outside their house, which was on the other corner at our end of the avenue.
‘Go and tell them your name,’ suggested Pearl.
So, I walked across.
‘I’m Richard and I’ve come to live here.’
‘Oh, that’s nice,’ said the older of the two. ‘My name is Jacqueline,’ she added with a friendly smile. ‘And this is my little sister, Susan. You can come and sit down with us, if you like. Susan can’t go very far, so we usually just sit out here and play with things.’
We were soon chatting away. I discovered that Jacqueline was about a year older than me and Susan a year younger. Susan had an unusual look about her face, but I didn’t take any notice really. We had several children at Field House who had disabilities and we had been taught to just be normal with them and include them as much as possible in our games, so I did the same with Susan. She seemed a happy child, always smiling and friendly. Jacqueline was marvellous with her – protective, but also encouraging her to do new things.
‘It’s nearly the end of the holidays and I’ll be going back to school soon,’ said Jacqueline. ‘But Susan will still be at home, so maybe you could sit with her sometimes when I’m not here?’
‘Yes, of course,’ I replied, smiling at Susan, who didn’t say anything, but I could tell she seemed pleased.
Jacqueline told me about some of the other children who lived down the road.
‘I’m not sure how much I can play today,’ I said, ‘because I only arrived yesterday, so I’m just getting to know everything, but I hope I’ll be let out to play here most days.’
‘Oh, that’s good,’ said Jacqueline. ‘If I see any of the other boys, I’ll tell them you’re new here and they might come and call for you to come out and play with them.’
‘Thank you, that would be nice.’
Pearl opened the front door and called me in for lunch, so I didn’t dawdle. I just said goodbye to the girls and went straight in.
‘Wash your hands,’ she said.
‘We used to wash our hands before lunch at Field House too,’ I said.
‘Good! Then we can sit down together to eat.’
I was a bit puzzled. There was no mouth-watering smell of steak pie, or apple crumble, as there would have been at Field House. In fact, I couldn’t really smell anything, other than bleach. So, what were we having for lunch? It was always a big cooked meal there, the main meal of the day. But here it was sandwiches, either cheese or ham or occasionally both, if I was lucky. What a disappointment! Almost starving hungry by now, I knew I just had to accept what I was given. Maybe there would be a cooked meal for me tonight – I could only hope.
We finished lunch with a cup of tea.
‘I know you liked your gardens at Field House and you helped with sowing and collecting the vegetables,’ said Pearl. ‘I’m afraid we have only a little garden here and we haven’t done anything with it so far.’ She paused. ‘Would you like to have part of our garden to grow things in? You could grow some flowers and maybe some vegetables and fruits too. What do you think?’
‘Oh, yes, please,’ I said, quite excited at the thought. ‘But I might need some help.’
‘Well, I could help you,’ offered Pearl, with an enthusiastic smile. ‘I’d really like to have a pretty garden and also to grow things to eat. We could go and buy some tools and various seeds and plants for you to put in. How does that sound?’
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