Kitabı oku: «The Last Da Vinci», sayfa 3
Insurance
“Now admit it—why do you serve with us?
“Because I’m a bad artist… Not by your standards – by mine. That's why I work for your agency, Dimmock, and earn for my living.
“So, in order not to lose this bread, you must see a beautiful lady and draw her without delay. We don’t have much or little time, one day, June 30th…”
from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:24:08.
On May 28, 2018, Monday, in the interval 5:45–5:51 pm, a tense conversation took place with East; she did not want (or could not) remember the exact date of our events in September 2017, as she later explained, she remembered the sequence of events of Fantastic Week, but couldn’t remember exactly what week in September 2017 they happened. At 5:53 pm I accompanied East to the door, she was getting ready to go somewhere.
Solar flares began 7–10 minutes after the end of our conversation, at 6:00 pm the first flare. Then, 20 minutes later in the office, I solemnly showed her the solar activity that had occurred. She was impressed:
xras.ru/sun_flares.html?m=5&d=28&y=2018
Index -1.4. Class C2.7 flare, area 2712, time from 8:04 pm to 8:12 pm (peak 8:10 pm).
The previous activity was on May 22–24, index -1.0; earlier in May there was no Solar activity. Subsequent activity occurred on June 6 (index -0.0, class C1.0 flare).
That is, we had a sharp, unpleasant emotional conversation and after a short period of time, quite violent solar activity began, lasting 2 hours from 6:00 pm to 8:12 pm, and the Sun remained calm a week before and a week after this event.
The question that I raised in a conversation with East was quite important for me, namely, I vitally needed a clear and pure witness to those events and her answer that she definitely did not remember the date did not suit me.
On that day, I began to think about what events that happened would help her remember this date. And a few hours later I found this, reliably documented event.
It was Insurance for our car, the date was written on it – Monday, September 11, 2017, East remembered that she started taking out it on Friday, September 8, 2017, as a result, on that day I went to the country house on my own for minibus. She only promised that she could come to me later and help me complete the “protective structure”.
Why is it important? To make sure that the information could not be changed by subjective human reflections and forgetfulness, the Spirit secured itself with a paper document with an appropriately self-explanatory name.
And the main thing that makes me think is that we receive this document regularly, every year. That is, in order for the insurance to end on a certain date, it must have been issued earlier, several years ago, also on that date.
Personal Infinity
“That's disgusting!”
“It's not disgusting. This is the latest achievement of modern science.”
from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:34:58.
What is the Personal Infinity from my point of view? Why do I regularly focus on it?
I feel this as a kind of bright state of living, being, when any external intervention inevitably fails. The invasion triggers some mythical process of “event processing” on the physical level. Which also can be called as an encounter with Event Horizon.
Why am I convinced that I have such a controversial artifact, archaic and useless in modern society? I would call it some kind of subconscious confidence, an inner instinct at the level of my subjective perception. Sometimes I go out of town to look at the stars and each time, being in almost complete darkness and seeing only stars in the sky, I discover that my immediate “outer physical world” is very specific. However, I am not at all sure that this physical basis is a consequence of the work of Infinity. At this stage of my life, optimally—this refers to Infinity as an abstract instrument of cognition.
Why did I decide that this supposed Infinity is a part of me, and not I – a part of it? Again, based on many years of observations, it seems to me that it is as elementary a part of me as an arm or a leg. Yes, early I used to think that it was part of the Spirit, but after a couple of decades of observations I came to the conclusion that this was not so, and the Spirit at the beginning of my path only played the role of a “manager”, but now it is increasingly and for a long time leaves me alone. My Infinity does not disappear and is not replaced by emptiness and the absence of something.
And so, I have absolutely no need for the Spirit to be nearby, I don’t feel the shortage for it, and my attitude towards its rare manifestations, I hope, is sincere.
Infinity is full of meaning, which it also creates. We can say that this meaning is Infinity.
Consciousness and thought (link in Russian)
https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/Человек_разумный
“The human brain perceives the external world through the senses, and each individual human is influenced greatly by his or her experiences, leading to subjective views of existence and the passage of time . It is usually said that people have consciousness, self-awareness, intelligence – all this in one way or another corresponds to the processes of thinking. They also talk about such qualities as self-awareness, sensitivity, wisdom and the ability to perceive relationships with oneself and with the environment. How far a person’s mental constructs or his experience correspond to the objectivity of the external physical world is a matter of debate, as well as what exactly is meant by the above terms and how correct their use is in principle.”
Thinking (link in Russian)
https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/Мышление
“A feature of thinking is the ability to obtain knowledge about such objects, properties and relationships of the surrounding world that cannot be directly perceived. This property of thinking is carried out through such inferences as analogy and deduction.
Thinking is associated with the functioning of the brain, but the very ability of the brain to operate with abstractions arises in the course of a person’s assimilation of forms of practical life, norms of language, logic, and culture. Thinking is carried out in diverse forms of spiritual and practical activity, in which the cognitive experience of people is generalized and preserved. Thinking is carried out in figurative and symbolic form; the main results of its activity are expressed here in the products of artistic and religious creativity, which uniquely generalize the cognitive experience of humanity. Thinking is also carried out in its own adequate form of theoretical knowledge, which, based on previous forms, acquires unlimited possibilities for a speculative and model vision of the world.”
Infinity began to clearly manifest itself after my catastrophe in my relationship with the world, which occurred in June 1996, but even earlier, I believe, there were its local manifestations.
The fact that this Infinity (perhaps in my subjective opinion) influences in some way the events around me in space and even separated by time is probably a sign of the initial filling of its energy. Of course, Infinity by definition and in the ideal case should not directly influence anything other than itself, but perhaps this is one of the paradoxes, and in order for it to take place, it needs to take energy somewhere and receive its Attributes, while maintaining strict distancing from the world.
In order to simplify the process of understanding the principles of its work, I try to become aware of myself through fictitious, creative, fantasy events and associations, because thinking and transforming illusory events is much simpler and safer.
Regarding the uniqueness of this Infinity, for some reason I always believed that every person has it. But over time, I tried to understand some of the actions of people, and through the awareness of these unsuccessful attempts, the idea became closer to me that this phenomenon does not have a significant manifestation among part of the population. For some things that a person does can destabilize the technological processes of Infinity, and since people regularly and en masse do these things, therefore, they are confident that they are not risking anything. And, therefore, their physical nature is somewhat different.
You understand perfectly well what kind of things I’m talking about, so I don’t dwell on them, these events and actions are not interesting to me, and naturally I avoid them, but I’m not going to convince people, especially since there is a possibility that what they do is natural and good for them.
The presence of this phenomenon does not provide great advantages, and in addition I have to check my life path to ensure that I do not harm yourself in a moral or physical sense. And naturally, on not causing harm and undue influence on the people around me.
Otherwise, I am a very ordinary person, an unremarkable, mediocrity, a kind of gray mouse, which suits me quite well.
In mid-summer 2017, an incident occurred. At that time, in the evening after work, I often went to our country house along a path that ran from a bus stop through a small forest. There was a fork in the center of the forest, and if you don’t turn in the right direction, you might end up in the wrong place. Since I almost always returned in complete darkness, when absolutely nothing was visible in the forest, I decided to count the number of steps to the fork. I did this for two days in complete darkness, even walking with my eyes closed. A week later, when I was walking along the same road during the day, I decided to count my steps. There were significantly fewer steps, 30–40. This made a strong impression on me.
The presence of my Infinity has a characteristic feature—the absence of personal attachments and any obligations. It feels like loneliness.
But loneliness is not like emptiness and separation, but more like wholeness, completeness and the bright and stormy activity associated with this. The world is present in perception, but in my consciousness it is becoming more and more limited. The more my awareness increases, the more limited my worldview becomes within certain limits. The more I perceive reality, the less I see and feel it. Worldview becomes a way (and hostage) of self-knowledge.
Any obligation inevitably loses, because it violates the very principle of the existence of Infinity, limiting it, which is impossible. The limitless cannot be limited.
Do the people around me and the events happening in my life influence me? No dependencies does not mean no influence. In my opinion, human life is to a greater extent a matter of socialization, taking into account the interests of other people and the necessary adjustment to their desires and needs. When I studied at the theater studio, adjustment was the main method of acting. To create a complete performance, it was necessary to interact with the partner, considering his emotional and mental impulses.
Perhaps the cycles of my behavior, when I am completely closed or when I once again open up and begin to be interested in the world around me, are also connected with the internal life cycles of the “breath” of my Infinity.
One of the functions of Infinity is the systematic destruction of peripheral objects and events. Naturally, we do not consider real objects, the emphasis is only on illusory, creative, fantasy ones.
What does it mean to “destroy” a fantasy object? Of course, this is different from damaging it or seeing a real object die.
This means “destroying” it in your own creative worldview. As for example in one of the classic films from the 70s of the 20th century, a girl leaves her home and “sees” her parents’ house, where she lived for many years, and which is already far from her and is still visible on the top of the mountain, burns out. Of course, it does not actually burn, but it burns in her imagination, and now her memory includes a virtual fact, which for her soul probably has more meaning than reality. Because she will never return there and will never know whether this house exists now.
Any object or phenomenon contains links and keys that can be used in your own understanding of the world. The resulting key is not directly related to the object, now it is a link that can either point to another object, alien to you, which again will soon have to be destroyed, or, more interestingly, this link may well lead to an object or phenomenon that was previously lost, dissolved in your worldview and ceased to have a separate meaning, even if it never mattered to you before.
(Written from August 14, 2022 8:55 am to August 15, 2022 8:15 pm)
The presence of Infinity seriously influences the worldview, for example, in the fact that the very minimum amount of matter and, accordingly, energy is enough for a person. We can say that he (this person) saves and is “satisfied with little”. But this is not so, he rather really does not need much according to his feelings. It can extract the necessary information and energy from a small volume of matter. He is not content with “what is”, he does not lower his appetites, excess matter and energy will probably be discarded and hopelessly turned into useless garbage in his life.
The situation of those who feel the external influence of Infinity is characteristic. In their life there will be a similar emotional message for minimal influence on the world around them, but in this case it will be a false imperative, clearly someone else’s influence, because they will feel this lie inside themselves and they will be missing something. For example, as in this fragment, a person craves something that I don’t understand:
(link in Russian)
https://nad-suetoi.livejournal.com/163672.html
“At the very bottom of the human being, there lives something that makes us languish and thirst for something more than the simple satisfaction of everyday bodily and mental needs. They cannot give a person real happiness: after all, in the end this always turns out to be not enough. A person, sometimes without realizing it, wants to become truly happy. And this, according to <…> and his hero, is possible only by participating in what came from another world, came from heaven. In the language of theology, the fullness of communion with God is that miracle, that happiness that offers a person <…>”
In my case, on the contrary, everyday events fully satisfy my needs and aspirations, because even the very minimum is enough to obtain the required depth of awareness.
So for a person, may well be enough – one day of his life, communicating with one person, eating one lunch and seeing one sunset, remembering one poem and performing one dance.
So we have the ability to extract the required amount of energy and information from a small amount of matter and, accordingly, making a minimal impact. I.e. Infinity is equal to secrecy, insignificance, inexpressiveness and lack of importance of the person.
In the case of Infinity, one instance of an event or a reference to it is enough to, if necessary receive any (even infinite) flow of information and energy in volume, depth and variety. A sort of “Noah’s Ark” of subjective perception.
The character of Infinity—to arbitrarily maximize or minimize the importance of individual objects of matter and energy, thereby, and possibly as a result of this, objects that fall within the scope of its active Event Horizon will inevitably undergo serious internal shocks and, accordingly, deformations that can lead to their transformation, division into elements, or even destruction.
All these possibilities, in the general, mass case, are speculative and have only limited interest for humans, because without external energy supply, the energy of the human soul will not be enough for these actions.
However, if for some external reasons some outer shell of his soul is destroyed and this person does not die, then something begins to feed his thoughts and feelings, he seems to gain access to some “infinite” source of energy.
There are well-established trends in the awareness of this rare situation.
First, people believe that this flow of energy represents the external Natural world.
The second option is that these are some “bad”, personalized external forces who are planning how to “enslave” him.
Of course, no one will consider the third option – that this is a reflection of the inner nature of a person.
Naturally, I don’t know the answer to this question, but according to my subjective life experiences, the first two options are not my case.
(The following paragraph was written on the evening of December 10, 2021)
Perception occurs on the physical plane, this is the so-called direct perception, everything that is seen and heard by the subject “directly”, and then transferred to the virtual plane and destroyed or transformed so that the person can move on. As an explanation of why everything happens so complicatedly, isn’t it possible to simply perceive and not destroy anything, the thought came to me that all this is similar to a child’s perception, when the world is understood literally, but due to the fact that reality and awareness of reality diverge – and a certain virtual, illusory plane arises, onto which the perceived is transferred, i.e. the virtual plan arises due to the impossibility reconcile the immediate perception “as is” with actual reality.
The spirit regularly gives me gifts, they are very different. Sometimes I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. The following chapters describe a whole scattering of them; the impact of some on my worldview was quite strong. I had to work hard to bring my emotional experiences and thinking to a general consensus.
Naturally, I will once again inform the reader that everything that is described below is just a product of my illusory subjective worldview, even though these events are based on real facts. After all, any fact can be ignored, but what happens if you notice “connections” and start analyzing them?
I attribute some funny effects to the influence of my Infinity:
1) Sometimes people, seeing me, seem to find themselves in some kind of “emptiness”; they try to understand what they need here now, as if all their thoughts had suddenly disappeared somewhere. This usually happens when I'm actively thinking about something.
2) People do not adequately perceive my condition, for example, in my youth there was a case when I was quite well, in a great mood, but to an external observer it seemed that I was crying.
3) People hear something that is not there and it seems to them that I said something, but I was actually silent, or they hear completely different words, not those that I said. This also includes the fact that people sometimes instantly forget what I told them just a minute ago. Therefore, if I speak to someone, I pronounce the words clearly, expressively, as simply as possible, and immediately try to understand what they really heard.
What I see and say does not always coincide with what my interlocutor sees and hears. And if I am prepared for this in advance and make a forced correction of my behavior; but this can be serious stress for the interlocutor, and in this case I strive to end the conversation as soon as possible, with minimal negative impact on the other person’s psyche.
Rapture of the Bride or Gift
“Who is that beautiful girl?”
“Her name is Melicenta. She's from Perador.”
“Perador, Perador… But this is something from the time of King Arthur?!”
“Absolutely right!”
“Oh my God! But these are the times of Hamlet, Macbeth, and…”
“Yes, they too… from there… Next door to the Macbeths, the princess from Perador.”
“But Perador hasn’t existed for many centuries?! So… it means that Melicenta and I are separated not by space, but by time. And this time is insurmountable!”
“Well, this is relative… How familiar are you with the problems of external order within the universe?”
“Do you mean Einstein's Theory of Relativity? I must admit, I’m not good at it…”
“Now I’ll try to explain it to you more popularly: let’s imagine a Universe of six dimensions. Well, the first four are taught in school – length, height, width and the time factor. The other two are a little more complicated. These are the ‘Sphere of material influence’ and the ‘Sphere of imagination’. Hence the six-dimensionality of space, and not four-dimensionality, as this one of yours… well, this one of yours erroneously claimed…”
“Einstein?”
“Yes, Einstein. Do you understand?”
“Frankly, not very much. I am an artist and am used to thinking in images, and not in the measurements of galaxies.”
“Artist… artist… Okay. Let's move on to imaginative thinking. Are you satisfied with the formula that everything created by our imagination must exist somewhere in the Universe?”
from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:43:55.
In the middle of summer 2018, I discovered that on September 23, 2017, a very interesting event occurred. You can find information like this on the Web:
“Recently, articles have appeared on the Internet that an important astronomical event will occur on September 23, 2017, a symbolic description of which is given in the last and only prophetic book of the New Testament, ‘The Revelation of St. John the Theologian’, which in the ancient Koine Greek language is called ‘Apocalypse’.”
In the first English-language video describing this event with visualization of the movement of celestial bodies in the Sky Stellarium computer program, I was attracted by the final picture, in which, in addition to the date September 23, 2017, when the Rapture of the Bride took place, namely “12 stars, the Sun and the Moon lined up around the constellation Virgo in the sky” another date was present.
This date was September 9, 2017, or rather the transition between the days September 9–10, 2017, as “the date of the child’s exit from the mother’s womb (birth)”; of course this was the exit of Jupiter from the conventional connecting lines outlined between stars of the “body” of the constellation Virgo.
For me, the Gift consisted of a combination of several events that happened in that time frame:
1) My “Warrior Burial”, September 5–10, 2017;
2) Solar activity, September 6–10, 2017;
3) Rapture of the Bride, September 23, 2017, with the date mentioned as September 9–10, 2017.
Burial of a warrior
Victor Sanchez “The Teachings of Don Carlos (Practical use of the techniques of Carlos Castaneda)” (1996, link in Russian)
https://www.rulit.me/books/uchenie-dona-karlosa-prakticheskoe-ispolzovanie-tehnik-karlosa-kastanedy-read-93096-53.html
“In his books, Carlos Castaneda mentions the practice of warriors burying themselves in the ground (III 121–123), (VI 11–12). He reports that warriors bury themselves in the earth to gain purity, to receive instructions, or to cure an illness, but does not describe this experience in detail. <…>
At turning points in life, we can bury our old self in the Earth and allow a new self to be born.”
Initiation “Warrior's Burial” (link in Russian)
https://lastday.club/initiation-warrior-burial/
“As one of the methods of initiation, the most ancient ritual practice is used – the burial of a warrior. What we want to bury and leave in the ground dies within us, and our essence is reborn. <…>
The most ancient shamanic ritual practice, known in Siberia, Tibet, Altai, among the ancient Slavs, Eskimos, Indians… A lighter version is used by Castaneda's followers. Tougher – when accepting new fighters in some special forces.
… When we finished, we collected our things and went to our cars. Everyone was silent. Everyone was absorbed in themselves. We have been reborn, become a little wiser, a little deeper. We are no longer the same guys who walked into the forest a few hours ago. It was an early morning. Life was awakening around us. And we were reborn…”
I did something similar at the beginning of September 2017. In my case no rebirth was planned; for me it was only a forced procedure to cleanse my own karma, which I had been thinking about for many years and finally tried to implement. The attempt was unsuccessful, as a result I did not clear anything and remained the same worthless person with dirty karma as I was before. Of course, for me there was some important meaning in this procedure, but it was at the level of “going with a beautiful girl to an expensive restaurant”, and before Fantastic Week I had no idea that this could become something unique in my life. What’s interesting is that it was precisely the cultural illusions that I write about later in the book – influenced my life, i.e. virtual illusory delusions played an important role in fine-tuning my perception of the world, unless, of course, these are just another of my fantasies.
It’s also very cool that I found on the Internet (opened on December 29, 2021 at 1:10 pm), a quote with the direct text “And we were reborn…”, so I have the opportunity to speculate that this magical event has a cultural meaning a very definite goal, and regardless of my personal opinion, which, by the way, does not exist on this matter.
From the outside it may seem that I dream of pushing personal responsibility somewhere far away, but in fact my goal is different, I am trying to distance myself as much as possible in order to observe this illusory situation “from the outside”, since I have serious concerns about ongoing external manipulation with goals unclear to me. But since I have a choice of how to perceive all this, I allow that these goals are good and useful for me.
In the book 19+, chapter Fantastic Week, this date, the evening of September 9 – the day of September 10, 2017, is the time of my third and last attempt to “dive under the protection of the Earth” (this magical procedure can also be called “death and birth again (rebirth)”) for that unforgettable week, and every time I did this (three times in a week), after a few hours (the next day), flares of class X9.3, X1.4, X8.6 occurred on the Sun. Which in itself is a rather rare event; the Sun generates such flares no more than once every 2–3 years. Naturally, I am simplifying and mean “a series of outbreaks over one (or two) months”, i.e. these several flares form, in my opinion, one series and such an event occurs on the Sun no more than once every 2–3 years.
My previous full attempts were made somewhere in 1998, there were also several of them, over a period of six months, and then I was unable to extend them for more than 30 minutes (I began to suffocate from lack of oxygen). There were two incomplete attempts in June 2016 and June 2017, lasting no more than an hour each and they should not be considered for the reason that in these cases one side of the “burial” was not covered with earth at all, which of course produce any results, and was just a training session before the real event. I have never attempted to use this magical procedure again in my life.
I consider the combination of solar flares and the Rapture of the Bride to be an important and non-competitive event. What is a non-competitive event? This is an event that does not occur on its own, but is a clear consequence of another event or process. I. e. between two events there is an unconditional cultural connection that cannot be challenged in any way.
There is some sense in emphasizing the words “cultural connection”. This is a key point in understanding this dependence. If you “turn off” cultural perception, which in essence means perception through the illusions inherent in upbringing, then there will be no connection. And this cultural perception is imposed not only on you, my reader, but also undoubtedly on me, provoking an awareness of what is happening, following the direction and path laid down by certain forces.
If we consider the situation from an everyday point of view, then a non-competitive event is when one cat lives in a room and it has a bowl of food. She is not competing with anyone for this bowl, this bowl is definitely hers, and cannot belong to anyone else. The cat does not need to prove that this is her bowl. If there are two cats in the house, then regardless of the number of bowls of food, they will compete with each other for food. For example, a cat can eat food from its bowl and go to drive away its rival from the second bowl, etc.
I called this situation the “trump card”. If you have any arguments, then I can lay out this “trump card”, and you will not be able to challenge it in any way. This card will win by definition, because it “breaks” our gentle everyday worldview. Regardless of the issue we will discuss.
The lack of alternative to the perception of the “card” indirectly indicates the presence of Infinity. The impact of the “card” is reminiscent of the work of something that should not go beyond the Event Horizon, and only there devour real or fictional reality, like Stephen King’s Langoliers. The fact that we cannot “turn” the card, look at it “from a different angle” or somehow change its nature is an indication that the card is constantly and independently moving – for example, towards the perceiving person, this is possible if it simply “eats” this remaining road (our perception) to the goal (observer). A similar effect will be felt if the card is constantly moving away from the observer, producing more and more new perceptions in the subject (unwinding his perception).
If you doubt this, try to mentally “beat” this “trump card”. In my subjective opinion, the human mind is arranged in such a way that you cannot “interrupt” it, come up with objections, etc., your thinking is simply “will fall into a stupor”, turn off and “self-destruct”. I'm guessing this is the result of some genetic code being triggered.
In the process of analyzing the current situation, it is advisable to take into account other events described in this book and in the previous part, the book 19+. Why is this important, why pay attention and analyze the life of a particular person? Due to the polluted permissiveness and all sorts of garbage of our information space, if there is no “thick layer” of related activities, an ordinary person will refuse any apparent correspondence between events so far from each other and can begin to consider them more seriously only if there are some prerequisites in a person’s life, for “there is no smoke without fire” and this subject must undoubtedly have previously manifested itself in a certain way. And of course, where would we be without the rule that “a person is given something that he can overcome”, something that will strengthen him and that he can further use.
