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CHAPTER SIX
Rome
THE LAST TEAR.
It spilled out as she began to pull herself together.
Enough.
She swore there and then that it would be the last tear she shed over Nico Caruso.
Aurora wiped it from her cheek and crumpled the sodden tissue in disgust.
Alone in her hotel room, with the others on the bus tour, she was bent double with the strength of her tears as she relived that night and the morning after.
Well, she had relived it for the last time and she had embarrassed herself enough over him.
It really was time to move on.
So, instead of peeling another tissue from the box she topped up her lip-gloss over swollen lips and tried to repair the damage her crying binge had caused to her eyes.
She would not sit in her hotel room and mourn him—or rather mourn the fantasy of him—for a moment longer.
It was springtime in Rome.
She downloaded that dating app and scrolled through it, but when she tried to write her profile she gave in and thought, Baby steps, Aurora.
She headed down to the bar, more than a little nervous about walking in alone.
And just as she was doing her best to get over Nico, who did she see walking towards her?
A scowling Nico, who, from his expression, wasn’t expecting to see her either.
‘Aurora.’ He gave a swift nod.
‘Buona sera.’ It took everything she had to greet him with a smile.
‘Buona sera. I thought you were on a bus trip?’
‘No.’ She did not elaborate ‘I’m going to have a drink at the bar.’
‘Alone?’ Nico frowned.
‘Not for long hopefully!’ She smiled at her own little joke. ‘I’ll see you tomorrow.’ Then she corrected herself. ‘Oh, no, I won’t. You’re heading home in the morning.’
‘Here is my home, Aurora.’
‘Ah, but home is where the heart is, Nico. You know that.’
‘I do,’ he agreed. ‘And I shall say it again—here is my home.’
He ordered his head to give her a nod and his legs to turn and walk off, but neither obeyed. And then, even as his common sense was screaming at him to walk away, he spoke. ‘And, given you are in my hometown, let me get you a drink.’
He’d done it again.
Just when she was determined to move on from him he pulled her back to him.
Well, not this time, Aurora told herself. Yes, she would have a drink with him, but she would not be making a fool of herself again.
He was her boss and she would hold on to that fact.
The bar was busy and he put a hand on her upper arm to guide her through. Staff jumped into action and they were taken to a quiet corner table.
‘It’s so busy I thought I’d have to drink at the bar,’ Aurora said. Although that was possibly the reason he had joined her. ‘It’s lucky we got a table.’ That sounded naïve. ‘I mean, I’m glad no one was asked to move to make way for the boss.’
‘It would be poor form to do that to my guests, which is why this table is reserved solely for me.’
He watched as her lips pursed and wondered what he could possibly have said to upset her, for it looked as if she was tempted to get up and walk out.
Aurora was.
His private table did not impress her. In fact she felt a little insulted as she wondered how many other women had sat in this very seat. How many hands had he held across this very table?’ And then she halted herself, for Nico was the last person she could imagine being affectionate.
They ordered their drinks—a spritzer for Aurora and a red wine for Nico—and then sat in tense silence as they waited for them to arrive.
‘Aren’t you going to ask me how your father is?’ Aurora asked.
‘I spoke with him two hours ago and I see his doctor tomorrow.’
‘My mother is taking in his meals while I’m away. In case you were wondering.’
Nico said nothing and Aurora took a deep breath, trying to keep her exasperation in. Reminding herself that Nico did not want to hear anything about home…
She was supposed to be keeping things professional, Aurora told herself. Except his father was fading. Did Nico properly know that?
‘Look, Nico, I know that after all he did to you, you must hate him, but I think—’
‘I don’t,’ Nico interrupted. ‘I love him very much.’
For Aurora the sky turned purple, the floor was now sand and the people in the bar were green.
Everything she knew was gone.
‘I have to accept, though, that he does not want my love. Still, tomorrow I will try again, and I will be told to get lost again.’
Their drinks were brought to them and even after Aurora had taken a sip of hers the revelation had not sunk in.
‘You love him?’
‘Always.’
His response was made in a voice she had never heard. One she did not know how to describe, for it was both decided and resigned.
‘So, no,’ Nico continued, ‘I will not ask you how my father is, because I am in touch with his doctor every day. I know he is failing. I have sent him the lifting chair that you texted me about. And I have a chef in Palermo currently trying to recreate some dinner he keeps speaking about. One that his mother once made. I hope that it will prompt him to eat.’
‘Nico…’
She did not know what to say. Oh, the hell of loving someone who beat you! The hell of loving someone who goaded and taunted you.
‘He seems a little happier,’ she said, and saw his disbelieving look. But she spoke the truth. ‘He seems calmer,’ she told him. ‘Although I have a confession, Nico. I was a very bad carer and bought him some whisky last week. We watched a television show together and we laughed…’
‘Thank you,’ Nico said.
Aurora resisted reaching over and taking his hand. Nico did not like affection, but she ached to give it to him. She attempted to keep some distance, as she told him the painful truth. ‘He’s nearing the end.’
‘I know he is.’
Aurora felt selfish for her assumption that Nico was going home just to avoid her. She sensed he had closed the subject, and so, after a moment’s pensive silence between them, she looked around the lavish bar.
‘Pino will be upset he missed this,’ Aurora said. ‘He wanted to buy you a drink and a meal.’
‘He wanted me to go on the bus tour.’
That made Aurora laugh.
‘I’m meeting them all for breakfast tomorrow, before I fly off.’
‘I wasn’t told.’
‘There’s an invitation being delivered to your rooms at turndown,’ Nico said. ‘And before you tell me that I should not be so formal with old friends, I will explain again that this trip is not about friends visiting Rome. It is work—and I take my work very seriously.’
‘I know,’ Aurora said. ‘And so do your staff. But aside from that fact, we are friends visiting Rome.’
He said nothing.
‘Well, they are your friends,’ she amended, for Nico had once told Aurora that they could never be friends. ‘Whether you want them to be or not.’
Nico’s eyes shuttered, and he wished that it was enough to obliterate the knives of her words—for she was right. Pino et al were his friends.
More than friends.
It takes a village…
And it was true that the people of Silibri had raised him.
He had sat in the park as a terrified child and Bruno Messina had insisted he come back to their home to sleep.
And he had been so hungry at times, too proud to beg, but the emptier his cupboards the more frequent the invitations.
‘Hey, Nico!’ Pino would say. ‘I need some work done in my yard.’
And that had meant supper…
‘Nico,’ Francesca would say. ‘I have made too many biscotti. Take them before they go stale.’
Tomorrow, at breakfast, he would take off his jacket and he would smile and laugh with them. Somehow, before the hotel opened and it was all down to business, he would thank the people who had always been there.
‘Don’t you ever wonder about home?’ Aurora asked.
‘I hear enough of what’s going on,’ Nico said. He didn’t like invasive gossip and exaggerated stories, but then he looked at Aurora. ‘Yes.’
They shared a small smile.
‘How’s Chi-Chi?’ he asked.
‘Still looking for a husband.’
‘Do you ever hear from Antonietta?’
‘Occasionally.’ Aurora nodded, but then she shook her head. ‘Not as much as I would like. I miss her a lot.’
‘You were close,’ he agreed.
‘Yes.’
‘I would like to know what happened at The Wedding that Never Was.’
‘You heard about that?’ Aurora checked.
‘Everyone who has a drop of Sicilian blood probably did!’
Aurora gave a small smile and took a sip of her drink, but she didn’t lean forward in glee and share the details with him. He knew Aurora hurt for her friend.
‘We just sat there in the church…waiting,’ she told him. ‘Waiting and waiting for the bride to arrive.’
‘Did you have any clue that Antonietta wasn’t going to show up?’
‘No.’
‘Aurora…?’ he checked.
‘It’s the truth, Nico. I guessed she wasn’t happy, but I knew no more than I told you that night—’
Whoops! They were trying not to refer to that.
‘I was surprised and a bit hurt that she didn’t ask me to be her bridesmaid. And I knew she wasn’t thrilled at the idea of marrying Sylvester, but her father is so forceful. Both families are.’
‘And so you sat in the church and you waited…?’ Nico prompted.
‘Yes. A car arrived, and then word spread that it was not the bride—just Antonietta’s father. The priest spoke to him outside.’
‘And…?’
‘A fight broke out in the church. It was terrible, Nico. As soon as I worked out what was happening I left and got a ride up to her parents’ house, but Antonietta was already on the cuccette to France.’
‘She took the train out?’
Aurora nodded. ‘I miss her very much, but she will never be back. She wrote and told me, but I knew it already—for how can she come back? Her name is mud all through the village and beyond. Not with her friends, but she has a very large family.’
Nico would have liked to tell her that time would heal things, but he knew only too well how people could hold a grudge.
‘Anyway,’ Aurora said, ‘I’ve decided that I’m going to go and see her.’
‘In France?’
She nodded. ‘As soon as I’ve saved up enough and have some leave owing I’m going to book my flight.’
He wanted to point out that she’d already have enough money if she would just let him pay her for his father’s care. Nico really wanted her to have that holiday with her friend in France, but he’d have to work out a way to give it to her. Without offending her, of course. Or misleading her.
‘Do you want another drink?’ Nico offered. ‘Or perhaps we could get dinner.’
‘You told me to step out of your shadow, Nico,’ Aurora said. ‘You told me that I was here for work. We’ve caught up on family and friends, so let’s just keep it about business.’ Aurora was proud of herself for that, at least.
‘Okay. Tell me about this idea you have.’
‘I thought you didn’t deal with assistants?’ Aurora sneered, reminding herself of how appalling his treatment of her today had been. ‘I’m going to speak with Vincenzo tomorrow. I will give him my idea and watch as he gets promoted.’
He smiled.
It was the most dangerous thing, for she could feel her resolve melting like the ice cubes at the bottom of her glass.
‘Tell me, Aurora.’
‘No.’ But she was so excited that she couldn’t not share it. ‘Okay—I think we should offer a very exclusive package for weddings at the temple ruins.’
‘I don’t own that land.’
‘But you own the land that surrounds it, and without that access it’s very difficult to get to.’
‘Yes, but there might be tourists about, or—’
‘Nico, it will be the same as a beach wedding. Of course there might be tourists or people walking there. And,’ she went on, ‘I know that whatever we come up with it might have to change later—there might one day be ten hotels in Silibri—’
‘Not like mine.’ Nico gave an adamant shake of his head.
The monastery had been a hellish restoration, and no developer in their right mind would have gone to the lengths he had. That aside, there was nowhere else with the views from the old monastery, nowhere with such access.
‘Aurora, it would be…’ He was about to put up obstacles, and there were many, but she was right. He knew that, for of course he had considered it. ‘It would be brilliant—’
‘But only in the right hands,’ Aurora said. ‘Only with the right manager.’
‘We have a functions manager.’
‘I’d want to make weddings at the temple separate. Exclusive,’ Aurora said. ‘And I want that role.’
‘You have no experience,’ Nico pointed out. ‘You have been in the hospitality industry for four weeks. Before that—’
‘I was a cleaner—and a very good one,’ Aurora said. ‘Is your father’s house not spotless?’
‘It is.’
Aurora had just combined three of his least favourite topics—his father, the fact that she was his father’s unpaid help, and weddings.
‘And I have contacts,’ she said. ‘I know everyone…’
‘Aurora…’ He kept his voice even. ‘It’s a good idea—an excellent one. But let’s get the hotel up and running first.’
She could not wait, though. ‘Nico, we could have wedding gowns for hire, for couples who want to be spontaneous. I want this to happen. I want that role and I will tell you why. I know what the temple looks like in the early morning, and in summer and in winter. I know how it looks when the moon is low at night…’ To prove it she took out her phone and moved her chair round the table so she sat next to him. ‘Look!’
With the scent of her close, with her bare arm next to his suited one, with her voice so close he could feel its vibration, Nico decided it was safer indeed to look at the images on her phone.
And they really were breathtaking.
‘Since I could walk I have explored those ruins almost daily. For years I have—’
It was she who halted now, for she could not reveal to Nico that it was there she had envisaged their wedding. Not in the tiny little village church, but there at the temple ruins.
It had been a pointless dream—she had known even then—for her parents would never have agreed to her marrying anywhere other than in church.
She felt his arm against hers and the heat from his thigh—or was it from hers? They were sitting so close to each other, and it had happened so naturally, but she felt terribly aware of that fact.
She moved herself and her chair to a far safer location.
Opposite him.
‘At least think about it,’ Aurora said. ‘And think of me…’ She paused and their eyes met across the table. ‘I mean, consider me for the role.’
‘Of course,’ Nico said, and still his eyes held hers. ‘And I do think of you, Aurora.’
She did not know what to say to that. She felt the pull of him, but it was all too late, she decided. She had put him behind her.
She tore her eyes from his gaze and looked down to her glass, which was empty.
‘Another one?’ Nico said.
‘I had better get on,’ Aurora said. She stood and put her bag over her shoulder. ‘Thank you for the drink, Nico. It was good to catch up.’
He walked her out and towards the elevators, and she could feel the thick energy between them. She dreaded that he might kiss her—but only because it would take a stronger woman than her to say no.
‘You had better go,’ Aurora said. ‘You have an early start. I know because I booked your driver.’
‘I should go,’ Nico agreed.
In fact, Aurora was the very reason he wasn’t staying at the hotel that night—to avoid just such a situation as this. And yet even with all his exit strategies planned here they stood, face to face.
‘I will see you at breakfast before I leave?’
‘I await my invitation,’ Aurora said.
‘It will be on your pillow.’
She wanted him on her pillow—and far more dangerous than her want, which was perpetually there, was the clear arrival of his.
Nico’s hand came to her cheek and he smoothed a stray lock of hair. It wasn’t only Aurora’s resolve that was fading.
She floored him.
Always.
The sexual attraction between them was undeniable, for sure. But there was also this banter between them—this life they both knew and this world they had shared. And Nico, despite doing everything he could to avoid it, now did not want the night to end.
His hand remained, cupping her ear, and his fingers were in her hair.
She could remember that hand, pressed over her mouth as she came, and she fought not to kiss it, not to flirt.
She won the former battle but failed on the latter.
‘I packed your underwear,’ Aurora said in a provocative tone—and there went the express train of her mouth again, saying things it should not and being too familiar.
Not that Nico seemed to mind, for he was stroking her earlobe and his eyes were telling of his desire.
And the guard she had fought to keep up was dissolving, for she did not know how to be anyone other than the person she was. The person who was in love with him.
He brought out the Aurora in her.
‘Aurora…’ Nico said, and she heard in the sound of him saying her name a summons to bed.
She ached to turn her head just a fraction and kiss the palm that held her cheek, to give in to the bliss of him just one last time. To have Nico make love to her in Rome.
He was leaving in the morning and would return only after she had left. This was their only chance, and Aurora did not know how to resist him.
Her neck fought not to arch and her mouth not to part to kiss his palm.
But then her guardian angels dashed in.
They flew from their clouds, or wherever they’d been hiding, and there was no time for them to apologise for their absence. They hauled her back from the brink.
‘Goodnight, Nico.’
Well done, Aurora!
Though it wasn’t actually Aurora who had halted things, for she was desperate for his kiss. No, it was a force greater than she that had somehow gathered and dragged those words from her mouth.
‘It’s been a long day,’ she added, then gave him a smile and walked off.
It would be a long, lonely night.
But at least she would awake with her pride.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Tuesday:
Room Service breakfast
RSVP’d Marianna to decline Nico’s kind invitation to breakfast, explaining I had already made plans.
Social Media Training.
Room Service dinner.
Read for a little while
Cried.
Wednesday:
Breakfast in restaurant.
Forgot about Nico!
Bought a red dress during lunch break.
Worked the day on Reception and was shouted at.
Went to the hotel’s hair salon and drank champagne while hair was done!
Read some more.
Hate him.
Thursday:
Woke early
Coffee at sunrise in a café opposite the hotel.
Grateful that I didn’t sleep with him again…
Not really…
THERE WAS SOMETHING so special about Rome early in the morning. The gleaming cobbled streets, fresh from the street cleaners, the lack of people, the abundance of all things beautiful.
Everywhere she looked there was more to see.
The disgusting gargoyles with their erections and horrible tongues.
The timeless beauty of the Spanish Steps.
And there it was. The Trevi Fountain, standing resplendent.
Almost alone, Aurora gazed into the water and saw there were just a few coins, so it must have recently been cleaned out. Then she looked up to Triton and his horses and then back down to the water.
All she had to do was throw in a coin to assure her return to Rome.
Never.
Aurora wanted to return to her simple life.
She almost meant it.
She would find her fireman, or a man who worked the vines, and she would love him completely, and he would love her in return.
And she would not hanker for Rome.
Nor for sitting in a bar with Nico and the sheer exhilaration of being near him.
And she would not regret that abrupt goodnight. She would be proud of her resolve. For instead of kissing his palm, and going where that would have led, she had called a halt and said goodnight.
Good, Aurora!
And she would say this to her daughter, if God gave her one.
I knew a wicked man once. A man who made my heart both bleed and sing at the same time…a man who made me succumb to my wildest urges. A man who made me believe we had been together in another life, for even if I did not know him completely I recognised him in my soul.
But I walked away, dear daughter. I did not let him use me again and again. And I don’t regret it. No, not even for a moment.
So why was she suddenly crying and scrabbling in her purse for a coin? Throwing it into the water with her eyes closed as she wished with all her heart for her time again…?
Because she would always regret Rome and the decision to walk away from the man she would love until her last breath.
She couldn’t tell that to her daughter…
Her wings were unfurling in colours she had never envisaged, and no matter how hard she tried she could not stuff them back in.
Aurora tossed in the coin.
Let me return to you, Nico. Let me in. Make love to me in Rome.
She was ashamed of her coin-toss in a way it would be too complicated to explain to someone else, or even to herself, but Aurora also felt better for it. And her mood lifted.
Today she was to work in the Club Lounge, which the very best of the guests frequented, and she had been told to dress to impress.
Back in the hotel, her curls fell into perfect shape as she ran her fingers through them, and she took out the make-up she had bought and applied it.
A little blusher, but not too much.
Eyeliner. Her new best friend.
Mascara.
And a slick of very subtle lipstick.
Should she wear the red dress, even though Nico would never see her in it?
Aurora couldn’t make up her mind.
But first she put on a new bra and panties in the most stunning coral.
They would clash, if she wore the red dress, but who cared? No one was going to see.
Aurora wore the red dress.
She found the Club Lounge rather fascinating.
There was breakfast, and then pastries mid-morning, and even champagne cocktails just before midday for a couple who, Aurora found out, had just got engaged.
‘Complimente!’ Aurora smiled as she placed the drinks down.
She was pleased for them—excited for them as she spied the way they held hands even as they sipped their drinks.
But she was sad for herself.
They knew love.
She looked out at the panoramic view of Rome that the Club Lounge afforded and wondered why all she could think of was Silibri and the temple ruins, and the little house her nonna had lived in, and had anyone watered the jasmine? Was Nico there now, strolling around confidently because there was no chance of bumping into her?
‘Aurora!’
Realising that she had been daydreaming, and had missed what Marianna had said, Aurora snapped to attention. ‘I’m sorry. I was miles away.’
Many miles away, in fact—all the way to Silibri.
‘I asked if you’d mind going to Nico’s. There’s some maintenance being done on the balcony. You might be there for a couple of hours. I don’t like to ask just anyone, and you were there the other day.’
‘Of course,’ Aurora responded politely, for what else could she say?
‘You look nice,’ Marianna commented.
‘I was worried it was too much for work.’
‘Not here, it’s not,’ Marianna said. ‘Every day is like a wedding! Your hair is nice too.’
All her early life Aurora’s mother had trimmed her hair, and later Aurora had done it herself. For her confirmation and on special occasions she had gone to an aunt who, until yesterday, Aurora had believed to be a hairdresser.
Oh, no, she wasn’t.
Luigi was a hairdresser!
And a therapist.
And an ego-boost.
All rolled into one delicious package.
Aurora had left the hotel salon feeling like a rock star.
Her dark locks felt like silk, and looked as if every strand had been polished by hand. Her hair now fell in a glossy, snaky curtain, several inches shorter than it had been when she had walked through the heavy brass doors.
The cost?
Astronomical.
Almost a week’s pay, gobbled up in two luxurious hours.
Actually, two weeks’ pay had been spent, if she included the dress, but when in Rome…
It was a short trip to Nico’s, and the driver gave her his number to call when the maintenance was done.
Soon she would be alone in his stunning villa… But not quite, for there were two men in overalls who were waiting for her to arrive.
‘Buongiorno!’ Aurora greeted them warmly as she disarmed the security system and let them in. And as she led them up the grand stairs she learned a little more about Nico’s home.
It was a heritage building, they said, and the balcony inspection was just routine.
There was nothing routine about Nico, Aurora thought.
His bedroom was exactly as it had been the last time she had seen it, with not a thing out of place.
Except for Aurora!
She was a little unsure of her place.
In Silibri, she would have put on coffee for the men, and then gone to chat with them as they worked.
But of course she was not at home, so she hovered in the main bedroom as the men inspected the balcony.
It took mere minutes.
‘Completato,’ the older man said.
‘You’re finished?’
‘Sì.’
It really had been a routine check.
Aurora saw them out and then went back upstairs and locked the French doors. She took out her phone to call the driver to come and take her back to the hotel.
Except she didn’t make the call.
Instead she stood in his bedroom for what was undoubtedly the last time. The coffered ceiling was a work of art, and she looked at the intricate engravings and wondered if Nico lay on the vast bed pondering how such art had been crafted and by whom.
Or did he lie with the drapes open at night and look out to Rome and Villa Borghese Park? Aurora wondered.
Or was he too busy when he was in bed?
Of all the regrets she had—and there were many where Nico was concerned—her biggest regret was Monday night.
Despite her promise to be aloof and professional, despite her promise to herself to get over him, it was the closest they had ever been.
Two people sharing a drink and conversation.
He had told her he loved his father, and that had been a revelation in itself. And he had been about to kiss her, Aurora was sure.
And take her to bed too.
Her body and her heart had wanted him to, yet foolish pride and her determination to put him behind her had told her no.
She wasn’t snooping, Aurora told herself as she wandered around the stunning room. Of course she wasn’t.
She was merely checking that everything was in order for Nico’s return, just as his PA surely would.
She walked to his bedside and saw the small shelf of books that was beside it. Leafing her way through them, she frowned when she saw they were all books on productivity and increasing focus.
‘Nico, how do you relax with this?’ she asked out loud.
And then Aurora smiled and reached into her bag—not for her phone, but for the sexy romance she was currently reading. She would slip it into his reading pile, and even if he didn’t want her she would spice up one of his nights, somehow!
But she hadn’t finished reading it herself yet.
Well, she almost had. It wouldn’t take her long to do so, and Marianna wasn’t expecting her back for a couple of hours…
Putting her bag on the floor, she sat down on the edge of his bed—and, truly, that was how Aurora meant to remain. Except as she read unthinkingly she slipped off her high heels.
Nico would have told her to make herself at home, she told herself as she lifted her legs onto the bed and lay back on plump pillows. Of course he would. Well, if he’d behaved as he should then he would. How many times had he rested his head in her pink bedroom, after all?
It was the most peaceful hour she had found in Rome. There, in his bed.
Now and then she would glance up and look out to the lush green park, and then back to her book she’d go, letting out a contented sigh at the end.
It would be Nico who would read it next!
After she’d leant over and placed the book on his shelf, between his boring other ones, she lay back with a smile, imagining Nico’s expression when he found it.
Imagining him.
Imagining them.
It was something she knew all too well in her head…
‘Aurora!’
It was clearly her day for being caught daydreaming.
His voice startled her and her eyes snapped open. She realised she had dozed off. ‘You’re back!’
‘Clearly.’
In fact Nico wasn’t surprised to find her here. Marianna had mentioned that Aurora was at the house, sorting out the maintenance guys.
For the first time in living memory Nico had ‘popped home’ in the middle of a working day.
And there, in a blood-red dress, with her snaky black curls and bare feet, lay Aurora, asleep on his bed.
He was turned on even before he called her name.
‘I wasn’t asleep,’ she said.
‘Then what are you doing?’ he asked.
‘Daydreaming,’ Aurora said, for to her it was the most normal thing in the world to do.
She wasn’t flustered. She didn’t rush to sit up, and nor did she apologise; instead she looked him right in the eyes.
‘About…?’ Nico asked, when he knew full well he should be telling her off, or just getting the hell out. For there was seduction in the look she gave him, and he had sustained it with his low reply.
‘My husband,’ Aurora said. ‘My future one.’
‘Really?’
‘Yes.’
‘And what is he like?’
‘He has a beard,’ Aurora said.
‘A beard?’