Kitabı oku: «The SEAL's Baby»
Had McCaffrey really said that he liked kids as long as they were “somebody else’s”?
“Hannah, wait up.” Her sister pushed the stroller at a slight jog to keep up with Hannah’s military stride. “He didn’t mean anything by it. He thinks—”
Hannah stopped short. “I know what he thinks, Samantha.”
“Excuse me?”
“What’s with you? Flirting with Fallon’s father, pretending to be her mother…”
“I never did any of that. He just assumed.”
Hannah took a deep breath, deep enough for the flush of anger and jealousy to fade just a little. She glanced toward McCaffrey, who was still talking to her mother. His assumptions played in to Hannah’s deepest fears—that in the end it would be her sister who would raise Fallon, not her.
Sammy followed her gaze. “Don’t worry. Your secret’s safe. You and Mom are cut from the same cloth.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It means Mom’s going to keep quiet. And you… You button up all your emotions inside that white jacket, and the Navy rewards you for it with those ribbons worn in place of your heart.”
“I’m not emotionless,” Hannah denied. “Do you honestly think I don’t feel anything?”
“Then you deserve a Purple Heart. Because if you’re bleeding nobody knows it. Least of all him.”
Dear Reader,
Women make up about 15 percent of today’s active and reserve military, nearly double that of two decades ago when I enlisted in the United States Navy. One of the proudest moments of my service was when I signed into record that I would protect my chaplain with my life. I’m not sure how I was expected to do that, since the only time I’d fired a weapon was in boot camp. In fact, I’d shot off more rounds on my high school rifle team. Thankfully, it never came to that.
It was, however, a sign of things to come. Of course, we know that women have served and sacrificed in some capacity throughout history. But since the end of the first Gulf War 90 percent of military jobs have been open to women. The Pentagon’s “risk rule” assessment no longer applies and only Special Forces have closed their ranks—with the exception of pilots.
I wanted to explore that exception by taking things one step further. What happens when a single mother goes to war? Who takes care of the baby? How does she handle the separation? This book is about a woman who makes some tough choices to answer the call to duty.
I love to hear from readers. You can write to me in care of Harlequin, at my e-mail address Rogenna@aol.com, or visit my Web site, www.rogennabrewer.com.
Sincerely,
Rogenna Brewer
The Seal’s Baby
Rogenna Brewer
For all women who have served their country.
Especially my fellow RomVets loopers—
talented women writers who served in the armed forces.
And my WhatsBrewin and CrewBrew loops—voracious
romance readers who love men and women in uniform.
Commander, Helicopter Combat Support
(Special) Squadron Nine
requests the pleasure of your company at the
Change of Command and
Retirement Ceremony
at which
Captain Jon Jordan Loring,
United States Navy
will be relieved by
Lieutenant Commander Hannah C. Stanton,
United States Navy Reserve (Active)
on Friday, the twenty-fifth of July at ten o’clock
Hangar Nine, Naval Air Station North Island
Coronado, California
| RSVP | Uniform |
| (619)545-XXXX | Service Dress Whites |
Reception
immediately following the ceremony
Officers’ Club, Naval Air Station North Island
Coronado, California
| RSVP | Uniform |
| Card Enclosed | Service Dress Whites |
—————————————————
—————————————
RSVP.
Commander, SEAL Team Eleven
Commander Mike “Mac” McCaffrey,
United States Navy
_______________________will accept
_________________________will be unable
to accept the invitation of the
Commander, Helicopter Combat Support
(Special) Squadron Nine
to attend the reception following the Change of
Command and
Retirement Ceremony
CONTENTS
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER ONE
NAVAL AMPHIBIOUS BASE
Coronado, California
THE ONLY EASY DAY was yesterday. Commander Mike McCaffrey knew the Navy SEAL motto well. He’d just set foot inside Naval Special Warfare Command after five weeks on San Clemente Island, playing bad guy for the BUD/S in training. He still wore woodland-green cammies, complete with war paint, and toted his gear. The thud of heavy boots and raised voices bounced off the walls behind him as Bravo Squad entered to lighten their loads.
“Bravo Eleven, stow it! And blow it!” he called over his shoulder to seven of the best men he’d ever served with.
They knew what he meant. Weekend liberty for the enlisted. Shore leave for the officers. A chance to blow their wads, paycheck or otherwise.
A collective “hoo-yah!” followed the order.
“Hoo-yah,” Mike responded, unsure of his own plans for his first duty-free weekend in months. A two-inch thick T-bone ranked at the top of his list. A baked potato with all the fixin’s and an ice-cold beer to wash it down. It sure as hell beat endless rations of MRE. Uncle Sam’s Meals Ready-to-Eat weren’t exactly his idea of home cookin’.
Stopping by the central office to pick up his pigeonholed mail, Mike glanced at the invitation on top. Noting today’s date for the Change of Command Ceremony, he was about to deep-six it without even breaking his stride when the relieving officer’s name stopped him short.
Hannah.
He backtracked toward the yeoman manning the duty desk. “When did this come in?”
“Sir?” The yeoman looked up. “A couple weeks ago, I think.”
“Do I have any messages from a Lieutenant Commander Stanton?” He kept it formal even though any pretense of formality had been stripped once he’d gotten her naked.
“No, sir.” The yeoman shook his head. “The only messages are with your mail. Except for one or two and the dailies—they’re all from Commander, Naval Special Warfare.”
Mike responded with a curt nod and continued down the hall. When he reached his office, he dumped his gear and shut the door behind him. Tossing the rest of the bundled mail to his desk, he held on to the invitation. A quick check of his watch told him what he already knew, he was at least a week too late to RSVP, not to mention the fact that the proceedings had started ten minutes ago. And these things always started on time.
If the Seahawk had picked them up as scheduled he might have made it. Hell, he could have swum the sixty-eight nautical miles in the time they’d spent waiting for the bird this morning.
But it wasn’t Mac-Ass-Saving Time. He couldn’t turn the clock back one hour let alone one year. If he could there’d be a lot of things he’d change about the past, but Hannah wouldn’t be one of them—except maybe he’d savor the moment a little longer.
Twisting his watchband, he wondered if it had been her intention to shackle him with a constant reminder when she’d sent him the damn thing.
Forget?
How could he when her last words to him played like the persistent rattle of urgent Intel coming over his headset? No regrets, McCaffrey.
He tossed the invitation to the trash before he conjured up images of soft curves and satin sheets to go along with the voices in his head. As he rounded his desk he dug out the invitation again. He didn’t know what to make of it.
Reservists were being called to active duty by the shipload. Hell, he’d spent the better part of the past twelve months in parts unknown, or at least unspoken. Doing the unspeakable. The Teams were recruiting young blood in record numbers and calling up reserve forces. Activated civilian-sailors were being deployed right along with regular Sea, Air and Land Special Ops. The same would be true for the Wings.
But Hannah? Commander, Helicopter Combat Support (Special) Squadron Nine?
Emphasis on Special Warfare.
A part of him, a very selfish part, was almost glad.
She’d be activated a year or two at least. Which meant they’d be working together, not just training together two weeks a year in the Nevada desert.
Of course that complicated matters. Because the smartest thing she’d ever done was kiss him goodbye.
He shuffled through the rest of his mail and messages while his brain tried to sort out the situation and put it in perspective. She’d be here. They’d be working together. Period.
Too bad that set his pulse into overdrive.
Testing the limits of his self-control, he slammed on the brakes by putting the emphasis back on work. He sat down at his desk, rolled his shoulder to ease the damage done by sleeping on the cold, hard ground, then turned his energies to putting Hannah out of his head.
While processing his mail, he stalled at a message from HCS-9. Had Hannah called after all? That was one possibility. Though in all likelihood, Loring, or someone from Loring’s office, had decided to follow up on the invitation. But Mike had Hannah on the brain and his mind held on to that one possibility.
He looked up from the slip of paper to stare at his Choker Whites still in the dry-cleaning bag hanging on the back of his office door. If he were looking for a sign, his Service Dress Whites would be it. Normally the uniform hung in the back of his closet, worn only on those rare occasions when he dressed to impress.
But he wasn’t looking for a sign.
Was he?
Shaking free of the notion, he reached for the routing envelope containing the daily SOPA messages and got back to work. The Senior Officer Present Afloat coordinated information among the tenant ship and shore commands in and around the San Diego area. The top message read:
CAPT JJ LORING, USN, WILL BE RELIEVED AS COMMANDER, HCS-9 BY LCDR HC STANTON, USNR, IN CHANGE OF COMMAND/RETIREMENT CEREMONIES 1000 25 JUL AT HANGAR 9 NASNI. ALL INTERESTED PERSONNEL AND THEIR SPOUSES ARE CORDIALLY INVITED TO ATTEND. UNIFORM FOR ATTENDEES IS AS FOLLOWS: SERVICE DRESS WHITES. REQ SOPA ADMIN PASS TO ALL SHIP AND SHORE ACTIVITIES SAN DIEGO AREA.
The Commander, Naval Special Warfare Command had attached a hand written Post-it. “I’ll save you a seat.”
While not a direct order, one was implied—a sign Mike couldn’t ignore.
“Ah, hell.” He scrubbed a hand over his stubbled, grease-painted kisser. He’d just run out of excuses. Or found the excuse he was looking for.
There’d be no easy out. And no easy day. At least not today. Because today he’d come face-to-face with the woman he’d spent the past three hundred and sixty-five yesterdays trying to forget.
NAVAL AIR STATION NORTH ISLAND
Coronado, California
FROM THE BACK SEAT of her staff car, idling in a line of staff cars, Lieutenant Commander Hannah C. Stanton peeled back a white glove to check her watch. Resigned to her fate, she braced herself with a sigh. These things never started on time, or at least it seemed that way.
In the distance a gull soared above the fleet of gray ladies harbored in San Diego Bay. Following its flight out to sea, Hannah’s gaze drifted in the general direction of San Clemente Island. Once again, she found herself fiddling with the band of her Chase-Durer. She’d indulged after receiving orders to active duty. The jeweler’s Special Forces collection had prompted her to buy another as a gift.
Impulse control was not her strong suit. At least not when it came to jewelry stores and a certain SPECWAR Operator. But with a little luck and a lot of help from the helicopter pilots over at HCS-5, McCaffrey would be a no-show and the case of B. Stefanouris ouzo it cost her would be worth it.
Even though Commander, SEAL Team Eleven hadn’t bothered to RSVP, she couldn’t take the chance he’d come. He had a habit of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Today’s Change of Command Ceremony qualified as both. And if anyone knew two wrongs didn’t make a right, she did.
Banishing McCaffrey from her mind almost as quickly as he’d vanished from her bed, she sat back and tried to relax. An impossible task with the Navy’s Social Usage And Protocol Handbook on the seat beside her. She’d read it cover to cover half a dozen times. For every rule there was an exception. For every exception there was an exception.
In this case she was the exception, a female commander in the male-dominated world of SPECWAR. One misstep and she’d embarrass her entire sex, not to mention her new command. All eyes were on her, waiting for her to stumble, if not flat out fall.
She shuddered as cold air blasted her from the vent. Despite the chill, her palms were sweating through her gloves. The enormity of the situation made her long for civilian life. She had to keep reminding herself she’d trained for this. Well, not this.
She’d trained to fly Seahawks, the Navy’s version of the Hawk Class helicopter, for Combat Search and Rescue and Special Warfare Combat Support. But CSAR and SPECWAR ops were a far cry from all this pomp and circumstance. Further still from her safe little niche in the civilian world. Of course how safe would she feel ignoring the danger to her country? She’d much rather be on the front lines doing her duty, and doing it well enough to bring one more soldier or sailor home.
The driver inched the car forward, then stopped. The door opened. The waiting officer offered his free arm while keeping his sword to his side with the other. She accepted with the lightest touch.
Primly keeping her knees together, she swung her legs around and stepped white heels to the curb in a ladylike gesture that did her mother and the Navy proud.
Almost.
“I can take it from here, Spence.” She dismissed her dashing co-pilot.
“Sure thing.” The younger man winked in understanding as he took a step back.
Billy Idol lyrics in her head, she looked over her own White Wedding—or the closest she’d ever come to the real thing—and hoped she wasn’t committing career suicide. “Calypso, what have you done?”
She’d been tagged Calypso—after the sea nymph—while still flying CH-46 Sea Knights off the aircraft carrier USS Enterprise. On her first SAR mission she’d saved half a dozen stranded Greek fishermen from their sinking boat. Despite the increasing risk from hazardous weather conditions she’d hoisted every last man and the ship’s mutt aboard the helicopter. The grateful sailors had toasted her with a bottle of ouzo they’d salvaged from the wreckage, convinced only one of the Titan’s own could have pulled off the stunt.
They didn’t know how right they were.
At least Calypso had forever replaced Bubbles, the name a less-than-PC instructor had cursed her with in flight school. She hated that it made her sound like a stripper. But more than that she hated that it called attention to her weakest area in training—water.
One panic attack while upside down in the Dilbert Dunker, and she’d become infamous for those tiny little oxygen bubbles that rose to the surface when she hadn’t. Worse than almost drowning, worse than Navy swimmers having to rescue her from the simulated cockpit, was having to do it all over again or wash out of the program.
She’d made it out of the harness and to the surface on her second go-round and every time since when she updated her quals. But not without that feeling of utter panic.
That dunk tank was easy compared to this.
She took a last deep breath before taking her next career plunge.
Assuming command was very much like a marriage. It required commitment and, in this case, compromise. The only thing missing was her bouquet. And, of course, there was no groom caught in the crosshairs of her sights.
And no father of the bride at her side.
Hannah stepped onto the white carpet. Alone.
So much for embarrassing missteps. She’d now committed a major faux pas. With deliberate pride.
Pride goeth before the fall. So you damn well better not trip all over it, Stanton.
A pair of side boys, the appropriate honors for a lieutenant commander, stood at attention. On the Executive Officer’s command they rendered sharp hand salutes. Two gongs sounded. Then the XO, as Master of Ceremonies, announced her arrival.
The handbook said single ladies were to be escorted, but single female officers fell into a gray area. Because nowhere in that book did it say single male officers had to be escorted down the aisle.
First impressions were important. In marriage as in life, one should start out as one intended to go along. For Hannah that meant going without leaning on any man.
One last gong followed her march through the white-topped VIP tent. Despite her bravado, she missed her father more than she had since that day two Naval officers had shown up at their door. She would have liked to hear him say he was proud of her today.
Climbing the steps to the red-white-and-blue-swagged dais, she reached her seat to the left of Captain Loring. Admiral Riker, the highest-ranking official taking part in the ceremony, sat to Loring’s right. The chaplain sat to her left and the XO stood at a podium to the far right. The podium in the center remained open for their use.
“All rise for the national anthem,” the XO requested.
As she rendered honors to the flag, Hannah got her first good look at the assembled crowd. The squadron stood by in formation. The guests got to their feet from uniform rows of folding chairs. Except for a white rose, the first chair to the left of the aisle remained empty, in memory of Captain Loring’s deceased wife. The second chair held the folded triangle that had adorned the casket of Hannah’s father. Her mother, Rosemary Stanton, pressed a kiss to the bud she held and placed it on the flag beside her before covering her heart with her hand.
After that, everything became a blur set to band music as Hannah blinked back tears. Sometimes sacrifices were made on the battlefield. But just as often they were made on the home front.
Her younger sister Sammy, bouncing baby in her arms, stood beside their mother. The three-month-old needing all the attention was Hannah’s own precious daughter.
Fortunately her mother and sister were willing to go above and beyond the call of duty. If Sammy hadn’t been able to move to California, Hannah as a single mom would have been forced to leave her daughter behind with her family in Colorado.
Adventure aside, the United States Navy was a job 24/7.
She had to be deployable.
No excuses. Not even little ones. Like wanting to spend time with her baby girl.
Or big ones. Like wanting to keep her daughter from knowing the pain of losing a parent.
“The Star Spangled Banner” ended, and the XO requested everyone remain standing for the Chaplain’s invocation.
Hannah mouthed the words thank you to her mother and sister.
She had a two-year obligation to Uncle Sam and the two hundred men and women of HCS-9. In answering the call to duty she’d given up more than family time and social ties, more than a mid-six-figure salary in the aerospace industry and a plot of real estate in the Rocky Mountains. She’d given up her peace of mind. Because sooner or later she’d run into McCaffrey and out of excuses.
When she did, she’d need her family more than ever.
They’d been there for her when he hadn’t.
Seated once again, her gaze shifted to the audience. She tried hard not to make the comparison between the empty chair reserved for her father and the empty chair among the SEAL commanders. McCaffrey wasn’t here, but he’d been safe and sound when the Fire Hawks of HCS-5 picked him up from San Clemente Island. And as long as he stayed away so was their daughter.
The baby slept through most of the speeches, but woke fussy. Already showing signs of independence, like her mother, a chubby fist found its way to a rosebud mouth in the time it took Auntie Sammy to dig through the diaper bag for a bottle. Hannah somehow managed to maintain her military bearing even as every maternal instinct she possessed made her want to leap from the platform. But her complement of uniforms didn’t include Wonder Woman or Super Mom costumes, just a flight suit and the wings of a Naval Special Warfare Aviator.
Captain Loring stepped center stage, the cue for the participants on the dais to stand once again.
“The Change of Command Ceremony is a Navy tradition without equal in the Army or Air Force,” he began. “Custom has established that this observance be both formal and impressive while at its heart is the reading of official orders.” After a lengthy speech, he got around to doing just that. Afterward he turned to Hannah. “Ma’am, I am ready to be relieved.”
Hannah stepped forward and read her orders. As courtesy demanded of the relieving officer, she kept her comments brief. When finished, she turned to Loring and executed a sharp salute. “I relieve you, sir.”
Captain Loring returned the salute. “I stand relieved.”
The Color Guard marched forward. Loring ordered his command pennant lowered, followed by Hannah ordering hers broken, readying it for unfurling. On command, the Color Guard raised her banner. Wind snapped it to attention. Above the command flag for the North Island Night Hawks of HCS-9, the simple white pennant bearing the silver eagle of a captain had been replaced by the silver oak leaf of a lieutenant commander.
Hannah turned to salute her immediate superior in the Chain of Command—Admiral Riker, Commander, Helicopter Wing Reserve. “Lieutenant Commander Hannah C. Stanton reporting for duty, sir.”
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