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Again, it may appear rather strange that Robert should be able to talk in such an easy manner to his grandmother, seeing he had been guilty of concealment, if not of deception. But she had never been so actively severe towards Robert as she had been towards her own children. To him she was wonderfully gentle for her nature, and sought to exercise the saving harshness which she still believed necessary, solely in keeping from him every enjoyment of life which the narrowest theories as to the rule and will of God could set down as worldly. Frivolity, of which there was little in this sober boy, was in her eyes a vice; loud laughter almost a crime; cards, and novelles, as she called them, were such in her estimation, as to be beyond my powers of characterization. Her commonest injunction was, ‘Noo be douce,’—that is sober—uttered to the soberest boy she could ever have known. But Robert was a large-hearted boy, else this life would never have had to be written; and so, through all this, his deepest nature came into unconscious contact with that of his noble old grandmother. There was nothing small about either of them. Hence Robert was not afraid of her. He had got more of her nature in him than of her son’s. She and his own mother had more share in him than his father, though from him he inherited good qualities likewise.
He had concealed his doings with Shargar simply because he believed they could not be done if his grandmother knew of his plans. Herein he did her less than justice. But so unpleasant was concealment to his nature, and so much did the dread of discovery press upon him, that the moment he saw the thing had come out into the daylight of her knowledge, such a reaction of relief took place as, operating along with his deep natural humour and the comical circumstance of the case, gave him an ease and freedom of communication which he had never before enjoyed with her. Likewise there was a certain courage in the boy which, if his own natural disposition had not been so quiet that he felt the negations of her rule the less, might have resulted in underhand doings of a very different kind, possibly, from those of benevolence.
He must have been a strange being to look at, I always think, at this point of his development, with his huge nose, his black eyes, his lanky figure, and his sober countenance, on which a smile was rarely visible, but from which burst occasional guffaws of laughter.
At the words ‘droont himsel’,’ Mrs. Falconer started.
‘Rin, laddie, rin,’ she said, ‘an’ fess him back direckly! Betty! Betty! gang wi’ Robert and help him to luik for Shargar. Ye auld, blin’, doited body, ‘at says ye can see, and canna tell a lad frae a lass!’
‘Na, na, grannie. I’m no gaein’ oot wi’ a dame like her trailin’ at my fut. She wad be a sair hinnerance to me. Gin Shargar be to be gotten—that is, gin he be in life—I s’ get him wantin’ Betty. And gin ye dinna ken him for the crater ye fand i’ the garret, he maun be sair changed sin’ I left him there.’
‘Weel, weel, Robert, gang yer wa’s. But gin ye be deceivin’ me, may the Lord—forgie ye, Robert, for sair ye’ll need it.’
‘Nae fear o’ that, grannie,’ returned Robert, from the street door, and vanished.
Mrs. Falconer stalked—No, I will not use that word of the gait of a woman like my friend’s grandmother. ‘Stately stept she butt the hoose’ to Betty. She felt strangely soft at the heart, Robert not being yet proved a reprobate; but she was not therefore prepared to drop one atom of the dignity of her relation to her servant.
‘Betty,’ she said, ‘ye hae made a mistak.’
‘What’s that, mem?’ returned Betty.
‘It wasna a lass ava; it was that crater Shargar.’
‘Ye said it was a lass yersel’ first, mem.’
‘Ye ken weel eneuch that I’m short sichtit, an’ hae been frae the day o’ my birth.’
‘I’m no auld eneuch to min’ upo’ that, mem,’ returned Betty revengefully, but in an undertone, as if she did not intend her mistress to hear. And although she heard well enough, her mistress adopted the subterfuge. ‘But I’ll sweir the crater I saw was in cwytes (petticoats).’
‘Sweir not at all, Betty. Ye hae made a mistak ony gait.’
‘Wha says that, mem?’
‘Robert.’
‘Aweel, gin he be tellin’ the trowth—’
‘Daur ye mint (insinuate) to me that a son o’ mine wad tell onything but the trowth?’
‘Na, na, mem. But gin that wasna a quean, ye canna deny but she luikit unco like ane, and no a blate (bashful) ane eyther.’
‘Gin he was a loon, he wadna luik like a blate lass, ony gait, Betty. And there ye’re wrang.’
‘Weel, weel, mem, hae ‘t yer ain gait,’ muttered Betty.
‘I wull hae ‘t my ain gait,’ retorted her mistress, ‘because it’s the richt gait, Betty. An’ noo ye maun jist gang up the stair, an’ get the place cleant oot an’ put in order.’
‘I wull do that, mem.’
‘Ay wull ye. An’ luik weel aboot, Betty, you that can see sae weel, in case there suld be ony cattle aboot; for he’s nane o’ the cleanest, yon dame!’
‘I wull do that, mem.’
‘An’ gang direckly, afore he comes back.’
‘Wha comes back?’
‘Robert, of course.’
‘What for that?’
‘’Cause he’s comin’ wi’ ‘im.’
‘What he ‘s comin’ wi’ ‘im?’
‘Ca’ ‘t she, gin ye like. It’s Shargar.’
‘Wha says that?’ exclaimed Betty, sniffing and starting at once.
‘I say that. An’ ye gang an’ du what I tell ye, this minute.’
Betty obeyed instantly; for the tone in which the last words were spoken was one she was not accustomed to dispute. She only muttered as she went, ‘It ‘ll a’ come upo’ me as usual.’
Betty’s job was long ended before Robert returned. Never dreaming that Shargar could have gone back to the old haunt, he had looked for him everywhere before that occurred to him as a last chance. Nor would he have found him even then, for he would not have thought of his being inside the deserted house, had not Shargar heard his footsteps in the street.
He started up from his stool saying, ‘That’s Bob!’ but was not sure enough to go to the door: he might be mistaken; it might be the landlord! He heard the feet stop and did not move; but when he heard them begin to go away again, he rushed to the door, and bawled on the chance at the top of his voice, ‘Bob! Bob!’
‘Eh! ye crater!’ said Robert, ‘ir ye there efter a’?
‘Eh! Bob,’ exclaimed Shargar, and burst into tears. ‘I thocht ye wad come efter me.’
‘Of coorse,’ answered Robert, coolly. ‘Come awa’ hame.’
‘Whaur til?’ asked Shargar in dismay.
‘Hame to yer ain bed at my grannie’s.’
‘Na, na,’ said Shargar, hurriedly, retreating within the door of the hovel. ‘Na, na, Bob, lad, I s’ no du that. She’s an awfu’ wuman, that grannie o’ yours. I canna think hoo ye can bide wi’ her. I’m weel oot o’ her grups, I can tell ye.’
It required a good deal of persuasion, but at last Robert prevailed upon Shargar to return. For was not Robert his tower of strength? And if Robert was not frightened at his grannie, or at Betty, why should he be? At length they entered Mrs. Falconer’s parlour, Robert dragging in Shargar after him, having failed altogether in encouraging him to enter after a more dignified fashion.
It must be remembered that although Shargar was still kilted, he was not the less trowsered, such as the trowsers were. It makes my heart ache to think of those trowsers—not believing trowsers essential to blessedness either, but knowing the superiority of the old Roman costume of the kilt.
No sooner had Mrs. Falconer cast her eyes upon him than she could not but be convinced of the truth of Robert’s averment.
‘Here he is, grannie; and gin ye bena saitisfeed yet—’
‘Haud yer tongue, laddie. Ye hae gi’en me nae cause to doobt yer word.’
Indeed, during Robert’s absence, his grandmother had had leisure to perceive of what an absurd folly she had been guilty. She had also had time to make up her mind as to her duty with regard to Shargar; and the more she thought about it, the more she admired the conduct of her grandson, and the better she saw that it would be right to follow his example. No doubt she was the more inclined to this benevolence that she had as it were received her grandson back from the jaws of death.
When the two lads entered, from her arm-chair Mrs. Falconer examined Shargar from head to foot with the eye of a queen on her throne, and a countenance immovable in stern gentleness, till Shargar would gladly have sunk into the shelter of the voluminous kilt from the gaze of those quiet hazel eyes.
At length she spoke:
‘Robert, tak him awa’.’
‘Whaur’ll I tak him till, grannie?’
‘Tak him up to the garret. Betty ‘ill ha’ ta’en a tub o’ het water up there ‘gen this time, and ye maun see that he washes himsel’ frae heid to fut, or he s’ no bide an ‘oor i’ my hoose. Gang awa’ an’ see till ‘t this minute.’
But she detained them yet awhile with various directions in regard of cleansing, for the carrying out of which Robert was only too glad to give his word. She dismissed them at last, and Shargar by and by found himself in bed, clean, and, for the first time in his life, between a pair of linen sheets—not altogether to his satisfaction, for mere order and comfort were substituted for adventure and success.
But greater trials awaited him. In the morning he was visited by Brodie, the tailor, and Elshender, the shoemaker, both of whom he held in awe as his superiors in the social scale, and by them handled and measured from head to feet, the latter included; after which he had to lie in bed for three days, till his clothes came home; for Betty had carefully committed every article of his former dress to the kitchen fire, not without a sense of pollution to the bottom of her kettle. Nor would he have got them for double the time, had not Robert haunted the tailor, as well as the soutar, like an evil conscience, till they had finished them. Thus grievous was Shargar’s introduction to the comforts of respectability. Nor did he like it much better when he was dressed, and able to go about; for not only was he uncomfortable in his new clothes, which, after the very easy fit of the old ones, felt like a suit of plate-armour, but he was liable to be sent for at any moment by the awful sovereignty in whose dominions he found himself, and which, of course, proceeded to instruct him not merely in his own religious duties, but in the religious theories of his ancestors, if, indeed, Shargar’s ancestors ever had any. And now the Shorter Catechism seemed likely to be changed into the Longer Catechism; for he had it Sundays as well as Saturdays, besides Alleine’s Alarm to the Unconverted, Baxter’s Saint’s Rest, Erskine’s Gospel Sonnets, and other books of a like kind. Nor was it any relief to Shargar that the gloom was broken by the incomparable Pilgrim’s Progress and the Holy War, for he cared for none of these things. Indeed, so dreary did he find it all, that his love to Robert was never put to such a severe test. But for that, he would have run for it. Twenty times a day was he so tempted.
At school, though it was better, yet it was bad. For he was ten times as much laughed at for his new clothes, though they were of the plainest, as he had been for his old rags. Still he bore all the pangs of unwelcome advancement without a grumble, for the sake of his friend alone, whose dog he remained as much as ever. But his past life of cold and neglect, and hunger and blows, and homelessness and rags, began to glimmer as in the distance of a vaporous sunset, and the loveless freedom he had then enjoyed gave it a bloom as of summer-roses.
I wonder whether there may not have been in some unknown corner of the old lady’s mind this lingering remnant of paganism, that, in reclaiming the outcast from the error of his ways, she was making an offering acceptable to that God whom her mere prayers could not move to look with favour upon her prodigal son Andrew. Nor from her own acknowledged religious belief as a background would it have stuck so fiery off either. Indeed, it might have been a partial corrective of some yet more dreadful articles of her creed,—which she held, be it remembered, because she could not help it.
CHAPTER XI. PRIVATE INTERVIEWS
The winter passed slowly away. Robert and Shargar went to school together, and learned their lessons together at Mrs. Falconer’s table. Shargar soon learned to behave with tolerable propriety; was obedient, as far as eye-service went; looked as queer as ever; did what he pleased, which was nowise very wicked, the moment he was out of the old lady’s sight; was well fed and well cared for; and when he was asked how he was, gave the invariable answer: ‘Middlin’.’ He was not very happy.
There was little communication in words between the two boys, for the one had not much to say, and the pondering fits of the other grew rather than relaxed in frequency and intensity. Yet amongst chance acquaintances in the town Robert had the character of a wag, of which he was totally unaware himself. Indeed, although he had more than the ordinary share of humour, I suspect it was not so much his fun as his earnest that got him the character; for he would say such altogether unheard-of and strange things, that the only way they were capable of accounting for him was as a humorist.
‘Eh!’ he said once to Elshender, during a pause common to a thunder-storm and a lesson on the violin ‘eh! wadna ye like to be up in that clood wi’ a spaud, turnin’ ower the divots and catchin’ the flashes lyin’ aneath them like lang reid fiery worms?’
‘Ay, man, but gin ye luik up to the cloods that gait, ye’ll never be muckle o’ a fiddler.’
This was merely an outbreak of that insolence of advice so often shown to the young from no vantage-ground but that of age and faithlessness, reminding one of the ‘jigging fool’ who interfered between Brutus and Cassius on the sole ground that he had seen more years than they. As if ever a fiddler that did not look up to the clouds would be anything but a catgut-scraper! Even Elshender’s fiddle was the one angel that held back the heavy curtain of his gross nature, and let the sky shine through. He ought to have been set fiddling every Sunday morning, and from his fiddling dragged straight to church. It was the only thing man could have done for his conversion, for then his heart was open. But I fear the prayers would have closed it before the sermon came. He should rather have been compelled to take his fiddle to church with him, and have a gentle scrape at it in the pauses of the service; only there are no such pauses in the service, alas! And Dooble Sanny, though not too religious to get drunk occasionally, was a great deal too religious to play his fiddle on the Sabbath: he would not willingly anger the powers above; but it was sometimes a sore temptation, especially after he got possession of old Mr. Falconer’s wonderful instrument.
‘Hoots, man!’ he would say to Robert; ‘dinna han’le her as gin she war an egg-box. Tak haud o’ her as gin she war a leevin’ crater. Ye maun jist straik her canny, an’ wile the music oot o’ her; for she’s like ither women: gin ye be rouch wi’ her, ye winna get a word oot o’ her. An’ dinna han’le her that gait. She canna bide to be contred an’ pu’d this gait and that gait.—Come to me, my bonny leddy. Ye’ll tell me yer story, winna ye, my dauty (pet)?’
And with every gesture as if he were humouring a shy and invalid girl, he would, as he said, wile the music out of her in sobs and wailing, till the instrument, gathering courage in his embrace, grew gently merry in its confidence, and broke at last into airy laughter. He always spoke, and apparently thought, of his violin as a woman, just as a sailor does of his craft. But there was nothing about him, except his love for music and its instruments, to suggest other than a most uncivilized nature. That which was fine in him was constantly checked and held down by the gross; the merely animal overpowered the spiritual; and it was only upon occasion that his heavenly companion, the violin, could raise him a few feet above the mire and the clay. She never succeeded in setting his feet on a rock; while, on the contrary, he often dragged her with him into the mire of questionable company and circumstances. Worthy Mr. Falconer would have been horrified to see his umquhile modest companion in such society as that into which she was now introduced at times. But nevertheless the soutar was a good and patient teacher; and although it took Robert rather more than a fortnight to redeem his pledge to Shargar, he did make progress. It could not, however, be rapid, seeing that an hour at a time, two evenings in the week, was all that he could give to the violin. Even with this moderation, the risk of his absence exciting his grandmother’s suspicion and inquiry was far from small.
And now, were those really faded old memories of his grandfather and his merry kindness, all so different from the solemn benevolence of his grandmother, which seemed to revive in his bosom with the revivification of the violin? The instrument had surely laid up a story in its hollow breast, had been dreaming over it all the time it lay hidden away in the closet, and was now telling out its dreams about the old times in the ear of the listening boy. To him also it began to assume something of that mystery and life which had such a softening, and, for the moment at least, elevating influence on his master.
At length the love of the violin had grown upon him so, that he could not but cast about how he might enjoy more of its company. It would not do, for many reasons, to go oftener to the shoemaker’s, especially now that the days were getting longer. Nor was that what he wanted. He wanted opportunity for practice. He wanted to be alone with the creature, to see if she would not say something more to him than she had ever said yet. Wafts and odours of melodies began to steal upon him ere he was aware in the half lights between sleeping and waking: if he could only entice them to creep out of the violin, and once ‘bless his humble ears’ with the bodily hearing of them! Perhaps he might—who could tell? But how? But where?
There was a building in Rothieden not old, yet so deserted that its very history seemed to have come to a standstill, and the dust that filled it to have fallen from the plumes of passing centuries. It was the property of Mrs. Falconer, left her by her husband. Trade had gradually ebbed away from the town till the thread-factory stood unoccupied, with all its machinery rusting and mouldering, just as the work-people had risen and left it one hot, midsummer day, when they were told that their services were no longer required. Some of the thread even remained upon the spools, and in the hollows of some of the sockets the oil had as yet dried only into a paste; although to Robert the desertion of the place appeared immemorial. It stood at a furlong’s distance from the house, on the outskirt of the town. There was a large, neglected garden behind it, with some good fruit-trees, and plenty of the bushes which boys love for the sake of their berries. After grannie’s jam-pots were properly filled, the remnant of these, a gleaning far greater than the gathering, was at the disposal of Robert, and, philosopher although in some measure he was already, he appreciated the privilege. Haunting this garden in the previous summer, he had for the first time made acquaintance with the interior of the deserted factory. The door to the road was always kept locked, and the key of it lay in one of grannie’s drawers; but he had then discovered a back entrance less securely fastened, and with a strange mingling of fear and curiosity had from time to time extended his rambles over what seemed to him the huge desolation of the place. Half of it was well built of stone and lime, but of the other half the upper part was built of wood, which now showed signs of considerable decay. One room opened into another through the length of the place, revealing a vista of machines, standing with an air of the last folding of the wings of silence over them, and the sense of a deeper and deeper sinking into the soundless abyss. But their activity was not so far vanished but that by degrees Robert came to fancy that he had some time or other seen a woman seated at each of those silent powers, whose single hand set the whole frame in motion, with its numberless spindles and spools rapidly revolving—a vague mystery of endless threads in orderly complication, out of which came some desired, to him unknown, result, so that the whole place was full of a bewildering tumult of work, every little reel contributing its share, as the water-drops clashing together make the roar of a tempest. Now all was still as the church on a week-day, still as the school on a Saturday afternoon. Nay, the silence seemed to have settled down like the dust, and grown old and thick, so dead and old that the ghost of the ancient noise had arisen to haunt the place.
Thither would Robert carry his violin, and there would he woo her.
‘I’m thinkin’ I maun tak her wi’ me the nicht, Sanders,’ he said, holding the fiddle lovingly to his bosom, after he had finished his next lesson.
The shoemaker looked blank.
‘Ye’re no gaein’ to desert me, are ye?’
‘Na, weel I wat!’ returned Robert. ‘But I want to try her at hame. I maun get used till her a bittie, ye ken, afore I can du onything wi’ her.’
‘I wiss ye had na brought her here ava. What I am to du wantin’ her!’
‘What for dinna ye get yer ain back?’
‘I haena the siller, man. And, forbye, I doobt I wadna be that sair content wi’ her noo gin I had her. I used to think her gran’. But I’m clean oot o’ conceit o’ her. That bonnie leddy’s ta’en ‘t clean oot o’ me.’
‘But ye canna hae her aye, ye ken, Sanders. She’s no mine. She’s my grannie’s, ye ken.’
‘What’s the use o’ her to her? She pits nae vailue upon her. Eh, man, gin she wad gie her to me, I wad haud her i’ the best o’ shune a’ the lave o’ her days.’
‘That wadna be muckle, Sanders, for she hasna had a new pair sin’ ever I mind.’
‘But I wad haud Betty in shune as weel.’
‘Betty pays for her ain shune, I reckon.’
‘Weel, I wad haud you in shune, and yer bairns, and yer bairns’ bairns,’ cried the soutar, with enthusiasm.
‘Hoot, toot, man! Lang or that ye’ll be fiddlin’ i’ the new Jeroozlem.’
‘Eh, man!’ said Alexander, looking up—he had just cracked the roset-ends off his hands, for he had the upper leather of a boot in the grasp of the clams, and his right hand hung arrested on its blind way to the awl—‘duv ye think there’ll be fiddles there? I thocht they war a’ hairps, a thing ‘at I never saw, but it canna be up till a fiddle.’
‘I dinna ken,’ answered Robert; ‘but ye suld mak a pint o’ seein’ for yersel’.’
‘Gin I thoucht there wad be fiddles there, faith I wad hae a try. It wadna be muckle o’ a Jeroozlem to me wantin’ my fiddle. But gin there be fiddles, I daursay they’ll be gran’ anes. I daursay they wad gi’ me a new ane—I mean ane as auld as Noah’s ‘at he played i’ the ark whan the de’il cam’ in by to hearken. I wad fain hae a try. Ye ken a’ aboot it wi’ that grannie o’ yours: hoo’s a body to begin?’
‘By giein’ up the drink, man.’
‘Ay—ay—ay—I reckon ye’re richt. Weel, I’ll think aboot it whan ance I’m throu wi’ this job. That’ll be neist ook, or thereabouts, or aiblins twa days efter. I’ll hae some leiser than.’
Before he had finished speaking he had caught up his awl and begun to work vigorously, boring his holes as if the nerves of feeling were continued to the point of the tool, inserting the bristles that served him for needles with a delicacy worthy of soft-skinned fingers, drawing through the rosined threads with a whisk, and untwining them with a crack from the leather that guarded his hands.
‘Gude nicht to ye,’ said Robert, with the fiddle-case under his arm.
The shoemaker looked up, with his hands bound in his threads.
‘Ye’re no gaein’ to tak her frae me the nicht?’
‘Ay am I, but I’ll fess her back again. I’m no gaein’ to Jericho wi’ her.’
‘Gang to Hecklebirnie wi’ her, and that’s three mile ayont hell.’
‘Na; we maun win farther nor that. There canna be muckle fiddlin’ there.’
‘Weel, tak her to the new Jeroozlem. I s’ gang doon to Lucky Leary’s, and fill mysel’ roarin’ fou, an’ it’ll be a’ your wyte (blame).’
‘I doobt ye’ll get the straiks (blows) though. Or maybe ye think Bell ‘ill tak them for ye.’
Dooble Sanny caught up a huge boot, the sole of which was filled with broad-headed nails as thick as they could be driven, and, in a rage, threw it at Robert as he darted out. Through its clang against the door-cheek, the shoemaker heard a cry from the instrument. He cast everything from him and sprang after Robert. But Robert was down the wynd like a long-legged grayhound, and Elshender could only follow like a fierce mastiff. It was love and grief, though, and apprehension and remorse, not vengeance, that winged his heels. He soon saw that pursuit was vain.
‘Robert! Robert!’ he cried; ‘I canna win up wi’ ye. Stop, for God’s sake! Is she hurtit?’
Robert stopped at once.
‘Ye hae made a bonny leddy o’ her—a lameter (cripple) I doobt, like yer wife,’ he answered, with indignation.
‘Dinna be aye flingin’ a man’s fau’ts in ‘s face. It jist maks him ‘at he canna bide himsel’ or you eyther. Lat’s see the bonny crater.’
Robert complied, for he too was anxious. They were now standing in the space in front of Shargar’s old abode, and there was no one to be seen. Elshender took the box, opened it carefully, and peeped in with a face of great apprehension.
‘I thocht that was a’!’ he said with some satisfaction. ‘I kent the string whan I heard it. But we’ll sune get a new thairm till her,’ he added, in a tone of sorrowful commiseration and condolence, as he took the violin from the case, tenderly as if it had been a hurt child.
One touch of the bow, drawing out a goul of grief, satisfied him that she was uninjured. Next a hurried inspection showed him that there was enough of the catgut twisted round the peg to make up for the part that was broken off. In a moment he had fastened it to the tail-piece, tightened and tuned it. Forthwith he took the bow from the case-lid, and in jubilant guise he expatiated upon the wrong he had done his bonny leddy, till the doors and windows around were crowded with heads peering through the dark to see whence the sounds came, and a little child toddled across from one of the lowliest houses with a ha’penny for the fiddler. Gladly would Robert have restored it with interest, but, alas! there was no interest in his bank, for not a ha’penny had he in the world. The incident recalled Sandy to Rothieden and its cares. He restored the violin to its case, and while Robert was fearing he would take it under his arm and walk away with it, handed it back with a humble sigh and a ‘Praise be thankit;’ then, without another word, turned and went to his lonely stool and home ‘untreasured of its mistress.’ Robert went home too, and stole like a thief to his room.
The next day was a Saturday, which, indeed, was the real old Sabbath, or at least the half of it, to the schoolboys of Rothieden. Even Robert’s grannie was Jew enough, or rather Christian enough, to respect this remnant of the fourth commandment—divine antidote to the rest of the godless money-making and soul-saving week—and he had the half-day to himself. So as soon as he had had his dinner, he managed to give Shargar the slip, left him to the inroads of a desolate despondency, and stole away to the old factory-garden. The key of that he had managed to purloin from the kitchen where it hung; nor was there much danger of its absence being discovered, seeing that in winter no one thought of the garden. The smuggling of the violin out of the house was the ‘dearest danger’—the more so that he would not run the risk of carrying her out unprotected, and it was altogether a bulky venture with the case. But by spying and speeding he managed it, and soon found himself safe within the high walls of the garden.
It was early spring. There had been a heavy fall of sleet in the morning, and now the wind blew gustfully about the place. The neglected trees shook showers upon him as he passed under them, trampling down the rank growth of the grass-walks. The long twigs of the wall-trees, which had never been nailed up, or had been torn down by the snow and the blasts of winter, went trailing away in the moan of the fitful wind, and swung back as it sunk to a sigh. The currant and gooseberry bushes, bare and leafless, and ‘shivering all for cold,’ neither reminded him of the feasts of the past summer, nor gave him any hope for the next. He strode careless through it all to gain the door at the bottom. It yielded to a push, and the long grass streamed in over the threshold as he entered. He mounted by a broad stair in the main part of the house, passing the silent clock in one of its corners, now expiating in motionlessness the false accusations it had brought against the work-people, and turned into the chaos of machinery.
I fear that my readers will expect, from the minuteness with which I recount these particulars, that, after all, I am going to describe a rendezvous with a lady, or a ghost at least. I will not plead in excuse that I, too, have been infected with Sandy’s mode of regarding her, but I plead that in the mind of Robert the proceeding was involved in something of that awe and mystery with which a youth approaches the woman he loves. He had not yet arrived at the period when the feminine assumes its paramount influence, combining in itself all that music, colour, form, odour, can suggest, with something infinitely higher and more divine; but he had begun to be haunted with some vague aspirations towards the infinite, of which his attempts on the violin were the outcome. And now that he was to be alone, for the first time, with this wonderful realizer of dreams and awakener of visions, to do with her as he would, to hint by gentle touches at the thoughts that were fluttering in his soul, and listen for her voice that by the echoes in which she strove to respond he might know that she understood him, it was no wonder if he felt an ethereal foretaste of the expectation that haunts the approach of souls.